I thought back over the past two days. It was Sunday evening and this had been the most painful weekend that anyone could ever experience. I would usually go over to Georgia's house on Saturdays and we would talk and race to the treehouse and just be idiots. Not this weekend. No, this weekend there was no Georgia to hang out with.
It had drawn Sunday night. I was sitting on my front lawn listening to the radio, drawing miserable circles in the grass. I saw a figure approaching me. I ignored whoever it might've been and just stared at the ground, blinking back the tears. I knew I couldn't hold them back for too long. Some people were telling me it was alright for me to cry, that crying was only natural. Other people told me not to cry and that crying would just make me feel worse. Whoever it was that was walking towards me drew nearer and nearer. It was Niall.
He sat on the ground beside me.
'Hey.' his voice wasn't the same as it usually was, all happy and cheery. It was sad and low, like it never had been before.
'Hi.' I replied, just above a whisper. He sighed and started rubbing circles on my back.
'How are you doing?' he sounded sympathetic. Or maybe he knew how I felt? Had he ever had his best friend die right in front of him? Probably not.
'I know you're not.' he embraced me in a hug. I took a deep and shuddery breath and tried not to cry. Niall realised. 'You know, when my grandfather died, I spent days trying not to cry. My mum told me that it was perfectly okay to cry. And she was right. If you cry, it just means you love her.'
I knew he was right. It was okay to cry. It was fine. It did mean I loved her. Georgia was my best friend. Of course I did.
I sat there in Niall's arms in silence, the atmosphere filled with the sound of the radio.
'That was Rockstar by Reese Mastin.' said the radio host. The last song I ever heard Georgia sing out loud, that Friday lunchtime when we were dancing around like idiots. 'And now, we are going to play Nickelback's Never Gonna Be Alone.'
Time is going by so much faster than I
And I'm startin to regret not spending all of it with you
Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside
And I'm startin to regret not tellin all it to you
I couldn't hold back the tears. Georgia's favourite song. And what's more, it was one of those songs that I could relate to prefectly. I wish I had told her something, anything to say how much she meant to me. I stopped trying to hold everything back and let the tears fall.
'If you cry, it just means you love her.' I whispered as she tried to hold up all the tears welling in her eyes.
It was silent for a while, but not an awkward silence. I just hugged Lilli. I felt she needed it. Maybe she would've preferred a hug from Georgia, and I hated myself for letting it get so far that she died. But now, she couldn't get a hug from her. No one could.
'And now, we are going to play Nickelback's Never Gonne Be Alone.' Maybe that was a song that Georgia liked, because as soon as the song was announced, Lilli burst into tears.
Time is going by so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you
Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottles inside
And I'm startin to regret not telling of it to you
I ran my fingers through her hair and squeezed her hand tightly.
'It's okay. I'm here.' I comforted. 'I love you.'
What did he just say?
A/N: Niall just told Lilli he loves her... is that just comfort or is he being serious? And what is school going to bring for Lilli, being by herself? Will Niall leave her to sit and mourn the death of her best friend, or will he be there for her then as well?
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