20. What Is Going On!?!?!
I woke up to the sun light flooding the room, thats when I realized I was in my bra and underwear thats when the memormies form last night flooded my mind. I had sex with Niall James Horan and I possibly might be in love with him I mean come on only insane people wouldn't fall in love with him. What about Josh, I thought I loved him as well but I apprently didn't love him enough without the thought of him in my mind when I gave Niall my V-card. I am such a horrible person first I go and make out with another boy and then the next I have sex with a completely different boy, now I had Niall's heart he told me he doesn't want to hav sex until he is married but he had sex with. I am not his wife nor am I his girlfrien I had no right to take that away from him I guess it was just a moment in time that I wasn't thinking but at the same time I was thinking. I loved to hear him say my name with the air he had left in his lungs that gave him power to go on just a bit more. Then came a rush to pace around the room and think about what I did which I couldn't do or move because Niall had his arms wrapped around me and I was soar in my lower region. Great, this all I needed was rumors to start because I know for a fact when I was hanging out with Josh people were around us looking at funny because of the way he was flirting, and now I have gone and slept with another man. I know person who could help with all of this it may sound weird but I need to talk to Liam he was the closest to Niall and would know how he would react to in certian sititions.
I was waken up with a knock on my door today was our day to sleep in but now I know I wouldn't be sleeping in, I got to the door and to my suprise it was Taylor standing there with the most puzzling look on her face. She was in deep thought that for sure I just let her in for the fact she gets a bit mad if you don't let her talk first when she is flustered like this. It took her no time to come right out with what she was thinking long and hard about.
"I slept with Niall and now I believe that I am in love with him but at the same time I don't want to break his heart ever again please Liam you are the closest to him what should I do!?" I stood there in abosolute shook this is how I now know how much she really means to him.
"Tell him! Please tell him you think you are in love with him this is all he wants to save your heart to make you feel safe thats all he really wants to do give him a chance before you go making the wrong decision. Do something don't leave him there first you say you have feelings for Josh truth is you don't! The way you look at Niall is something special don't pass that up it takes other people years to find that one person that makes them smile stupidly. You and his reason for his smile everyday when he was around you he has a cheesy smile on his face thats the Niall we know just please tell him that."
"Thank you Liam so much." She flashed me a week smile something that I was so confused about did she fancy Niall or was she playing with his heart something we did not need.
Liam was always right why does it suprise me that why he was the one I could really talk to because he understood everything although he hasn't been in my position before. It was time that I tell Niall exactly how I feel 'I love you' was all I need to say to him because thats all I had to say to express my feelings towards him to be honest. My head was clear now buy my nerves were setting into my body shaking how was I going to tell him how I fell so hard so fast for him. Niall James Horan I love you.