"C'mon man, we're bout to leave."
I looked over to Harry standing beside Angel. Harry had his laptop case over his shoulder and he was holding Angel's hand.
"I'll just be a minute." Harry nodded and pulled Angel out of our apartment.
I looked back down at my phone. I clicked on her name and pressed call.
"Fuck. Sophia why wont you pick up?" I groaned. I decided to leave her a message like always.
"Hey, it's me, again. Sophia please, I made a mistake. I'm sorry. I'm leaving today, and I'd wish if you'd come and say goodbye. I-want, no I need you. I'm so sorry. Bye." I pressed end and grabbed my backpack.
I locked the front door, and walked to the elevator. Pressing the button multiple times and looking back at my phone made me even more stressed.
I finally got down to the parking lot to be in a swarm of fans and paparazzi. I waved to the fans and the cameras and quickly got in the van.
Harry gave me a look. "Did you call her again?" I sighed and covered my face with my hands. "Harry what am I supposed to do? She wont talk to me. I've tried. I can't even tell her how I really feel cause I fucking ruin everything." I could feel my eyes start to burn. Was I about to cry? I had no clue, but at this point I didn't even care anymore.
What's with me? I can't eat, I can't sleep. I can't function properly. Maybe it's the fact that my feelings are taking over everything I do.
All I think about is Sophia. The way she looked so broken when I broke up with her.
"Just give her some space. When she's ready, she'll talk." Harry explained. "I hope your right. I messed up and I need her to understand that." Harry nodded his head.
"Man just focus on recording the album for now. Don't worry." I sighed and looked down at my phone once more. "Your right." I rested my head on the head rest and shut my eyes.
I waited till Zayn was fast asleep till I grabbed my phone and dialed Angels number.
"Hey babe. Are you guys set?" I asked her in a whisper so Zayn wouldn't hear.
"Yes Harry everything's set. Don't worry just get to the airport and will meet you there, kay?" I nodded my head even though she couldn't see.
"Alright babe. See you soon." I ended the called and slipped my phone into my pocket.
I groaned as I felt someone jump onto my body.
I opened my eyes to see Angel, Danielle and Eleanor.
"What are you guys doing here?" I grabbed my phone to see the time. "At 7:30am?" I shoved my face deep into the pillow.
"We're going shopping silly!" Angel said as she shock me violently.
"Why? I don't wanna go." I said as I sat up. Angel crossed her arms over her chest.
"As your best friend, I will absolutely not let you mop around the house because of Zayn. And plus, Victoria Secret has a sale today!" I rolled my eyes. Angel and her obsession with sales.
Danielle pulled me out of bed. "Sophia, your amazing and if Zayn can't see that, then he's missing out. You don't need him. He needs you." I thought about it for a second.
"Your right. Zayn's missing out, not me." All the girls jumped on me and gave me a hug.
"Lets go bra shopping!" Angel screamed.
"Why do I have to be blindfolded?" I asked for like the millionth time.
"Because, we have a surprise for you." Eleanor explained.
"But it's the mall. I'm gonna look weird." I could hear my friends laugh as they continued the pull me through the mall.
"We're almost there. Don't worry." Danielle said as she poked my cheek.
"Okay we're here. But don't take off your blindfolded till we say." Angel explained. I nodded my head.
"Okay! Take it off now!" I furrowed my eyebrows. I felt like Angel was far away when she said that.
I pulled my blindfold off and looked around. This wasn't the mall. I stood up quickly.
"What the fuc-" I stopped mid-sentence when I understood where I was.
Harry and I were walking around the airport because there wasn't anything else to do.
I looked at Harry. He looked like he was searching for someone. "Man what are you looking for?" Harry quickly looked at me. "Nothing! Why'd would you think that?" Harry asked frantically.
I gave Harry a look. "Harry, is there something you wanna tell me?" I asked as I gave him a straight face.
"I have to pee!" Harry took off in the direction we came from.
Well then. I guess Angel's craziness has rubbed off onto Harry.
I sat down and started to drum my fingers on my knees. I scanned the airport and my eyes landed on two girls standing together. I squinted my eyes and looked closer. It was Eleanor and Danielle.
I thought that they couldn't make it to see Liam and Louis? I got up and started towards them, but a mob of directioners wanted pictures and signatures.
I groaned and sat back down on the airport chairs. I tried calling Eleanor, Danielle and Angel, but none of them will pickup.
I started to walk around the airport, because I didn't feel like sitting around anymore.
I noticed a large group of girls surrounding someone. I was only standing a couple of feet away.
I looked back at my phone. There was texts and missed calls from Zayn from the last two weeks. He's left so many messages too. I don't know if I should listen to them or delete them.
I was about to delete them all when I accidentally hit listen instead.
"Hey, it's me, again." I sighed as I continued to listen to it. "Sophia please, I made a mistake. I'm sorry." I impatiently waited for the message to be over as I watched most of the girls in the large group start to leave. "I'm leaving today, and I'd wish if you'd come and say goodbye." I was about to turn it off, but something caught me off guard. Our eyes connected and he quickly said bye to the rest of the girls and sprinted towards me. "I-want, no I need you. I'm so sorry. Bye."
I quickly pushed my phone deep into my back pocket and started to back away.
I can't do this. Not here. Not now.
I stumbled on my own feet as I tried to turn around.
"Sophia!" I heard him scream my name.
This can't be happening. I don't want to speak to him.
"Sophia!" I heard. It was even closer then the last time.
I looked around the airport and saw everyone. Angel was standing with Harry and everyone was standing around them looking worried.
I ran over to them and glared at them. "I don't wanna speak to him." I turned to see him getting closer.
"Sophia, Zayn made a mistake. Just hear him out." Harry said as he tried to calm me down.
"Sophia..." I turned to see Zayn. He had a relieved/upset look in his eyes.
"Can we talk?" I looked at him then at Angel. "Your a great friend." I said sarcastically. Angels eyes filled with tears, but I didn't care. I turned to Zayn and grabbed his arm. Pulling him through the airport, I eventually found a private place to talk.
"Sophia... I'm so sorry." I nodded my head. "I know." I whispered.
"So your not mad anymore?" Zayn asked looking nervous. I thought back to that message. How Zayn explained that he need me. How it was all a mistake.
I cupped his face into my hands and pecked his lips. "No, I'm not mad anymore." I watched as Zayn lips turned into a wide grin.
"Good morning passengers. This is the pre-boarding announcement for flight 89B to Stockholm. We are now inviting those passengers with small children, and any passengers requiring special assistance, to begin boarding at this time. Please have your boarding pass and identification ready. Regular boarding will begin in approximately ten minutes time. Thank you."
Zayn looked at me with a upset look. "That's my flight." He whispered. "Oh."
"I'm sorry. I was wrong. You mean so much to me. I don't know what I was thinking when I left." Zayn softly stroked my cheek.
"This is the final boarding call for private passengers 6789D booked on flight 89B to Stockholm. Please proceed to gate 3 immediately. The final checks are being completed and the captain will order for the doors of the aircraft to close in approximately five minutes time. I repeat. This is the final boarding call for the private passengers 6789D. Thank you."
Zayn looked towards the rest of the guys. "That's us." I nodded my head. "I gotta go Sophia. I'll miss you." Zayn said as he wrapped his arms around me. "I'll miss you to."
"C'mon Zayn, we're gonna be late." I heard Liam call.
"I'll see you soon, alright." Zayn kissed my cheek and left.
I watched as he walked to everyone else and left towards the gate.
"So your back with Sophia?" Harry asked as we took our seats in the plane. I took the window seat and sat down. "Yeah, I guess." I mumbled. "By the way, how'd you get her to come to the airport?" I asked as I eyed Harry.
"Angel, Danielle and Eleanor helped." He explained as he put his seatbelt on. "But Angel told me that Sophia is still upset with her."
"Maybe you guys shouldn't have forced her to see me. When she was ready would have been a better time y'know." Harry shrugged. "We didn't want you to be mopping around during recording so we had to. It was for your own good."
I rolled my eyes. "But she's mad at her own best friend." I looked at Harry. "Don't worry, Angel and Sophia are best friends. They'll get back to normal."
"I'm not telling you again Angel, I'm still mad and there's nothing you can do about it." I said as I walked up to the front door. I felt Angel grab my arm. "We did this because we're your friends Sophia. I never meant to hurt you." Angel pleaded.
"Angel go home please. I need space and your not making it easy to be mad at you." I opened the door and slammed it in Angels face.
I walked up the stairs to my bedroom. I sat down on my bed and put my head I my hands.
Why do I feel like I'm in the wrong here? I'm not the one who went behind her best friends back and forced her to see her "ex boyfriend". I wasn't ready to see Zayn. I still needed time to figure things out.
But Angel was doing it because she knew Zayn and I needed to talk. She was only doing it because that's what best friends do.
I lay in my bed as I let my thoughts consume me. Angel deserves a better friend. All the times she encouraged me to break away from my shell. She always made me feel better about myself when people brought me down.
I was torn and I didn't know what to do about it.
"Baby I loved you first, baby I loved you first, baby I loved you first ooh yeaaah! Baby I loved you first!"
I looked away from the microphone and took a deep breath. We just finished recording Loved You First. I didn't really feel like recording because I didn't want to sing this song in the first place.
This song wasn't meant to be on the album. It just displays a lot of feelings.
The song is about a guy finally ready to tell the girl of his dreams how he really feels. He wanted to tell her but he was to scared. He had his chances, but he was to late. Someone got her heart and now he's saying that he was the one that loved her first.
I wrote the song when my old girlfriend, Perrie and I broke up. I never got to tell her how I really felt. I did love her but I didn't know it. It was so confusing, and when I saw her with a new guy, I freaked. That's when I knew I made a mistake.
"Good job Zayn." Our producer said as I walked out of the booth and took my seat on the couch.
"So have you guys been writing anything new?" The producer asked.
I looked at my backpack and remembered that my notebook that I wrote my most recent songs was still in there. If the guys found out they'd kill me for not telling them that I wrote another song. Apparently my songs are “golden”.
I tried to reach for my backpack without anyone noticing but I obviously failed. "Zayn did you write another song? I saw you up a couple of nights ago scribbling stuff in your song book. " Harry asked. I stopped trying to reach for my book and look down at my fingers.
"No not really, just writing some ideas." I lied. I actually wrote another song, but they'll never find out.
"Oh can we see?" Niall asked as he strummed a chord on his guitar. I started to get nervous. I chewed on my lip and pulled my song book out of my backpack. I opened the page were the song was.
"Guys there just ideas." I mumbled as I shut my book. I was about to put it away but Louis snatched it from my hands.
"Louis give it back." I asked trying to be as calm as possible. Louis ran behind Harry and started to read the song.
"Zayn this song is great. This would be perfect for the album." Louis said as he continued to read.
"That song is to personal. I don't want it to be on the album." I said as I tried to grab it from Louis.
"Zayn, it's a song, and if the producers like it, it's going on the album."
"Fine, take the fucking song. I don't care." I walked out of the studio and slammed the door. I hate it when they take my music. It's not fair. I only write that stuff to help with my feelings.
I sat outside against the side of the studio. I pulled out a cigarette and pulled it to my lips. I grabbed my lighter from my back pocket and lit it.
I started to pace along the side of the building to calm myself down, but it only made me angrier. I got so angry the I punched the wall behind me.
"Ahh, fuck." I looked down at my bruised hand and sighed. I let my body slide down the side of the wall and sit on the ground.
"Zayn?" I looked up to see Harry, and he was holding my song book.
"What do you want?" I asked harshly. Harry sat down beside me and gave me a weird look. "Zayn, I'm your best friend and I can tell your upset."
"Of course I'm upset Harry. I don't appreciate when you guys take my song book. Sometimes I write songs just to get my feelings out. Not all my songs are for One Direction." Harry handed me my song book.
"Zayn, I'm not just talking about your songs, I know something else is bothering you." Harry explained. "How can you tell?" I asked quietly. I didn't know I was that readable. I always tried to put up a wall for my feelings.
"I don't know. You just not yourself." I sighed.
"Zayn, we wouldn't use your song if you don't want to, but we need more songs. I already wrote some ideas down in your book. If you want, you could write one from those." I nodded my head. Harry stood up and help me up to.
"I guess we could use She's Not Afraid." I mumbled. Harry smiled. "Really?" He asked as he opened the door.
"Yeah, why not. If you guys really like it." We walked back into the studio and I heard the beginning of Loved You First playing. It sounded so good.
I sat down beside Liam and opened my book to the page Harry wrote in it. There was a couple good ones, but one really caught my eye.
Live While We're Young.