I woke up from the sunlight shining down on my face. I felt comfortable and relaxed and when the memories of last night replayed in my head I thought I couldn't be happier.
I stretched my body carefully trying not to hit Zayn, but when I felt around for his body, he wasn't there.
My eyes shot open in realization. Where could he be? I pulled the blanket over my chest to cover my naked body as I searched around the room for any clues.
"Zayn?" I called. There was no answer so I grabbed the robe off of the bed and slipped it on.
"Zayn, where are you?" I finally made it to the bathroom to see something attached to the mirror. I pulled the paper off the mirror and flipped it over to see my name written on it.
This is what I'm good at right? I hurt people. I make them run away and I don't own up to the consequences. But that's because I'm afraid. Afraid of your reaction. Afraid that I'll just mess up again. So last night when I was supposed to tell you the truth I got caught up in the moment. You made me forget the reason why I brought you here. But this isn't your fault. It was mine. The truth is I'm going back on tour today. I had two fucking weeks to tell you and I blew them all off because I was scared. I didn't want to abandon you right after what happened with your parents. I was scared that you'd hurt yourself again and it'd be my fault. But I already know while your reading this you're feeling like I left you. But I'll be back. I promise.
I love you so much Sophia.
Tears ran down my face as I reread the letter. I couldn't believe this was happening. That it was happening to me.
"Sophia." I turned to see my friends Angel, El and Danielle. They all ran over to me and wrapped me in a hug.
"H-he's gone? I-I didn't even s-say goodbye." The girls shushed me and pulled me out of the hotel full of memories Zayn and I shared.
"I can't stay here. It has to many things that remind me of him." I spoke as I shoved my clothes in a suitcase.
"Then you're staying with us. You don't have to be alone Sophia. We're here for you." Danny explained. I stopped packing and turned to look at my friends.
"Why isn't he here when I need him the most? I can't do this without him." The girls pulled me into a hug as I sobbed quietly.
This wasn't fair. Zayn can't leave me like this. I know I did the same but I had a good reason. Everything that happened between Niall and I drove Zayn and I apart. It just made sense if I left.
Now I'm alone and pregnant. I needed Zayn to be by my side for the appointments or when I was feeling sick. I need him to tell me that everything would be alright.
"I-I need to see him. I just have too." I pulled away from them as I wiped my tears away. "I need an explanation."
I tried to put up a front for the fans. I didn't want them to find out what was going on. But on the inside I was breaking apart. I was a disaster. I couldn't eat or sleep. I knew Sophia had read my letter. I knew it broke her heart. I never wanted it to end that way. I didn't want her hurt her. It was hurting me just as much.
He had just finished playing a show in Las Vegas and I was just chilling in the dressing room when Harry burst through the door.
"Zayn I need to talk to you." Harry spoke quickly. He was out of breath when he sat down on the couch.
"What's going on?" I mumbled. I wasn't really paying attention until Harry spoke me.
"Zayn pay attention!" He groaned. I rolled my eyes but I still looked at him.
"The girls have been trying their best to comfort Sophia but she won't have it. She coming over here tomorrow."
My eyes widened. Half of me was totally excited to see her and the other half was terrified. I know for a fact Sophia is upset with me. Probably even angry. How was I supposed to make her except my apology?
"What? Why?" I could feel the palms of my hands start to sweat.
"She wants an explanation. She wants to know why you couldn't tell her like the rest of us did." Harry looked away already knowing he made me pissed.
"Who's fucking side are you on?" I glared at him but when he turned back he had the same glare on his face too.
"Y'know you wouldn't be in this mess right now if you just told Sophia in the beginning."
"But I didn't. So are you gonna help me or not?" I watched Harry get up and walk to the door.
"This ones on you Zayn."
I made sure that when I saw Zayn I wouldn't break down. I wouldn't fall back into his trap. Into his good looks or his way of loving me. I was gonna be strong for myself and my child. I wasn't going to see Zayn just for an explanation. I wanted out and I'm finally done with him.
I held the strap of my bag tighter to my chest as I walked into the venue the boys were playing at. I saw a couple familiar people from when I went on tour but other then that everyone were strangers to me.
I made it to the dressing rooms. I could hear the boys talking quietly so I didn't even feel like knocking like I usually would. I knew they were talking about me.
I took a deep breath before turning the knob. I knew once I turned it there was no turning back. Zayn and I would be over forever.
"Zayn." When my voice broke out all the boys turned to me in surprise. Zayn shot up from his seat his eyes wide.
"Sophia. What're you doing here?" I rolled my eyes. I knew someone told him I'd be coming over.
"Why didn't you tell me you were going on tour? I would've understood."
Zayn walked over to me. "Can we just talk about this somewhere else?"
"I have nothing to hide. So we can talk here." I crossed my arms over my chest impatiently waiting for Zayn to speak. He gave me a look of disbelief but I just shrugged it off.
"C'mon Soph, lets just talk somewhere else, please." Zayn reached forward to touch my arm but I jerked it off.
"Don't call me that." I glared at him for a good moment before turned around and walking out of the room.
I watched as Sophia stubbornly walked out of the room. Her arms were still crossed over chest which only meant that she was really angry with me.
I turned to look at the boys a little bit freaked out.
"What am I gonna do?" I muttered more to myself.
"Do what you gotta do Zayn. It's up to you."
I let out a heavy sigh as I walked down the endless hallways. They continued and I made sure to look in each room for Sophia. Then I remembered something.
I ran as fast as I could until I got to the roof. I pushed the door open to see Sophia looking over the edge.
"At least you remembered something from our relationship."
She turned around, tears filling her eyes.
"Sophia, just let me explain–"
"I don't need your explanation Zayn. I don't want it either. All I want from you is to remember that the baby that's growing in me belongs to you too. So I hope you can love her more then you loved me. She's gonna need you."
"W-we're having a girl?" I was totally shocked. She nodded as she wiped a tear away. She walked over to me and gave me a hug.
"Just be there for her okay. Don't make her feel abandoned. I don't want her to feel what I'm feeling right now."
"Sophia I'm sorry. I really wanted to tell you, but we're having such a good time. I didn't want to ruin the moment."
She only shook her head, a smile on her lips. "It didn't matter. It was still ruined."
"So what's gonna happen to us?" I didn't want to ask her, but I knew she would tell me sooner or later.
"I want you to be there as much as you can for our daughter, but we're done Zayn. I can't do this anymore."
Sophia leaned forward and pressed a kiss to my lips. I couldn't even react because I was in so much shock.
"I love you Zayn. I really do."
She pulled off her promise ring and dropped it in my palm.
"Do you remember what you promised me that day?" She asked.
Our eyes connected for a second before I looked away.
"I-I promised to never hurt you, c-cheat on you, to always be by your side."
She nodded her head. "I'll always be here for you Zayn. Just not as your girlfriend."
I watched as she walked towards the door. My mind was going crazy. She was really leaving me.
"I also promised you I'm not going anywhere, and I promised you that I'd love you for as long as I lived. Nothing will ever tear us apart."