Looking For Miranda [Book: 1]

"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone."

Miranda runs away, love lost, body broken, will she find love? Or will it eventually tear her up inside? Will she ever trust anyone besides her best-friend, or can two boys open her eyes to something she thought she had lost in the past?

One Direction Fanfiction.


34. Chapter Thirty Three


Okay, well, things just got awkward. But I can't believe I have 170 faves. It went up like eight in about four hours!!!

So everybody wants her and Niall? I found a few Marry shippers (My homies ya know) and the majority are Mirall shippers. I just don't know. 

But anyways, GO CHECK OUT MY NEW FANFIC, IT'S CALLED Autumn Leaves. Its a Harry fanfic ;)


~Miranda's POV~


I couldn't believe I had blacked out. Like seriously this was so embarrassing. In front of my friends, and not to mention the probably 100 people watching. Nice one Miranda.

II opened my eyes and, of course, there were fourteen eyes staring at me. I was in my bed at home.

"Hi. How have you guys been?" I asked, acting normal. "Good, and you?" Niall answered.

"Pretty good. But I was experiencing some traumatic things in my nightmares, oh, no they weren't nightmares. They were fucking real. I probably missed my date with Lottie! You guys suck!!!" I got up and immediately I felt light headed.

"Damn." I rubbed my temples and sat back down. Everyone except for Harry and Zayn had left and I was guessing they were going to apologize.

"Miranda, we're really sorry. We were being complete idiots and didn't realize what had happened before. We are truly sorry. Please forgive us or we'll have to buy it from you! But I guess it still then wouldn't be real." Harry sounded sincere, I knew they didn't mean it, it was just a prank.

"I forgive you, I never was mad, I knew it was just a useless prank. You guys didn't mean it," Their eyes and heads perked up, "But I will take you up on your offer, you're taking me out on a shopping spree tomorrow. And before you start to complain, I'm spending at least five-hundred of each of your money." I raspberried them and ran out of the room before they could object.

"Hey, what was that about?" Trent asked as I came into the kitchen, she handed me a glass of water and I sipped it, "They apologized and I'm spending at least $1,000 bucks tomorrow. If not more. And it's free." She smiled, knowing that I had swindled them, basically. Well, they offered.

"Oh, if you want to come with, I'll spend some of their money on you." She nodded, "Absolutely! Especially if I don't have to spend mine! There's these shoes that I've been eyeing for awhile, but their like a hundred bucks." I chuckled, "Well I don't see that being a problem." 

We went into the family room area, seeing that the boys were there with three bowls of popcorn and watching, of course, Spongebob.

"Nobody is too old for Spongebob!!!" I screamed and jumped over the back of the couch, landing on Niall's lap. He grunted and adjusted me so it was comfortable for him. I grabbed a bowl of popcorn and ate fist over fist of it until it was gone. This was one of my favorite episodes, the one where Spongebob thinks he can't do anything, so he just stays inside and does nothing. His company is a potato chip, used tissue, and another thing. Then a gorilla comes and puts Patrick and Sandy in sack, then he beats them. Well...

"And then the gorilla takes off on a horse!" It was at the end and Liam couldn't stop laughing, none of us could. Hey, we were children.

"Guys, we should do nothing today. Its raining outside for shit's sake! Let's play Twister!" Of course Trent would suggest that, she always had a Twister! game wherever she was. I swear, that would be her one item on a deserted island. That girl!

"I'm down." Niall nodded, and everyone else said something similar.

"I'm back!" She came crashing down the stairs with it in her hands, well, by crashing I mean she literally slipped and tumbled down.
"Shit, those things never liked me." We all burst out into fits of laughter. "It was funny though!" I wish I had Trent's go lucky attitude. Nope.

"Well, who's first?" Trent asked, she always wanted to be, so it was her, Harry, Liam, and Zayn. I was the spinner person.

"Okay, first is left leg yellow." Everyone was just standing normal there. After a few more spins, Zayn was on top of Liam, with Harry's butt on Zayn's, and then Trent was somehow in a corner by herself.

"Right hand blue." I shouted, we had started playing music. By playing I mean blasting. Zayn slipped while trying to put his arm around Liam, thus bringing him down.

Now it was just Harry and Trent, and Trent wouldn't be an easy bull to take down. "Left arm yellow." Trent seemed to try to get closer to Harry, oh damn, hell's about to break lose! Get your shields!

"Okay, left buttcheek red!" Louis shouted from behind me and we cracked up when they actually did it.

"Wow, okay anyways, forehead blue!" I decided to make up my own too.

"Dammit." Harold's foot twisted, causing him to fall flat on his perfect face.

"SUCKS TO SUCK BRAS!!!!! I AM THE WINNER AND ALWAYS WILL BE!!!" Trent did this happy dance thing that I always laughed at.

"Okay, so now Niall, Miranda, Louis, you guys are next.

I don't feel like explaining every move, so towards the end of our game, my face was in Niall's 'area' and Louis' face was near his butt. 

"I don't know why, but this feels natural seeing you, Miranda, where you are right now." Niall smirked, wow, what cockiness got into him?

I don't care, it was kind of cute seeing him like this. Well there come those stomach swirls again. I felt like I was blushing, but I'm blessed enough that it doesn't show.

Well, it lasted a few more minutes, ending with Me on top of Niall, my butt on his buddy, and we looked like an 'x'.

"So, this is taking long. How about we do one more, and then whoever laughs first loses? Okay, Louis and I will be the ones trying to make you laugh. I CALL NIALL!!!" Trent spun again and it was yellow left foot, damn, I was about to fall but caught myself. Thank god. I was the worst competitive person in the universe I swear.

"Okay, only yo mama jokes." Of course Trent would say that, she rocks at 'em. But since she was for Niall, it didn't count if I laughed on them.

"Me first, okay. Your mama is so dumb, she got hit by a parked car." That one was good Louis, but hell to the naw am I going to lose!

"My turn bras, yo mama is so fat, her belly button gets home 15 minutes before she does." I liked that one, I made a mental note. But I was good at hiding my emotions, usually, so I didn't even crack a smile.

"Good one!" Louis gave her a high five and I realised how similar they were, I mean they could be siblings!

"So, your mama is so ugly, it made blind children cry." Well that was low, so it made me frown. "Sorry." Louis mumbled, realising how mean it was.

"Hmm. Yo mama is so ugly, on her birth certificate, there was an apology from the condom company." I cracked up at that one, but it wasn't for me, thank the potato gods! Niall cracked too, she burst out in laughter and we fell down on eachother.

"I WIN MOTHERTRUCKER!!!!!!!!" I jumped up and he hugged me, what the?

"Uhm." I just went with it, hugging him back.

"Break it up! She's my hoe!" Trent came over and pulled me off of him. She was really giddy and energetic lately. I'd have to ask her about that.

By now it was just Liam, Niall, Trent, and I. I pulled her up into our room, one reason so I could change, and so she could tell me what was going on.

"Okay, spill it, why you so hyper and shit?" I smiled, she smiled back. I put on a pair of black skinny jeans, my total black converse, and a blue baseball tee.

"Well, Liam's really a super guy and we're getting very serious. I'm surprised he would be the one to, and not me, but he suggested do something tonight, here. And I think I know what he means, so maybe if you go out with Niall tonight?" She said all that on one breath, jeez girl!

"Oh la la, don't forget, condom, condom, birth control, condom. We don't want your kid to turn out like your mama! No, you two would make an amazing child, but still, if you get a ride on the Payne Train, use protection babe." We laughed and went back downstairs. I was thinking Liam said the same thing, well similar, to Niall, because he asked me to go somewhere tonight.

"Hey, Mir' I was wondering if you wanted to do something, erhm, right now?" Aww the awkwardness!!! Could he get any cuter?! No. It's impossible, shut your cock. What?

"Sounds cool. What're we doing?" I linked my arm in his, grabbing my phone and my Gram's debit card.

"Well, I was thinking that we could maybe build a treehouse?" I was kind of taken by surprise, but I loved the idea.

"I'm down, which tree?" He pointed to a big oak tree behind his house, surprisingly, I never noticed how many trees were behind the boys' place.

"Alrightio, so do you have supplies?" He shook his head no, blushing. "Well, lets go get some 4x4s and a power drill, screws, nails, bolts, paint, and whatever other shit we need!" We ended up getting everything we needed, except for the power saw and power drill, Niall said they had one of each already. I'm not going to go into any big detail, but the house was going to be 4x4 feet. and then about seven feet tall. We were going to make, well I was going to make a giant picture on the side. We decided on putting a tarp with the picture on it on the outside walls, so it didn't weather too bad.

I was painting my mural as Niall threw paint at me, I knew where he was going, so I ignored him. He got it in my hair, but I pushed it to the back of my mind. 

I was painting a girl with her back to us and flowers in her hair. There was a demon and an angel on her shoulders and they whispered things to her. On the next part she was being torn between heaven and hell. It was cool. I had that idea brewing in my head for ages, but never had enough time to paint it, I guess.

"NIALL YOU BLOODY TAMPON WANKER!!!!" I couldn't keep it in, he splashed blue right in her hair, which was orange.

"I hate you!" I screamed towards him, but I didn't mean it, I was just mad. But he took it the wrong way and started walking away. 

"Niall! Come back here and talk to me!" He turned towards me and came up in my face.

"You say you hate me when all I do is love you! I fucking love you, but you don't see it. I've been waiting and you don't notice, you're fucking blind. You were asleep for two months and all I did was wait for you to wake up. I never left that hospital once because I didn't want to be somewhere else when you woke up. I was giving up hope and almost completely lost it."

I cut him off, "Niall,"

But he ignored me and kept going, "Miranda, I just wanted you! But no, you wake up, don't remember me, and  basically go dating with Harry. I'm always the underdog, I don't get shit. I never get the girl, they always don't see me or notice me. I'm sick and tired of it. I should just stop trying because you won't feel this way about me that I do for you. I'm basically friend zoned with you! You don't even really know who I am for fuck's sake! I know I'm sounding totally deranged right now, but I needed to get that out of my chest."

I thought he was done, so I started, "Niall, I," Actually, no, he wasn't. 

"I wish you would just wake up again and see what's right in front of you. You need to decide or I will for you. And it sure as hell isn't going to be me because I know that Harry will always be in the way, he's better looking and damn more experienced than me! I could give you things, love, that he can't, but you can't see it! I just want you Miranda, you don't see it though, you just don't see." I felt like crap right now, he made me seem like the bad guy.

The last time I checked, it wasn't my fault. I liked him alot, but I couldn't say love.

I had previous feelings, and these new ones sparking inside of me. "Niall. I, I." I stuttered, "Exactly, you don't have anything to say because I'm right. You don't know what you have until it is gone." He looked at me with a look I couldn't read.

I did the only thing I knew, I ran. My feet taking me wherever they pleased. I cold hear him behind me, but I was, after all, faster than the Irish man.

Damn, this sounds like some cliche shit from a story. Well, its how it played, so suck it up and deal with it.

After about ten or fifteen minutes, I know alot, right? My feet stopped moving. My whole body collapsed from sheer exhaustion. I didn't know where I was, but it looked vaguely familiar. I took in my surroundings and took my breaths deeply.

Well there was just grass, and some trees. But it turned into a beach in about thirty feet in front of me.

"Miranda!?" I heard someone yell, but I didn't want any human contact right now, so I ran to the trees, I know, fifteen minutes of running and I keep going. 

I willed my aching limbs to climb those of a full pine tree. Thank God they were long needled pines, or else I would have been in pain from the little spikes.

"Miranda?! Where are you? I'm sorry. I'm sorry." It seemed that the boy who was following me had been right under my tree, so I didn't make a noise. I don't know how I did it, but I contained my strained breaths without a sound.

At last when I heard Niall's footsteps get more faint, I slipped down and strode to the beach.

"Mmmm" I inhaled the salty air of the ocean and stripped off my shirt, I was really sweating, in the afternoon heat. I checked my phone and it was about four o'clock.

I closed my eyes, thinking, I knew I couldn't stay, I'd caused enough problems already. Instantaneously, a magazine came and hit me straight in the face. With the heat and humidity, I hadn't noticed how windy it was.

I grabbed the magazine and looked at the cover. NIALL'S NEW GIRL? OR IS SHE HARRY'S? GIRLFRIEND LOOK ALIKE OR PLAYER? 

I choked back a long awaited sob, knowing this was probably the source of Niall's fury, but I wasn't dating anyone. I looked at the article and saw all of the rude things, I could handle hate, but Niall probably saw a million magazines like these, with One Direction so popular. I never even noticed any paparazzi anywhere, those sneaky bastards.

I knew what I had to do, I would grab a duffel bag of things and I had to leave.

I couldn't even mention it to Trent, because she'd make me stay, and I wouldn't want to break her and Liam up. I'd go back tonight and grab my stuff, thus calling Trent when I was on a train. I'd probably go to my Aunt Nicki, we always were like sisters, she was my dad's sister, but she didn't want anything to do with him after he cracked.

"Hey, can I come stay with you? I'm sorry for it being so sudden, but I really need a place to stay, if it isn't a burden?" I could hear her excitement, "Of course! When are you coming? Because right now I'm actually in Australia on vacation. If you want to come now, the spare key is in the birdhouse." I knew she would come through for me.

"Oh my god that would be absolutely a lifesaver! You are the best Nicki! I'll see you when you come back, I'll fill you in don't worry. Love you! Kisses!" We always did the 'kisses' thing, it was our dorky thing.

"Anytime babe, I know this has something to do with One Direction, I saw the news. Okay, so see you in a week!" We hung up and I decided to get going back the way I came, with help of my trusty phone.

I slipped into my Gram's house, sneaking up into my room while not wanting to be met by anyone.

"Liam!" Damn! I forgot about Trent having their 'night' tonight. I went into the library room instead. I took out a notepad and started drawing absolutely nothing in particular. I was in the big giant chair, so nobody could see me if they came in, which I knew no one would.

I ended up falling asleep, waking up at one in the morning.

"Shit," I got up and went to my room, looked like all hell broke loose, Trent and Liam oh god. "Pigs." They were both sound asleep on Trent's mattress. 

I climbed over the debris and got my blue duffel, packing it with everything I would need. I took all of my money, which was a lot, meaning like two thousand or more bucks, because my Grandma wouldn't stop giving me money to do stuff.

"Bye Trent." I whispered and then tiptoed out of the house. Nicki's apartment was about 100 miles away from here, let me tell you, almost all of my family on both sides lived in about a thousand mile proximity. Crazy shits.

I took a train there, not wanting to waste my money on an airplane.

I found the key easily and went on in, it was nice and cute, but cozy. Looked a lot like my Aunt Nicki, who resembled a younger Jennifer Love Hewitt, but was only twenty-nine. 

I found the guest bedroom and went in, falling asleep. I woke up at about ten in the morning and had a missed call, so I called Trent back.

"MIRANDA WHERE ARE YOU BITCH?!" She screamed so loudly I thought I'd pop an eardrum.

"I had to leave, clean up the room, it smells like vanilla sex. Tell everyone I said goodbye and I love them to death! We better keep up communication though." 

"You make it sound like you're never coming back and that I'll never see you again!" I sighed, "You might not, unless it's just you, or you and Liam. I needed to leave I caused too much shit with the band and I didn't want to split you and Liam, so I didn't say anything. I'm sorry."

"Thank you for thinking of Liam and me, but you should have taken me with you, wait where are you? You better get your ass back here, we were worried sick!" "I can't, I don't want to face Niall and Harry. Niall started screaming at me and I feel like a horrible person, but I really like him, I think I was caught in the moment with Harry though. I really can't get Niall of of my mind, he ranted to me about him being in the shadows and I didn't notice him ever so I ran. I'm at my Aunt Nicki's, that's all you're getting out of me though." I heard her pout on the other side.

"Miranda, come back please, I can't live without you! And not to mention in your Grandma's house! You can't leave me alone with 5 boys on the tour! Please!" I knew I couldn't leave her helpless, "Okay, but I'm only coming back for the tour, so its final. And she won't mind, she loves you. Or if worse comes to worse, move in with Liam." I could just see her frowning on the other line, "NO! I will not leave you, you are my forever whore, you are coming back. Okay, it's your decision, I really hope you come back for good, not just for the tour, which is might I say in TWO FUCKING WEEKS!" I sheltered my ears from that one.

"I know, I'm coming back for you then, but staying is something I'll have to think about. Now I'm going back to bed. Good morning." I hung up and went straight back to sleeping.

I could only think about what I was going to do.

Will I stay with them? Or will I return here, with Nicki?

I didn't know, only that this pillow was like heaven, so soft.



Hi, How are you?

So it isn't right after school as I promised, but it is an update! Okay, I made it longer too, I think. 


What should she do?

Haha! Liam and Trent did the dirty, vanilla sex, yumm. (No, eww sick. Sex is sicko!) Heheh.

Okay, next update will probably be on Friday or Saturday because I have to go to this retarded Science Fair tomorrow after shcool.


I kind of wonder what Vanilla Sex smells like. Uhm, what?



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