I woke up to Harry by my side, the love of my life looking peaceful. His hair was floppe all over the pillow and on his face. Hazza Bear by my side looking like a perfect angel, and then the memories of last night filled my mind.It was perfect in every way possible. Now to tell the boys about the proposal, all of the sudden my thoughts were disturbed. I saw big, green eyes looking at me.
"Good morning Styles." I said giving him a peck on the lips.
"Good morning beautiful." He said with a huge grin on his face.
"I am gonna go you make breakfast okay?" But I was pulled back to the bed and in Harry's warm grasp. This felt right I can stay like this forever, but I had to get up sooner or later. So he let me get up but not without a sweet gentle kiss.
I went into the kitchen of the penthouse to see everything to make breakfast with. So I made us eggs, bacon, pancakes, fresh orange juice. My father always taught me the way to a man's heart is through is stomach. I already had Harry's heart it seem but he is my world about 6 months ago Harry and I found out that I was pregnant but I had a miscarrage. He was there for me every step of the way to be honest. He took time off from the band because he was also looking forward to the baby as well. I needed to get over the fact that its was gone my first child ripped out my hands. So this was a subject that brought tears to my eyes everytime. I never want any one to see me like this, but I believe it was a little to late to think bout that now. Because I turn to see Harry starring at me with sad eyes, he knows when I cry its for a reason and he knew that the baby was about 99% of why I cry. He came to me with his arms open for me.
I dug my face in his toned shirt less chest. The rhythem of his heart beat was relaxing, as he was stroking my long brown hair. At this point the crying would become more often than usual, just the thought of having a 4 month baby that has a whole life ahead of them pulled away so Harry told very few people on of them including Ed Sheeran. Not to long ago he wrote a song called "Small Bump" for Harry and I. He makes this seem just a bit more better I have it as my ringtone when Harry calls which is quiet alot so the memories flood back in the morning sickness the test. Telling Harry, and mangement and then the horrible news.
"Hey babe we can always try again like Ed said 'Cause you were just a small bump unborn for four months then torn from life. Maybe you were needed up there but we're still unaware as why.' Maybe it was for us to grow together as a couple and become stronger than we were 6 months ago. I love you Jocelyn and we will have a baby soon. Don't rush things everything happens for a reason."
He was right as much as I didn't want to hear but it was true in every way. We were not ready for anything at the moment. He smiled at me with his smile that had love, passion, lust, trust, and caring in 1 little thing that made me happy. I smiled back faintly, he placed his hands on the small of my back kissing me. I grabbed a fist full of curls on the back of his hair, he pulled away slowly.
"Why don't I make the breakfast and you get the stuff ready to go back to our flat today okay?" Harry said kissing my neck from behind me.I nodded in agreement and got the stuff ready to leave. Today was the last day before things started to become more and more busy. Leaving Los Angelas and going to Las Vegas. At this point I could wait to go there because then after Las Vegas we are going to my hometown of Chicago, Illinios. Getting to see my friends again and them paying my father a visit at his grave yard. I have always been a Daddy's Girl which I really miss when he is not around and when I have different things on my mind. My head was flowing with different thoughts about the feelings of going back "home". Will my friends treat me the same? What is my family going to say when I go to visit them? The biggest question, how are going to tell the boys about the proposal? That was the only thing I needed to think about at the moment. I was starting to become more and more flustered about the feelings and thoughts going on in my body, thats when I felt my back burning. I turned around to see Harry looking at me with concered eyes.
"Jocelyn babe why are so frantic right now?" Shit he can tell how I feel like I could get away with trying to hide something from him well thats not going to happen.
"Nothing... I just have alot on my mind. Its just telling the boys and then after Las Vegas we will be going back to my home town. I don't my friends are going to treat me the same. Just so much going on in my brain." He came up to me and hugged me relaxing my body as I falls foward into his. Harry's arms wrap around my waist as his soft lighlty pink cheek sits on my head. Its time like this when I feel completely safe, like my world has no worries I wish it could stay like that for once, but that is not how life works sadly. He let me go slowly.
"I know things are hard but we can make it through what ever happens okay? Breakfast is done." He lighlt rubbed his thumb over my cheeck. Then took me by my waist and guided my to the kitchen, Harry has always been quiet the chef. The table was set up so lovely, he knows little things like this make me happy and it did. It took everything off my mind making me realize what was so special right in front of me. I had the most loving fience in the world and a wonderful life right in front of me, the past was a completely different story I deleted those memories from my life. All I had was Harry and I with the boys and some happy childhood memories with my dad. I feel like thats all need in my life. Once we finished with the breakfast we got the rest of our stuff from out of the room and headed to be greated by papparrzi. We couldn't do anything but look down so our faces wouldn't be seen by them the only thing I was scared was that they were going to see the ring, I mean who wouldn't it was huge as hell. I hid my hand by sticking it in my pocket they were going to see it sooner or later, we finally made it to the car Harry had rented the only thing I was thankful right now was that the windows were tinted so they couldn't see what was happening. Once we were free Harry drove as fast as he could to get to the hotel room. Where we were also greeted my screaming fans so he made his cute cheecky smile then waved as we walked into the building, people walking around like the New York airport. It was nice to be back to the hotel the only thing I hated right now is the fact that we have to tell the boys about the propsal once we reached our level all I could see was huge guards giving us a head shake almost of approvel. Once we reach the sweet that held Louis, Liam, Zayn, and Niall we saw Paul standing outside of the room he and Harry talked for a little bit when Paul was around he was like and Uncle to me. He was an easy going person which is good in every way possible. Paul let us in the room for me to see Liam, Louis and Zayn laying on the couch. While Niall was eating something that he found the hotel room kitchen.
"Boys come here please." Harry's voice was echoing through out the room.
"Haz where have you been we missed ya last night." Louis said winking at us I could feel my face begining to get hot from his comment.
"Last night I went out with Jocelyn just the two of us. But we need to tell you guys something. Last night was the most memorable night of my life. Last night was the night when this beautiful girl told me that she would marry me."