Liam: Babe, are you awake?
Me: Yeah. Why? Come in Liam.
Me: What happened last night? How did I get into my room? All I remembered was, you flagged a cab and I could not remember anything else.
Liam: You fainted last night. When I came back to take you, I saw you lying unconsciously on the ground. I carried you and brought you home before calling the doctor. The boys were worried too when he saw me rushing into the house.
Me: Oh. I’m so sorry to trouble you and the boys. I’m really sorry.
Liam: It is okay sweet, are you hiding anything from me?
Me: What? No. Probably because, I was too tired last night.
Liam: The doctor told me that you are under stress and exhaustion. You really need to look after your health, alright? Promise?
Me: Pinky promise, Liam.
Liam left my room.
How could I faint?! What if the boys suspected something’s not right with me?! I am still trying my best to hide my conditions from the boys. Yes, I’ve remembered that the doctor told me that I wouldn’t be able to live long enough as my leukemia, was becoming worst. That’s one of the reasons that I would like to go home before the boys found out about it.
-End of P.O.V.-
Harry: Bell, are you awake? Can I come in?
Me: Sure Hazza!
Harry: Good morning love!
Me: Good Morning CurlyWurly!
Harry: We’re on a date today.
Me: Stop it with your cheeky attitude! It’s making me blushed.
Harry: Aww, babe! Your cheeks! It’s red as a cherry! Bell, you should know something.
Harry: You’re cute and I like cute girls.
Me: Haha! Stop it Hazza! It’s making me blush even more! Thanks for giving me compliments though.
Harry: Alright alright, you should bathe now, smellywelly!
I threw a pillow at him.
Me: Now get out! After bathing I’ll meet you at the door alright? Oh, wait. Where are we going?
Harry: We’ll be doing lots of physical activities today.
Me: Ahhhh, I see. Okay, gogo. I’ll be there in an hour.
So I bathed. As usual, it took me 30 minutes to bathe and 30 minutes to get changed. So I emptied my wardrobe, picked out a nice clothes and throwing all of my clothes back into the wardrobe without folding it. I’m plain lazy to fold every single piece of it. That’s just me and Hazza knew about it.
I grabbed a pair of red sneakers, my sling bag, a small towel and a pair of clothes.
Me: Okay! I’m ready!
Harry: You’re 5 minutes late.
Me: Really? Seriously?
I gave him the “what” face and he laughed at me.
Niall: Have fun lovebirds!
He was sitting on the couch with lots of foods on his lap. Harry and me turned to face Niall before saying “THE HELL, NIALL?!”.
There was a wide array of activities on that day. Harry had planned everything, perfectly for me. The way Harry wrapped his arms around me when I did not know how to use the bow and arrow when I was at the archery club. His favourite club. I still remembered it. The way Harry arms was on my shoulder ushering me through the crowd. The forehead kisses he gave me. His big and strong hands gripping on to mine. I know, a little part of me was falling for him. But I know, on the other hand, Zayn has been the only guy that’s on my mind. I’m just sorry for Harry, I’m so confused with myself.
Those giggling, cheering and laughter Harry had gave me. The big smile that he had left for me. I knew that everything will come to an end. We sat at a bench near to the sports centre and had ice cream when it started to drizzle. But I did not pay attention to the rain.
Harry: Lovely, what were you thinking? You were staring into space. You okay love? It’s drizzling, wanna get back inside?
Me: Yeah. I’m fine. Nah, it’s okay, I would like to be in the rain. The rain is beautiful, don’t you think? And I was just thinking what would it feels like without you guys when I’m back in my hometown. I meant, you would be staying here. Zayn, Liam, Niall and Louis would go back some other times.
Harry: Did I ever mention to you?
Me: Mention? Mention what?
As he stood up and grabbed my hands, caressing my cheek as he lifted my chin and I could feel the warmth of his breath brushing the top of my lip and he kissed me under the rain with his hands on my waist.
Harry: I love you.
Me: I… I love you too, but I’m sorry. We could only be best friends.
Harry looked down, with tears in his deep emerald green eyes. I could feel his heart breaking, shattering into pieces. I lifted his head up and wipe off his tears with my small thumbs.
Me: I’m sorry.
When Zayn came and punched Harry in his face. I gasped. Harry’s nose was bleeding. I pushes Zayn away.
Me: Zayn! Stop!
Zayn pushed me onto the floor, leaving my elbow bleeding. Harry tried to help me up but Zayn did not allow him to. Zayn continued to punch Harry. I stood up and tried to pull Harry away from Zayn but it only left Zayn from slapping me, and as I fell with tears in my eyes, witnessing the boys in a fight. Zayn swinging his strong fist into Harry’s face. And Harry using both his arms as a shield to prevent his face from being punched. I scream. I had never seen Zayn in this way before. I had never seen Zayn freaking red, as if a tiger protecting its cub.
Me: STOP IT YOU GUYS! WHY ARE YOU GUYS PUNCHING EACH OTHER?! DON’T YOU CARE FOR ONE ANOTHER, DO YOU?!
Zayn: You’re a bitch Bell! You knew I love you but here you are kissing Harry!
Harry: She’s not a bitch! She was there for you but you were a jerk for her! She needs someone to take care of her and to protect her! I was there and I fell in love with her. I could not deny my feelings anymore.
I tried to stand up, I was dizzy, but I forced myself to.
Zayn: But why Bell why? Why couldn’t you accept me? I broke up with Cassandra for you Bell, for you. No one else.
Me: You kn——
I woke up. I looked around me. I was in a room and I saw Zayn on my right and Harry on the left. Niall, Liam, Louis and Cassandra were at the corner of the room. I was in the hospital. I moved my fingers, trying to reach out to Harry.
Harry: Bell, don’t move. I’ll call the doctor.
I grabbed his hands as I removed my oxygen mask from my mouth.
Zayn: Bella! Don’t remove it.
Me: It’s okay. I’m fine. I wished to talk to everyone. I’m afraid if it’s too late to say so.
Louis: Nothing’s gonna happen to you Bell.
Niall: Don’t say that Bell, please.
Liam: Bella, you’ll be alright.
Cassandra: Honey, you’ll be fine.
Me: I’m sorry. I should have told everyone before. I’m so sorry. Harry, I wanted you to remember me as your best friend, I did not want to hurt you anymore. I knew about myself. I had leukemia Harry. I couldn’t….
Zayn: You had, leu—— what?! Why didn’t you tell me?! We had been best friend for years Bella! And all along, I did not know about this?! How could you do this Bell?! How could you be so heartless?!
Me: Zayn, i….
He slammed the door as he left the room. Cassandra went out to calm Zayn. I was in tears.
Me: Guys, I’m so sorry. You have every right to scold me, say things you would like to say. I’m so sorry. I did not want any of you to worry about me. I knew that the day would come, I purposely hide it from all of you. Nobody knew except me.
Harry was in tears. He was speechless. I could see Liam, Niall and Louis in tears too. They made me cried even harder.
Me: I need you guys to do one last thing for me.
Boys: What is it?
Me: Please tell Zayn that I loved him, I’ve always been in love with him. It was just him, he couldn’t see it. Please tell Zayn to make Cassandra happy, for me.
Harry: Bell please don’t say like that! Bell!
Me: Harry, please. You have to accept it. I want you to be happy alright? I want you to promise me that you will find a better girl than me. Pinky promise?
Harry: Bella, no. You’re the one Bella, you’re the one! No one else Bell! Only you. It’s got to be you.
Me: No Harry no. Niall, I want you to live life to the fullest. You’re perfect just the way you are Niall. You don’t have to be insecure about yourself. I believed in you. Please, be happy. Liam, even after I’m gone, your beat boxing, your dance moves, your voice, I’ll remember it. You know you had me to support you in your dreams, right? Continue to reach it. Louis, your jokes, I never once had forgotten about all of it. The spongebob you won for me in the amusement park, I want you to give it to the special girl who you would end up marrying to. Guys, please tell Zayn and Cassandra that I love each and every of you. Meeting you guys was the best thing that had happened in my life. Remember, I love you…….
Harry: Bella?! BELLA?! NO! BELLA! YOU CAN’T DIE! WAKE UP BELLA! BELLA PLEASE!
Zayn came in with Cassandra. He looked up to each of us. Everyone was in tears.
Zayn: Bell?! BELLA?! WHAT HAPPENED TO HER?! THIS CAN’T BE TRUE! TELL ME GUYS THIS ISN’T TRUE! SHE’S STILL ALIVE!
Me: Zayn, she’s not. She passed away. All she wanted to tell us was, she love each and every of us. It was sad, her last sentence was “remember, I love you….” And she trailed off, closing her eyes slowly.
Liam: Everyone have heard what she want for each of us right? Let’s not make her sad. Let her go, happily. Let’s do this for her. Come on people, I’m sure Bella wants us to be happy. She was the most amazing girl I’ve ever met. But it was her time. I’m upset cause she went with just a blink of an eye.
Niall: And for Bella, we love you too.
Everyone: And for Bella, we love you too.