Ruby ღ

I'm not a bitch,
I'm not a slut,
I'm not a whore,
And I sure as hell ain't yours.
So go ahead and do yourself a favour:
Don't believe the rumours you hear about me.

Survival 101 - You're as good as dead if you try to get into my pants.

(Sequel to 'Red ♥')
Many thanks to: J.K Pansear (Kammy), kelsea (Briella), Musical Megster (Megan) - Love you all guys, thank you ♥ xoxo ~Patch

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21. Is My Heart Still In Tact?

I woke up, unsure of where I was or what I was doing, but when I turned around I was sure my life over the past week or so had been a dream. Just a bad dream. Thank godess for that. I turned over in the bed - whos bed, I don't know - and found Harry kissing my neck, moving to the sensitive spot beneath my ear. It was a sweet and rare moment where I could reveal my emotions, show Harry the side of me I'd never be able to show anybody else. I turned in his arms and burried my face into his chest, happy to savour this moment for as long as it lasted. Everything was back to normal. No pool party, no memory wipe, no telepath, no torture. And no Alex.

I felt happy.

"Morning." I whispered, kissing his collar bone.

His arms tightened around me, holding me close and nuzzling his cheek against the crown of my head. I felt safe, secure.

"Harry?" I whispered again, when he didn't reply.

He stirred against me and suddenly became fully concious.

When he came to, I expected a hug and a smile and maybe a good-morning-kiss. But I never got that. And then I realised that what had just happened was not real, just instinct. I had wiped his memory. We had been tortured. And I really did lose him. Oh godess, help me.

I began to cry, the realisation was crushing. Like finding out your parents have died.

Been there, done that, I thought.

And then Harry was backing away from me, stretching his arms with a puzzled look on his face.

"Sorry, Alex. Um, I didn't mean to do that to you I just-"

I let a silent tear roll down my cheek, and I let out a gentle sob.

He softened and approached me again, pulling me awkwardly to his chest. I felt slightly better, but I knew it was a pity hug.

"Shh, don't cry. Why are you crying, anyway?"

I chuckled, feeling slightly pathetic. I sniffed, rubbing my wet eyes and getting old mascara on my fingers.

"Sorry. I-I just, I didn't mind you doing that. . ." I bit down on my lower lip, like I always seemed to do when I lied. Which I seemed to be doing alot lately. Lying, I mean.

Harry looked shell-shocked.

"But you're with Niall-" he stammered.

I laughed quietly, shaking my head. Time to tell him.

"I'm not. I'm not with Niall. I love y-"

"Alex!" Niall burst into the room,  a wide grin on his bright and happy face. It dissappeared as soon as he saw Harry staring at me like I was an alien who'd crashlanded into his bedroom.

"I need to talk to you." Niall smiled, his excitement visible.

"Okay." I muttered, turning away from Harry.

Before I left to join Niall in the cream-carpeted hallway, Harry's voice was near my ear, his breath stiring the hairs on the back of my neck.

"This isn't over. I'm not dropping this, we're going to talk when you're done with Niall. Understood?"

I hardly had a choice, did I?

"Mmhm." My voice was small - I wasn't used to this dominance and power he was now presenting.It was scary - I was usually the one that was snapping orders and being the alpha. Strange; was this how I behaved towards him?o

I followed Niall out and he was in his boxers, leaning against one of the windows.

"Well, I know you went into Harry's room, and I understand that. But don't do it again. You don't want him finding things out. Thing is, last night I was thinking about it, and, well. . . I really like you, Ruby."

My heart was about ready to drop out my butt.

"You do?"

He grinned crookedly.

" 'Course. You're fantastic, and beautiful and funny and strong and. . ." I looked away, bashful.

"I'm just an ordinary person." I mumbled, chewing on my lip.

"No, you're amazing." And before I knew it, his hands were tangled in my hair, pulling my face to his, his lips soft and sweet on mine. My arms automatically went around his neck and I kissed him back, my tongue slipping into his mouth.

See? Horrible, horrible person.

Niall pulled back first, his breathing fast and exhilirated. He rested his forehead against mine, closing his eyes.

"God, Ruby, I think I love you."

And just like that, I knew - if Hell existed - I'd be going there.

 

A few hours later, we'd all had breakfast (Harry was a brilliant cook, as always) and eating his breakfast reminded me of my room, the rocking chair and the snide comments he made while teasing me mercilessly. What the heck was I doing?

Niall - Harry.

There wasn't even a competition. Niall, he simply thought he was attracted to me. He was amazing, but I couldn't stand having to chose. It would be Harry, because I loved Harry. Niall was my friend - well, fake boyfriend. Not according to him.

But you kissed him ba-ack! the voice in my head teased, making me flinch. I had most definitely not kissed him back. I refused to believe it.

"Alex. Outside." Harry instructed. I nodded, climbing off the bar stool and walking outside to talk with him.

"Look, this is incredibly confusing and I'm sick of you pissing me about. Are you with Niall? Be honest."

"No."

"Is your name Alex?"

I hesitated. "No."

He kept his pokerface.

"Do I know you from somewhere?"

"Y-Yes."

"Do you love me?"

Congradulations, Mr. Styles, you figured it out! Medal for the most intelligent teenage boy with the most infuriating mind in the world!

"Of course." My voice was barely above a whisper.

"Why don't I remember you?"

Now that I couldn't tell him, right? Well, I may as well walk through Hell with a smile.

"Because I wiped your memory." He didn't seem phased. And the questions kept on coming.

"What were you to me before you wiped my memory?"

"You're. . . I guess you could call me your girlfriend. We were together, kind of. You were a brilliant kisser."

He let a smile slip through.

"Why did you wipe it though?"

"Because I was dangerous for you. Putting you in harms way wherever I went. I couldn't watch you go on like that. I loved you too much."

It felt so good to tell him the truth, like a huge weight lifting of my chest. But there's such a thing as too much honestly. Like now, for example.

"Can you put them back? The memories, I mean."

That's the thing: I could put them back, but I didn't know if it was the right thing to do or not.

"Yes. I can. But I don't want to." I was oddly calm for a girl who was pushing away the love of her life.

Harry was enraged.

"What?! Why?! That's just- just- stupid!" He snarled, tugging at his curls and squinting his eyes shut as if he could somehow shut out the words I was so painfully throwing at him.

"Harry-" I reached out to touch him but he flinched.

"Just leave." He spat, shooting daggers at me.

 

Gee, Rubes, you've really fucked it up this time.

 

 

 

 

 

 

A.N: So sorry it's not long, but I did update, right? I have a cute story to tell you. This actually happened: I was walking in the rain in a vest top and shorts ('cos I'm stupid like that) and I had to take off my shoes because I had horrible blisters. It was pouring it down and I was crying because I'd just had an argument with my mate. I was a wreck, my hair dripping and my mascara running down my cheeks. I passed a street where my auntie lived and a boy came up beside me and offered me his jacket. Godess, he smelt sooo yummy!:) He was hot, yeah, and he walked me back to my house. When I say 'walked', I mean he gave me a piggy-back 'cos I never had shoes on. I could feel his bloody sixpack under his shirt! :D  Then he gave me his number! True story :') Maybe being forgetful worked just this once. I'll try and make up with my friend, but there y'go... His name was Cassius by the way: Black hair and sparkly green eyes. Hot body and soft lips. I should know, because he kissed my cheek when we got to my house. Turns out he only lives round the corner! *squeal* Okay, long enough A.N, don't you think? I'm gonna go now - gotta call Cassius :) Love you guys! <3

Much love, Patch xoxo

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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