19. Mixed Emotions
I walked down the driveway with tears streaming down my eyes. It was barley noticeable though, since it was raining. I put my hood up and walked down the street. I thought about me and Zayn's relationship. We both liked each other but we decided to take things slowly and get to know each other. We had a thing but when we found out more about each other we were completely different. I guess he took that as a sign that we shouldn't be together. The tears came flooding back again. He told me he loves me. But I guess he 'loved' me. I hadn't realized that I was walking the entire time. I was soaked. I had reached Starbucks and decided to walk inside. I took my phone out to check the time. It's was 9:30. I had been gone for exactly an hour. I walked up to the cashier and ordered. "May I have a caramel mocha with whipped cream and chocolate sprinkles?" I asked still with a shaky voice. "Coming right up." She groaned. Well she obviously wasn't having a good day either. I sat down and stared out the window. I watched as the rain slowly slid down the windows. It reminded me of when I was a kid I would have a competition between two rain drops. I continued to watch the rain drops when I saw two if them form a heart. A grin slowly crept up on my face. Then lightening struck super loud and hard and a rain drop dropped in the middle of the heart making it break. The grin faded and I felt tears forming in my eyes. I needed to be strong. I couldn't let this bother me. Me and Zayn are both single, well Zayn was single. I need to move on. The lady finally arrived with my mocha. I smiled at her and she just stared at me and walked away. I was startled by the bell ringing on the door. I looked to see that Harry had walked in.
Claire stared at us hard and then walked out leaving us in complete silence. It hurt me to see her like this. I had a thing for her but I knew that she was Zayn's and I wouldn't do that to him. I looked to see everyone still shocked. Just then the door bell rang. Nobody moved. We all stared. Liam looked through the window and then opened the door. "What's going on?" He said surprised at our expressions. Louis was the first one to move. He looked at the ground and then back at Liam. "She knows." Was all he said. He turned and walked back to his room and slammed the door shut. Liam stood there dumbfounded. He didn't know what to do. He walked up to Dani and grabbed her hand he opened the door and walked out with her. He opened the umbrella then shut the door. "I've gotta tell him." Niall said. I turned to Niall and put my hand on his shoulder. "I need to fix this." I said. Niall took out his phone and walked to the kitchen. El looked up from the ground and grabbed my hand. "Go." She said before turning to Lou's room. I grabbed my coat and ran to the car. I noticed it was raining so she probably would try to get inside somewhere. I drove past lots of stores slowly looking through the windows. I finally reached Starbucks and saw a familiar person sitting down staring out the window. I pulled over and parked in the parking lot. I walked inside and made my way to her table.
He walked over to me not leaving contact with me. I stood up about to leave when he grabbed me and pulled me into a friendly hug. "I'm so sorry." He whispered into my hair. I pulled away and looked into he eyes. I wiped away my tears and hugged him again. I laid my head in his chest. He started playing with my hair. He grabbed my shoulders and looked me in the eyes. "Are you okay?" He asked concerned. I looked up at him and smiled. "Thank you Harry." I said. He led me to the table and motioned me to sit down. I did and he sat beside me. "Talk to me." He spoke. He put his hands on the table next to mine. His raspy voice spoke again. "Don't be afraid. I'm here." He grabbed my hand and looked at me again. Our eyes never left contact. "I just feel like I'm not good enough for Zayn that he has to go and have a girlfriend and sneak behind my back about it. I mean were all best friends. Why couldn't he just tell me? I feel worthless and used." I said. Letting a tear trickle down my cheek. I shut my eyes a took a deep breath. I felt a thumb run over my cheek and wipe aways the tears that were now freely flowing. "Claire your beautiful. Your defiantly worth lots! And you don't deserve a guy that would do that to you. If a guy has you he's the luckiest man on earth and he should know to treat you right. Your beautiful and don't ever think otherwise." He spoke almost whispering. I looked up at him. "Do you really think that?" I asked shocked. "Claire I liked you from the moment you walked in with Zayn. But I couldn't harm your relationship. I would never do that to Zayn. But now that he has another girl and left you here in the mud like this i have no choice. I want to be with you, but if you want to take things slowly I will accept that. I just want you to know that I really like you Claire." He said looking deep into my eyes. I could see them glistening a lot more than usual. That's when I realized he was tearing up. "Thank you Harry." I said before kissing him on the cheek. "Shall we get going?" He said getting up and holding his hand out to me. "We shall." I said intertwining our fingers.