He´s good at math? He is cute and smart. I can´t take it. SHIT SHIT SHIT! What am I thinking? I try to distract myself. I look down on his side of the desk. for a second I see a drawing, but his arm is in the way. What is he drawing? And why do I care so much? I never care. Not ever. That is the only thing I have never done. Cared, but now I can´t seem to stop. I hate myself. This can´t go on. I have to get this out somehow. "cool" I said, an look down onto my desk again. The next 15 minutes goes by. I haven´t really heard what mr. Robbinson said. Something about pytagoras, I don´t know. I look over at Him. He is listening carefully and writing notes. His pen almost dances over the paper. I wish I was that pen. Wait what? I did not just think that. I had to break the silence. I look again, the drawing is poking out from the bottom of his note book. "what is that drawing of?" I silently asked him, without the teacher knowing. I really hope this will help me in any way. I think I have it bad for this boy. No no you´ve just met him. It doesn´t work like that.
Jeg fik et lille chok da hun sagde cool. Jeg rødmede svagt da jeg sådan ikke havde forventet det. Jeg sad og lavede matematik sammentidig med jeg tegnede. Jeg så lidt over på hende da hun snakker til mig. ”I don’t really know, im just drawing” Jeg smilede en smule, selvom jeg så kom i tanke om at jeg faktisk snakkede til en jeg ikke ved hvem var. Jeg så lidt ned igen, jeg ved ikke hvad jeg havde gang i. Jeg lavede bare mine lektier og ventede på at timen var forbi. Hvad jeg så skulle i frikvarteret var min egen sag.
Just as the bell rang, I stood up. He was already on the way out of the class. I ran a little. I din´t want him to leave me. I didn´t want to be alone. Okay that sounded weird. "I never got your name" I said, as I catched up to him. "mine is Kaily by the way" I smiled. He made me do that a lot. I had no idea why. Probably just because he is normal. Not pushy or anything like that. Yeah that was it. Even though my friends stood across the hall, and looked at my as if I was talking to a monster, I just stayed. I thought he was cute
Jeg var ude af klassen som en af de første, jeg kunne bare høre folk komme larmende ud af klassen. Jeg hørte hende bag mig. Jeg nåede ikke at svare på hendes spørgsmål inden hun selv snakkede videre ”My name is Mike” sagde jeg meget stille. Jeg stoppede foran mit skab og lagde mine bøger ind i det. ”I like your name” sagde jeg meget stille, næsten så stille det ikke kunne høres. Jeg vidste stadig ikk hvor jeg skulle gøre af mig selv, jeg ville allerhelst bare gå min vej. Gå langt væk og sidde i min egen verden og tegne, tage mine briller af og slappe af. At have briller på hele dagen gør ondt en gang i mellem. Jeg tog mine briller af et kort sekund. Pudsede dem og proppede dem på igen. Jeg blinkede et par gange inden jeg lukkede mit skab.
He told me his name was Mike. Such a normal name, but still when I heard it, I smiled. It was a perfect name for him. When he spoke you could sometimes hear a faint accent. I couldn´t place it. It souded like nothing I´ve ever heard before. I followed him to his locker. It wasn´t far from mine. The realisation made me blush. I could see him every day. As I stood there, he just fucking said he liked my name! okay not very loud, but just loud enough for me to hear. It made a warm sensation spread through my entire body. Okay maybe I liked him just a little. I really didn´t care right now. I wanted to talk to him even more. He took of his classes, and started polishing the glass. His face was even more cute without glasses. Like 5 times. I blushed again, hoping he couldn´t see. who am I kidding? He doesn´t have his glasses on. I was safe. "hey.." I started but couldn´t quiet finish. I wanted to ask him to kiss me. I am weird I know. "do.. do you want to sit with me at lunch?" I asked. Fuck me! I can´t even say what I want. Even though I was still hoping he would say yes. With all my heart.
Jeg så på hende i det hun begyndte at snakke igen. Piger, snakker de så meget? Spurgte hun mig lige om det jeg troede? ”Ehm, actually had plans, but.. One time have never hurt anyone” sagde jeg bare. Jeg havde min tegneblok i mine arme. Jeg så bare lidt på hende, hun var en sød pige, ikk min tybe, men sød. Jeg begyndte stille at gå mod kantinen, det var ikke langt fra mit skab. Jeg var nok en af de heldige der havde skab midt i det hele så jeg havde lige langt til alting. Jeg så lidt ned i jorden mens jeg gik, jeg kunne høre hun gik ved siden af mig.
He said YES!!!! I´m freaking out! The cute guy said yes! Although he said it kinda weird, like: one time have never hurt anyone. What is that supposed to mean? Maybe he has a girlfriend. Maybe he hates me. Maybe he is gay. maybe... No! stop this nonsence. He said yes, and that is all that matters. I was just walking there besides him, towards the cafeteria. He was very lucky, like me. He had one of the center lockers. Evrything at equal distance. That made it easier. As we entered the cafeteria. It went quiet, and everyone looked at us. Every guy had rage in their eyes. What was their problem. I was just going to eat with him, not have sex with him in front of them. Maybe at home.. wait! did I just think that? yeah I did, didn´t I? I need to take it slow. We sat down at an empty table. actually nice for once. Just me and someone nice. Alone "so.. do you have your own lunch?" I asked, as I took mine out of my backpack. It was the usual. Beef, and veggies. My parents just hate me.
Vi kom til kantinen, alle folk stoppede bare med at snakke og kiggede underlig på mig! Åhh nej, ikk igen. Jeg hader når folk kigger på mig! Vi satte os ved et tomt bord. Eftersom vi satte os begyndte alle folk at snakke igen. Det gjorde mig mindre nervøs. Jeg så kort på hende da hun spurgte mig om min frokost. ”No, i had other plans so i didn’t bring any, but it’s okay” sagde jeg stille mens jeg så lidt ned i bordet. Jeg ville ikke vække for meget opmærksomhed, men den virkede ikke så længe. Jeg så op og så en af de populære drenge komme gående mod os! OMFG jeg dør nu.