She's Not Afraid

Sophia Villegas has everything she could ever want. Her life wasn't horrible, but it wasn't great.
Sophia tries to please everyone, even all the people she hates.

Zayn Malik has just gone through a nasty break up, and just wants to forget about it. What happens when he meets someone new at a party, and falls head over heels for her?

Can Zayn get through to Sophia's heart? Or is this love story hopeless?

You'll never know until she falls in love...


9. I'm Trying

Zayn POV

I groaned as I felt the morning sun hit my eyes. It was awfully bright, and it just made my head hurt more. I sat up and looked around. I don't remember going to bed. 

I turned to my left. There was an imprint in the pillow that was next to mine. 

I shared a room with Harry. Why wasn't he still in bed? He usually was one of the last boys to get up. 

I threw the covers off of me and noticed that I wasn't wearing any clothes. I furrowed my eyebrows. I never sleep naked. I grabbed my boxers.

I noticed a dress on the floor. I picked it up with wide eyes. 

This was Sophia's dress. 

I looked around the room. 

This wasn't my hotel room. It was Sophia's. 

Then I noticed something that made my stomach fall. I kneeled down and grabbed the wrapper off the ground. 

I'm not quite sure, but I think Sophia and I had sex last night. 


Sophia POV 

I was so freaking sore. It hurt to walk, but I kept moving. I honestly couldn't stay in there, especially since Zayn was fast asleep.

I walked into a near by Starbucks and order a latte. I sat down and looked at my phone. 

I was nervous when Zayn would wake up. I don't remember anything that happened last night, and I hope he doesn't either. I just can't believe I was drunk on my first time. 

I decided to go for a walk. It was actually decent weather for once. I walked past cute little shops. I admired the the amazing clothes on the racks. 

I eventually got to a park with a swing set so I went and took a seat. 

I started to push myself. My feet started to lift off the ground and I got higher and higher. 

I suddenly felt my phone vibrated in my pocket. Zayn. 

I really didn't want to talk to him. So ignored the call. But he called again. And again. 

I sighed. I felt tears start to well up in my eyes. Why was I so dumb. I got drunk and I gave my virginity up when I wasn't ready. 

My tears fell and landed on my jeans. 

Zayn is a player. He already had sex a bunch of times. I wanted to do the deed with someone special. Even though Zayn means a lot to me, and I still have strong feelings for him, this wasn't supposed to happen. Not to me. Not yet. 

I quickly texted Zayn where I was. He said that he'd be there in ten minutes. I started to mentally and emotionally practice what I wanted to say and how I wanted to act when he got here. I needed to tell him that we couldn't have a relationship. 

But when I saw Zayn running down the street towards the park, all that practice flew out the window. 

I just stared at him. I didn't know what to say. 

"Hey." He said out of breath. He sat in the swing beside me. 

After awhile without anyone talking, Zayn spoke up. "Sophia, what happened last night?" He asked as he turned to me. I shrugged. "I don't remember." I muttered. 

"Me neither." I stopped swinging my swing and turned to Zayn. 

"We had sex." I felt my tears fall. No one spoke. 

I quickly got up and stood in front of Zayn. "I knew it was a mistake when I allowed you back in my life." Zayn looked shocked as I continued to speak. "How could you do this to me?" I cried. 

"What did I do? I was fucking drunk like you! I had no intention in having sex last night." He shot back. I couldn't help but get mad. 

"You took advantage of me. You let me get drunk so you could get in my pants!" I shout. I didn't care if people overheard our fight. I had to prove that I was right. 

"I never took advantage of you. I don't remember anything of last night. And aren't you to young to be drinking anyways? So don't fucking pin all of this on me, because last I heard, it takes two to have sex."

Honestly I don't know what came over me. I don't know where this came from, but next thing I knew was that I slapped Zayn across his face. 

It was dead silent for a couple seconds until Zayn turned to me with tears falling from his eyes. "If this means anything to you, you were my first." Zayn pushed past me. I stood there feeling overwhelmed. I couldn't think straight. Then I felt a fat droplet of rain on my forehead. 


I walked into the hotel room soaked from head to toe. I went in into the room, all the lads were in there, including Zayn. They sat around him. He had his head in his hands. They were all trying to comfort him. 

When they noticed me, the room fell silent. Zayn lifted his head up and saw me. Our eyes locked. He got up and left the room. 

I've never seen Zayn like this. He looked so upset. So weak. And I was the one to blame. 

"Why?" I looked away from Zayn's door over to Harry. "What?" I asked confused. He stood up slowly. "Why? Why would you do that to him?" He asked. I shook my head. "I didn't do anything wrong." I whispered. 

"Do you know how much he cares for you? He knows that last night wasn't meant to happen, but how could you just push him off like that?" You could see the anger in Harry voice, but his face was so calm. 

"You don't understand! I was drunk. He was drunk. I don't remember anything. I deserve to be mad." I tried to walk by Harry but someone stopped me. I looked up to see Zayn. His eyes were blood shot and he had tear stains down his cheeks. 

"Sophia, do you know what hurts the most? It's not the fact that I was drunk or you were drunk, or that you thought I took advantage of you. What really hurts is that you think that last night didn't mean anything to me. But in reality it meant so much more. I know your mad, and I'm actually really pissed myself that it went down like that, but even if you and I don't remember anything of it, it doesn't mean that I don't love you."

I tried to process what Zayn was saying to me. I can't believe any of this. 

"You love me?" I asked. A small smile appeared on his face. "Yea. I love you, and I'm not afraid to tell you anymore." 


Zayn POV 

*3 days later*

We all got in the big van that was taking us to the venue of the next show. Niall was sitting in the front, Harry, Louis and Liam were sitting in the middle, and Sophia and I were sitting in the back seats. 

It's been weird the last three days. Sophia and I are on good terms. We're actually kind of dating. I don't know. She still has a boyfriend, but she told me she was going to break up with him soon. 

I wrapped my arm around her shoulder and she rested her head on my chest. "I'm excited to see you perform tonight." I told her with a grin on my face. "And why is that?" She asked. I shrugged. "You dance good." I watched as her face turned from happy to sad. "So you don't like my singing?" She said looking into my eyes. I laughed. "Babe, I was kidding." She smirked. "I know."

We got to the venue, and all of us quickly got in. 

We got to our dressing rooms and decided to just chill. I pulled Sophia over to the couch and sat her down on my lap. She wrapped her arms around my neck and rested her head on my shoulder. "I miss Angel." She mumbled. "Don't worry babe. She'll come on tour to visit soon." I told her. Suddenly the door burst open revealing Danielle and Eleanor. 

They jumped into Liam and Louis arms. It was nice to have them, since Liam and Louis are crazy about them. I looked towards the door to see two more people, Angel and Dominic. Sophia scrabbled off my lap and ran over to her. 

"Omg! I can't believe your here." Sophia screamed. 

I looked over to Dominic. He was staring right at me. I tried to ignore it, but he just kept doing it. 

Angel went over to Harry to say hi, which left Dominic and Sophia alone. I already feel myself getting jealous.

Sophia POV

Dominic pulled me into a hug. "Babe, I missed you." He mumbled. He pulled away and I gave him my best fake smile. "I missed you to." 

Dominic pulled me over to the couches. He pulled me on top of his lap. So now I was sitting beside Zayn. Once Dominic was in a conversation with Niall, I turn to Zayn. He had his head down and he looked so upset. I didn't know what to say. 

I looked to see if Dominic wasn't paying attention. He wasn't, so I grabbed Zayn's hand in mine. A small smile appeared on his face. I mouthed I love you, and he did the same. 

I looked towards Angel to see her giving me a weird look. I pulled away from Dominic. "Okay, Angel, Danielle and Eleanor. I wanna show you what I'm wearing tonight." I lied. I need advice. They all agreed and got up. "Bring our girlfriends back fast Sop!" Harry called after us. I laughed and said okay. 

We got into my dressing room and I locked the door behind me. 

"This isn't about clothes, is it?" Angel asked. 

I shook my head. I slumped deeper into the couch. "I need some advice."

"Okay, what's the problem?" Eleanor asked as she sat down beside me. 

"It's Zayn." I mumbled. Angel raised a brow. "What's going on between you two?" She asked. 

"Well..we're sorta back together." I explain. All the girls looked at me with wide eyes. 

"How'd this happen?" Danielle quizzed. 

"Alright, long story short, Zayn and I were drunk and we had sex." All of their mouth literally touched the ground. "You had sex with Za-" I cut Angels screaming off with my hand. "You can't be screaming that. Only the boys know, and I don't want Dominic to find out." I pulled my hand way when I knew she had calmed down. 

"So your back together because of that?" Eleanor asked. I nodded my head. "Guys, he told me he loved me. And I said it back to." Angel smiled wide. She jumped onto my lap. "I'm so happy for you! Now all you have to do is get rid of Dominic." She told me. 

"How am I supposed to do that?" I didn't have a clue on how to do that without hurting him. "Just break it off when you your on tour. Tell him it's hard to keep a relationship and you just want to be friends." Danielle explained. I smiled. "Thanks, I really need you guys to help me. I love the boys, but they are not like you." They all smiled and gave me a hug. 

We walked out of the room to hear shouting coming from the boys dressing room. I looked to the girls, but they all shrugged. 

We walked in to see Dominic screaming in Zayn face. Zayn just stood there doing nothing. 

"Just back off, okay?" Dominic yelled. Zayn laughed. "Make me." That's when Dominic push Zayn back. Zayn did the same. 

I ran and got in between them. "What the fuck is going on?" I screamed. I looked between Dominic and Zayn, but no one said anything. 

I looked at Zayn with pleading eyes. "Nothing. Nothing at all." He pushed past me and out the door. 

I looked at Dominic but he didn't say a word. I sighed and walked out of the room in search for Zayn. I turned the corner to see him walking up a flight of stairs. "Zayn wait!" I called after him. He stopped and waited for me. 

"Care to explain what's going on?" I asked as we continued up the stairs. "There's nothing to talk about." He mumbled as we reached a door. He opened it and we were on the roof. Zayn walked further onto the roof, but I pulled him back. 

"I'm sorry okay. I know you mad that Dominic's here. But I'm still figuring it out." I tried to explain. 

"What's there to figure out? I thought you chose me over him. I love you Sophia, and yes I'm mad that he's all over you because." Zayn said as he pulled me close. "You belong with me, nobody else." 

I sighed. "Zayn I'm trying, okay. I wanna be with you. I just have to break it off with Dominic. I have it do it in the right way." Zayn nodded his head. 

"Now, may I have a kiss?" I asked. A small smile appeared on his face. "Of course you may." Zayn pressed his lips to mine. I felt so happy. Being with Zayn felt right. This is what I wanted.

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