I walked slowly over to Makenzie. Her chest was slowly rising and falling. I let out a sigh of relief. Shes breathing.Thank god shes alive. My heart beat slowed itself, and i gently gripped her hand. "I'm sorry kenz." i rested my other hand on her chest, feeling her heart, in perfect sync with mine.
If she hadn't got in that car a few years back... if i would have just driven her, if i wouldn't of been such an asshole, consumed in work, this never would have happened. All i had to do was slide into the drivers side and drove. It would have taken 10 minutes. Compared to this 3 year struggle. Why didn't i try harder to make her happier?
I'm almost thankful that this happened at times. It allowed me to start over with her, she doesn't remember what an ass i was to her. I showed no sympathy to her. No caring. No affection. I missed her so much. She was so wonderful and i didn't realize it until i didn't have her.
Everything about her was amazing. Her smile, her humor, the way she talked, how she teased me, her loud, explosive laugh, how she was always taking care of me, her accident-prone nature, her cooking, her obsessive, motherly nature whenever someone was sick, her consideration, her kindness, she was so generous. She cared more about my fans than i did. She always had something nice to say about someone, and her absolute loyalty to me even though i was an ass. I love her, everything about her. I need my angel back.
I knocked on the door and harry mumbled "come in." i peeked in and edged into the room. "You need to shower mate." I whispered.
"I'll shower when shes okay."
"You smell awful and your hair is greasy."
He paused thinking of a comeback. "That's why its pulled back."
"In a ponytail. Go, i'll watch her." he looked down at her, gently squeezed her hand and kissed her forehead. He lightly lifted her chin with his index finger and softly kissed her and whispered "Goodbye." onto her lips. I wish that i could do that. I've loved her for so long, but i never had her as mine. She was never mine to keep.
Harry walked to the bathroom, "Something happens run in and tell me... please."
I sat down and clutched kenzie and talked to her as i stroked her hand with my thumb.