I ran halfway. I was exhausted. Louis could run fast. Obviously, just take a look at his arm muscles and leg. So, I decided to walk instead.
Lou: Haha! I won the race. Where’s my ice cream?
Me: Alright alright, I’ll buy for you, your Vanilla ice cream.
Me: Here you go Lou!
It was five in the afternoon and I was worn out. I was pretty tired on that day. Louis was tired too, I could see it from his expression. I bought cotton candy, which was my favourite candy whenever I’m at an amusement park. We headed back to Lou’s house pretty early. Since both of us looked so dreadful. I drove Lou’s car. He was just so exhausted and I pitied him. He gave me the permission to drive back but he was asleep the whole journey back to his house.
Liam: Look! Bell drove Louis’s car! I didn’t know she could drive a car.
Me: *get out of the car*
Niall: Nobody told me either. But, where’s Lou? Shouldn’t he be the one driving a girl home?
Me: Lou was tired, so I drove back home. I took driving license last year. Zayn knew about it except the four of you.
I saw Zayn from the corner of my eyes as I stepped into the house. I caught him looking at me, but I didn’t look at him. I just went straight to my room for a wash up before dinner. I was fresh after bathing. I heard a knock on my door.
Me: Come in.
Zayn: Hey Bell, may I speak to you for awhile?
Me: Sure. What is it?
Zayn: I broke up with Cassandra, yesterday. I can’t be lying to myself. I know you love me and have been waiting for me for years. I want to be with you, I want to make you happy. I want to see you being happy and I want that man that can make you be happy to be me. Give me a chance to prove to you that I will never hurt you.
Me: Zayn, yes. I do love you. But I can’t see my own friend getting hurt. Not for my happiness. It’s unfair. Cassandra still need you more than I do. No matter what, you and me. We will always be best friend, even if we’re far apart. Distance doesn’t matter. The heart do. There comes Harry. He love me too. That’s what I heard from Niall and Louis. I do not wish to break his heart, neither yours nor Cassandra. For my happiness, please Zayn? Get back with Cassandra. She need you right now. She’s at home. She texted me when I was at the amusement park. She need someone now. Go, go back to her.
Zayn: Why Bell?! Why?! Why do you have to keep hurting yourself for someone else? You do know that your happiness is all I matter.
Me: But Zayn, your love for me is not the same like your love for her. It’s not a true love. I want to be with the one who can protect me, who can make me smile, be happy and a loyal boyfriend. Just, go back to Cassandra, make her happy like you did before. Cherish her.
Zayn: Give me a chance Bell, I really… I really love you. I want you.
Me: No Zayn. I can’t.
Zayn left my room. As I watched him walked away, I cried. Deep down in my heart, I knew he was the one I wanted. He was the only one. But for a friend I cared, I’m willing to let him go. For her and for Harry. There’s nothing else that I could do than to sacrifice my love. I took out the purple sweatshirt and sweat pants that Harry bought for me a few days ago. I wore it and went for a walk nearby. I did not want any of the boys to see me in tears. It was ten at night but I wasn’t afraid to take a walk. It’s not like I’m going to be kidnapped.
So I left without the boys noticing. I had no idea where I was walking, but I continued the walked. I did not want to stop. I shove in my earpiece, blast my music from my ipod and be in my own world. The quieter I get, the louder I’m screaming inside my heart. It was a two hour walk. I just need to let out those words that Zayn said, his face when he left the room. The text that Cassandra left me. I decided to walk back home. I wouldn’t want any of the boys to be worried.
I took a look at my watch. It was 12midnight. I walked slightly faster than just now because it was getting late. Really late. I pushed open the house door.
Harry: Where did you go?! I received a call from Louis saying you were nowhere to be found. I called you several times and there was no answer.
Niall: You left us worried!
Liam: Zayn said that you and him had a little talk before you were gone. He was afraid he got you upset that he thought you had ran away. But we went into your room, your bag was there.
Louis: You should never do this again Bell! It’s dangerous for a girl like you to walk alone in the street without us!
Zayn: Bell! I’m sorry if I said things that upset you. I promise you I would never hurt you and make you sad again.
Me: GUYS! I’m fine. There’s nothing to worry! Look, I’m still me, I’m in a good condition. I’m fine, I just need fresh air just now, that was the reason I went out.
Harry: You’re lying.
Me: I’m not. I need to rest now. Harry, Zayn. You guys should sleep here. It’s late. I don’t want any danger to happen to any of you if you were to drive back home at this time.
I walked back to my room. I jumped onto my bed. I was sleepy, literally sleepy and it’s the third day tomorrow. How fast can the day passed by? It’s a day out with Liam tomorrow. The guy who gave me good advices and the one who cared for me like an older brother. Harry, Niall, Zayn and Louis cared for me like I’m a part of their life, like their soul.