Slash(boyxboy) MA don't hate. Don't like boyxboy action don't read. I knew he was finally sleep and it was safe to open my weary eyes. I took in his masculine but feminine features. His eyelashes were thick, long and looked soft to the touch. His high cheek bones accentuated his straight cut jaw line. Cheeks were still a light pink color from when he blushed before.His shiny light brown hair swept just over his closed eyes.He is the definition of yang. Light, hot, assertive, and fiery while I'm the yin dark, cool, receptive, and moist. Together we make a whole. We are balanced and harmonious around each other. He completes me the yang to my yin. I closed my eyes hoping that he would still be next to me when I woke up.


19. Truly, Madly,Deeply (chapter17)

Josh's P.O.V. ( shocker ikr?)

    I had just put my book down and was preparing to fall asleep when I heard a door creek open. I knew it had to be Niall. I tip-toed quickly into the hallway and sauntered up to Niall. "You are going to tell me everything." my voice bellowed threateningly. I didn't mean to sound so harsh but he wasn't eating or sleeping anymore and I was so worried about my Ni. Wait did I just say my Ni? I thought while scrunching my eyebrows together. I looked at the floor as a warm pink blush spread across my cheeks. I slowly rose my head again to meet cerulean eyes boring into my dull brown ones.His eyes searched mine for an answer to an unasked question.

    I stared intently at the way his feathery blond hair was swept gently to the left side of his pale face. I was dumb founded intrigued, and embarrassed under his watchful glare. No expression crossed his delicate features. I arched an eyebrow trying to question him for his odd behavior.He had never acted this way before. He shook his head dismissing my curiosity, but now I had to know what that intense gaze was about. " Hey Niall, what was that about?" I inquired quietly trying not to disturb the calm silence that surrounded us. " Nothing to worry about." he whispered timidly as his cheeks were being engulfed in a scarlet red " please tell me." I begged pathetically. "Just Leave it Josh!" he thundered at me and stormed away. I was so confused.

   One moment he was sobbing into my arms, or pleading with me to do what he wanted, then BAM he would despise me and push me away. Can't he tell I'm truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with him? So what if I had a girlfriend she only wanted to be with me for the fame, money and 'glory'. I just sat down where I stood  and balled into my clammy hands. I don't cry like I used to it's more like tsunami tides in my eyes. Never ending rivers constantly flow down my face when I'm alone. I pulled my knees up to my chest and just sat and cried for what felt like days but must of been only minutes before I heard the door open again.

Niall's P.O.V.

I went blind with rage as I tried to understand my feelings. " Dis I really just imagine that!" I bellowed angrily as I threw yet another random picture frame at the back of the door. I sighed and plopped down on the disheveled bed. I didn't understand why I was so infuriated. He only showed me that he cared about me. that's when my vision was  blurred by a torrent of tears. As the fresh tears crawled rapidly down my face I whipped them away furiously. I thought back to what caused my little temper tantrum.

  I was hugging Josh to me tightly by the waist as he stroked my hair. I have to admit it felt nice. I looked up into his cinnamon colored eyes. That's when I started to lean further into his toned; soft body. I savored the moment before I leaned upward and kissed his light pink colored lips. They tasted like honey and brown sugar. He kissed me back with such intensity it almost brought me to tears. We stood for a while just kissing. Simple and sweet like a cherry flavored  lolli. I liked his bottom lip asking for entry but all he did was smile into the kiss and the slowly lean away from my lips. I frowned playfully and sighed contently.

As I snapped out of my daze I realized something. I was in falling truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with one of my best friends. I needed to tell him. I searched around the room I often stayed at when I stayed here. I found exactly what I was looking for. I smiled slightly and looked through the case for the song. I was almost ready and to make sure he still wasn't out side I put my ear to the door. What I heard broke my heard. Heart wrenching sobs echoed through the practically empty hallway. I picked up my guitar and took a deep breath. "I can't believe I was repressing these emotions for Josh for so many months." I mumbled to myself. I opened the door and stepped outside. It was time to apologize to Josh.

I saw him sitting on the maroon carpeting sobbing into his knees. Was I the cause of all this pain he felt? I took a seat in front of him and started to strum( * fun fact: strum is the British slang term for masturbation) the cords to song.

Am I asleep, am I awake, or somewhere in between?
I can’t believe that you are here and lying next to me
Or did I dream that we were perfectly entwined?
Like branches on a tree, or twigs caught on a vine?"

I sang softly to Josh. His eyes were just showing under his shaggy brown hair as he set his chin on his knees. I smiled slightly and continued.

"Like all those days and weeks and months I tried to steal a kiss
And all those sleepless nights and daydreams where I pictured this,
I’m just the underdog who finally got the boy
And I am not ashamed to tell it to the world."

I empathized the word boy trying to clue Josh in. I smiled even bigger when I saw Josh blush slightly as I sang.

Truly, madly, deeply, I am
Foolishly, completely falling
And somehow you kicked all my walls in
So baby, say you’ll always keep me
Truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you
In love with you

Should I put coffee and granola on a tray in bed
And wake you up with all the words that I still haven’t said?
And tender touches, just to show you how I feel
Or should I act so cool like it was no big deal?

Wish I could freeze this moment in a frame and stay like this
I’ll put this day back on replay and keep reliving it
‘Cause here’s the tragic truth if you don’t feel the same
My heart would fall apart if someone said your name

And truly, madly, deeply, I am
Foolishly, completely falling
And somehow you kicked all my walls in
So baby, say you’ll always keep me
Truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you

I hope I’m not a casualty,
I hope you won’t get up and leave
May not mean that much to you
But to me it’s everything, everything"

I stopped took a deep breath and put my guitar next to me. I took Josh's hands in mine and whispered

"Truly, madly, deeply, I am
Foolishly, completely falling
And somehow you kicked all my walls in
So baby, say you’ll always keep me
Truly, madly, crazy deeply in love (in love) with you (with you),
In love (in love) with you (with you)
In love (in love) with you (with you)
With you, oh!"

 After I finished I bit my lip and closed my eyes waiting for Josh to respond.

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