I woke up the next morning and realized that this week was not going to be the greatest then i turned over in the bed to see Niall walking around in my room looking at all of my stuff. "Um what are you doing?" i asked him, rubbing my eyes. "Oh your awake, i was just looking around."he answered. "Yeah i am awake, now what are you doing in my room!" i yelled at him. "Jace chill out, i just need to talk to you." he said to me very softly with his head down. "I am not in the mood. Got it! Now get out of my room!" i yelled at him. "Ok sorry." he replied and rushed out of my room.
I didn't talk to him for a week. I totally avoided him for the next 7 days...until...
I really hope i didn't mess anything up. I went into her room that morning to hopefully to surprise her and talk to her about the night before. She totally freaked out. I really didn't understand why. She avoided me the rest of the week. That week was total crap, it sucked. But after 7 days we encountered each other again...I got into the shower that morning really tired after a really long run. I was really tired so i didn't pay attention to anything around me. Until after about 6 minutes into my shower...
I woke up that morning needing a shower, i felt so discusting after not showering for a whole week and just watching movies in my room. I got up from my bed and walked into the bathroom completely zoned out, i was just so tired..the water engulfed my body. Then i realized i never turned on the water. I turned around and saw Niall standing there beside me in the shower....oh god!
We just stood there in silence for maybe 5 minutes. I wasn't normally embarrassed with my body but since this week i was just so emotional this past week, but this week i was. I felt so awkward right now. The look on his face was so embarassed, so scared. I just looked at him trying not to look down. He did the same. I quietly said to him, "Do you like what you see?" i asked him and burst into tears collapsing onto the ground. Thats just great i totally just burst into tears, naked in front of the guy i love, but i didn't tell him.
She looked so helpless, like a little girl. I felt so embarrassed i felt so out there. We just stood there in silence until she asked me, "Do you like what you see?". What am i supposed to say that, i mean i did want to look down at her beautiful body but i just didn't, i couldn't. Then she started crying and just collapsed onto the ground. I just stood there until a spark came over me. I bent down and picked her up. "Listen to me, I'm so sorry for what i did or what i said to make you ignore me for the past week. Just tell me what i did wrong. Please? I love you Jace and that past week has been our torture." i said to her and wiped her face. I grabbed a towel for her and handed it to her. She grabbed it, wrapped herself in it and sat down on the ground and cried. I felt so terrible. I quickly finished my shower. I brought her to her closet and handed her some sweatpants, a t-shirt and undergarments. She put them on in front of me. I didn't really care at this point i just felt so terrible. She was in so much pain, why? I started to walk out her closet towards mine and turned to her, "Jace, i do love you. I mean it. Talk to me when you are ready." i said to her very quietly.
That boy is the sweetest. He just saw me naked and has no response. He acted so calm and put together. He made me feel special. Niall picked me up off of the shower floor and handed me a towel like a gentleman and all i could do was collapse onto the floor and cry. He finished his shower and brought me to my closet and got me some clothes. I just got dressed in front of him. Like it mattered any more. As he turned around to me after we just stood there for a spilt second and he started to walk out, "Jace, i do love you. I mean it. Talk to me when you are ready." Did i just hear that correctly? He loved me? My first love...loves me back. I smiled and just layed on the ground of my closet and fell asleep. When i woke up i was in my bed tucked in under the covers. Niall was just sitting there next to me on the floor with his head buried in his knees. "Niall?" i whispered to him. He looked up at me with his eyes all puffy and red, like he had been crying. "Yeah love?" he answered back to me very resistant. "Are you ok?" i asked him. He just shook his head. I opened up the clovers motioning for him to come lay with me. He just sat there. "Niall come on." i said to him. He stood up and got under the covers with me. He looked at me and pushed my hair out of my face and smiled. I couldn't help but smile first. "Did you bring me to my bed, Niall?" i asked him. "Yes, i didn't want-" i began to say. i cut him off with a kiss, a long passionate kiss. I put my legs around him and he put his arms around me. When stopped he smiled. I did too. "What is this, what was that?" he asked. "Niall there are no words right now. What we are calling it is a secret, do you understand." i told him. He nodded his head. We just layed there for what it felt like was for days but it was more like 2 hours. We jolted up out of bed when i heard my mom yell for us to come downstairs..