I haven't seen him in over a week, I went to work everyday same routine every second. I stayed at Marias. I told her everything that had happened between us, she wasn't in shock when I told her though. She thought it was about time for him to tell me how he really felt. But if he really did feel this way, he wouldn't have just left me like that... again. Did I love him? I mean of course I did but could I really handle this right now, I could feel myself getting tired again with all of this stress. It was getting harder for me to wake up in the morning's and drag myself to work. I didn't know if I needed to make another appointment, I was just relieved that it was finally Saturday. I laid in bed, the clock striking 9:30, it was still early and of course I could go back to sleep but what good would that do.
I got up deciding, to take a nice refreshing bath this morning, Maria would still be sleeping for a few hours having a late night with Darren. I ran the bath putting in one of my delicious smelling bath bombs from lush, and brought out comfy clothes that I would be able to change into after words. My body had soaked up the warm water, never wanting to leave. In deep thought I laid in the water until it turned uncomfortably cold. I got out putting my hair into a messy bun, and placing on my brandy Melville sweatpants and long sleeve, loose fitting and comfortable.
I had some extra work that I had to do so, today even though I was home and technically had the day off I went into my room and straight to my Mac, working on all of the edits and other necessities. This may be work but getting lost in all of this had comforted me not thinking about anything else for the next few hours. My phone had started to ring, pulling me out of my work, I saw that it was already 6 o'clock and also Harry was the one calling. I was confused trying to figure out weather I should answer or try to ignore him, I thought other wise it would be rude to ignore him, I decided to answer before he hung up.
"Hello?" I said questioningly
"Briiieeeeeeeee.......babbeee what are you doinggg?" He whined into the phone. His tone and him drawing out his words only meant one thing, Harry was not just drunk he was completely and utterly shit faced.
"Oh Harry what did you do?" This cannot be good.
"Well I mean love we haven't seen each other in about a month, SOO I drank tons and fucked tonssss!!!!"
I was disgusted the audacity of him to tell me that he was fucking other girls after he told me he loved me. And it has only been a week maybe more.
"What the hell is the matter with you harry, it's been what maybe two weeks? Why would you even call me to tell me you fucked other girls, why don't you call one of them to distract you?"
"Pshhh please your the only whoo really listens to me! Come with me, Come here!" He was yelling into the phone.
I was conflicted yes he was being an asshole, but he could also be very careless when he drank.
"Where the hell are you?" I asked angrily
"Ummm..... the corner of 5th place called Dirty Nellies."
I knew exactly where that was about 10 minutes walk and not the best place for him to be drinking.
"Stay there don't move I'll be there soon." I hung up the phone before he could say anything else, I grabbed my jacket my wallet, shoes and headed out the door.
It was getting very chilly outside tonight, and I hated that. It wasn't making me feel any better. I rushed my 10 minute walk, and finally arrived outside the bar. I didn't have to walk in yet to smell the amount of alcohol and smoke coming from this place. I steadily opened the door trying to ease my way in looking for Harry and trying not to get noticed. But I wasn't even close to the one who was the center of attention. I heard yelling and grunting from the other side of the room. And only my luck when I rushed over there Harry was pummeling someone into the ground. From what I could see he didn't have his jacket on the side of his shirt was ripped his jeans were covered in dirt and must, and his hair was all over the place. I pushed myself through the rest of the crowd that slowly formed around these two. There was so much yelling and hooting Harry could not even hear me when I yelled his name. I ran up to him and grabbed him by the back of his shirt, making him get off of this guy. He raised his fist getting ready to hit me as well. I flinched taking a step backwards getting ready for impact, my eyes closed waiting to feel the pain and his knuckles connecting with my cheek. I opened my eyes to see Harry looking at me, almost in shock that I was even there. That was soon gone and his face went back to being tough and angry, he walked over to the bar grabbed his jacket threw it on, stumbling on his way back to me grabbing my hand and forcefully pulling me out of the bar. The air was so cold and almost so clean from the difference inside the bar, I had started to cough.
Harry walked ahead of me keeping a steady stride swaying from left to right, grabbing onto buildings sometimes to regain his composure. He walked ahead like he was mad at me, almost disgusted that I was even there with him. How dare he ignore me, treat me like I'm in the wrong.
"HEY!" I yelled for him to hear ahead of me, there was no one else on the street with us at that moment I could say whatever I wanted. He stopped his tracks, not turning around to look at me, but head slightly tilted to hear what I had to say next.
"I don't understand why you think you can treat me this way! I was doing you a favor I came for you, to help you-" He had cut me off, before I could finish yelling at him.
"DO YOU EVEN REALIZE WHAT HAPPENED IN THERE BRIE." he was walking towards me with such haste he reached my face and I took a step backwards.
" I was in the heat of the moment and almost hit you Dammit!! Do you even know how badly I could have hurt you?" He was shacking and full of anger. I didn't know what to say to him, I looked at me feet cowardly.
" You should have never come, you should have just left me there to deal with what I had in store"
I looked at him confused. " You called me Harry, I already knew you were drunk and I was worried I know how you get when you get a few drinks in you. I wanted to come and get you to bring you home"
"I am well aware of what I did and its one of the most dumbest decisions I could ever make. Trust me I regret every second of that call." That hurt, it was almost like he did punch me, I didn't even want to look at him. He's so hot and cold, I don't know what he wants. I took my steps around him gingerly and headed down the street, not another word coming out of my mouth, tears slowly streaming down my face. Why was he making me feel this way, what was he doing to me?
I was getting closer to the apartment, when I heard heavy footsteps behind me, included with heavy breathing. I could care less, me tears were still a heavy stream coming down my face. I was suddenly grabbed from behind with heavy tight fitting hands, getting pushed into the brick wall to my left, a hand reaching behind my head before it got to hit the bricks. I closed my eyes afraid of what I was going to see, I was to scared and shaken up to scream, the tears had come again this included fear, and emotions from Harry.
"Oh baby girl what did I do to you?" This wasn't some manly terrible voice, this was the voice that had brought tears to my eyes not 10 minutes ago. I opened my cloudy eyes, to see a sobering up Harry standing in front of me. I sniffled.
"What are you doing?" I huffed sounding congested.
"I'm here to hold tight to my girl, and never let her go again. I'm here to apologize about everything I have ever done to you, every nasty remark, and terrible glare. I'm here to bring you happiness and not pain."
"You cant just be like this Harry you can't be hot in cold, you can't just want me and need me one minute and than push me away the next. I'm not ready for that, don't do that to me please."
" I swear to you I will never hurt you for as long as I live, you are my first priority, your all that matters to me, you are my infinity, you are what I need." And with that his lips were on mine, and thats where they had always belonged.