11. I Care
Harry helped me upstairs and I lied on my bed. He kissed my cheek, which made me feel secure. I closed my eyes and he walked downstairs. I could hear them talking, but couldn't make out what they were saying. I tried to go to sleep, but I couldn't. I kept thinking about Dad. Why did this have to happen? He was my only family in life and he had to d-d-leave me. I felt a tear run down my cheek. I got up and pulled the box out from under my bed that my dad gave me in case of an emergency. It consisted of a gun, knife, first-aid kit, and some bottled water. I grabbed the gun. "I'll just end it all now." I said, feeling another tear fall. I pointed it at the wall, aiming it out. I accidentally fired. It shot a hole through it. I started freaking out. I checked the barrel and that was my only bullet. "Shit!" I yelled. I heard several footsteps running up the stairs and then Harry beating it on the door. I had locked it.
"Abby! Abby! Nooooooo!" He was screaming.
"Oh my, Abby!" I heard Jade scream and then she started balling. All the other boys were trying to calm the two down, but it did nothing. I was just so upset so I grabbed the knife and cut my wrist. Harry busted the door open. He looked at my wrist and a tear ran down his cheek.
"Abby." He said, with his voice cracking.
"I just wanted it to be over with." I said, crying. He walked over to me and fell down on his knees. He grabbed my arm and kissed my wound.
"Please, don't ever do anything like this again. I thought you'd killed yourself." He said, crying.
"I tried to. And I almost did, until I accidentally fired my only bullet and hit the wall."
"Accidentally? You mean thankfully. Do you know how upset this makes me? Knowing that my girlfriend is suicidal and I can't do anything. I feel useless." He said, another tear falling.
"Harry, you aren't useless. You have millions of fans that adore you and many friends and family that love you. I just feel like my life is over when I have no family. Both of my parents are gone. I'm left here all alone." I dropped my head.
"You aren't alone. You have us. Pointing to everyone. We're your family now."
"I don't even have a place to stay." I said.
"Stay with me." He told me.
"I can't take advantage of you like that."
"You won't be. I want you to. I have wanted to be with you 24/7 since the first day I met you."
"Are you sure?"
"Positive." He said, with a faint smile.
"I love you." I wrapped him in my arms and kissed him.
"I love you too. More than you will ever know. I promise." I felt a tear on my cheek, but it wasn't mine. It was Harry's.
He really cares.