“We are over, but I forgive you.” Those are the only words I could remember from the whole argument, the only one that actually mattered to me. The pain was excruciating but somehow I had a feeling I could get over it. I never like break ups, it hurt badly every time, even if I wasn’t that in to the girl in the first place. Before you ask, I did really like Christy, she was a perfect girlfriend for me, funny, beautiful and caring, but there was something missing there, something that I needed to actually fall ‘in love’ with her. The more I thought about it the more that I came to realise that Christy wasn’t the one for me and I wasn’t for her, we were similar but completely different, even if she did have all the right qualities. I do feel bad, very bad for messing about with her even if from the beginning I knew there was something not quite right about it. She forgave me, which is an amazing thing for her to do, if I was her I wouldn’t have spoken to myself ever again, but the fact that she forgave me and wanted me to move on a fantastic thing for her to do. I looked around my room, the tear stains visible on the light carpet. I sighed and picked up my phone that I had dropped on my bed.
1 new message
I tapped on it and it brought me to my inbox.
Its Megan here, I just wanted to ask if you wanted to get a drink or something with me tomorrow. I really want to get to know you better ;)
I read it over and over again, was it too soon for this to happen, was it too soon for me to go out with someone else? I shook the thoughts out of my head, No, it was way too early, I couldn’t do that to Christy and I definitely couldn’t cause her more pain. I quickly replied telling her that I was busy with photo-shoots tomorrow and will contact her again soon. I put a smiley face and one kiss, trying not to push it. I then logged on to twitter and check my mention tab, which was full like always.
@Real_Liam_Payne Why did you and Christy break up? You guys were epic!
@It’s_Just_Christy @Real_Liam_Payne, thank god for that, you guys weren’t good together
Great to know…
@Real_Liam_Payne, why is Listy over? You guys were so cute together!!!!! What happened, did one of the other boys take her away from you? cos she is drop dead gorgeous!!! Was it Harry? Or was it Louis! OMG WAS IT NIALL? ZAYN! ZAYN IT WAS ZAYN WASN’T IT!!
No, no it wasn’t Zayn, or Harry, Or Niall, or Louis…… They didn’t take her from me, but one of them may have done the pushing away…
It was just after I had said that that I realised one of the reasons she may have forgiven me, it may have been because she wanted me to be happy, or it could have been because she just couldn’t be bothered with the lie we’ve been living anymore, but maybe the reason was because she thought she could move on as well, because she spotted someone else that she re-discovered her feelings for, and that someone was most definitely Louis.
I couldn’t stop myself running to my room and grabbing out my notebook, it was times like this that I loved to right, I could pour my heart out in my writing. It wasn’t long before I had written pages and pages. After a couple minutes I realised something, all my lines weren’t based on the feelings I had for Liam, they came from much deeper down, and the memories that came every time I cried were spilled across my page.
It’s been a while, but I still love your smile. Do you remember when we danced around the kitchen it the refrigerator light? I haven’t felt this feeling in a long time, I love you but my face stays blank.
None of this had anything to do with Liam, nothing, It scared me as I read back on the lines I had scribbled down unconsciously, every single sentence, every single word, every single letter, lead up to one person, and that person was Louis.
Okay, well, that escalated quickly!! I am so sorry, I tried to make this chapter dramatic and good as I haven’t updated in forever, and I am so sorry! I definitely have an excuse though.
Okay, 1) Movellas is messed up, not sure if it’s my school computer or movellas itself. The chapters wont publish with the paragraphs in and I can’t edit previously written ones…
2) Then my school blocked it! WTF? We complained and they unblocked it again. Thank GOD
3) The only way I can Update is if I send it to myself and get it on my friends ipad, but thr only eay to do that is if she turns on her personal hotspot.. which she desnr do often, I then go to movellas, and copy and paste it into there, it's literally is so hard, but I would do anything for you guys xx
So, there is my excuse, thanks to all the people that commented lovely supportive comments, It made me so happy I nearly cried! <3 xxxoxoxox
Love you all so much, all of you are beautiful xxx
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