If you're reading this, you're too late

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"Sometimes the hardest part isn't letting go but rather learning to start over." - Nicole Sobon

"If you didn't love him, this never would have happened. But you did. And accepting that love and everything that followed it is part of letting it go." - Sarah Dessen

"It's only after we've lost everything that we are free to do anything." - Chuck Palahniuk

"A heart is like a fragile branch, it is not hard to break." - Me <3 <3 <3

My name is Sophie Brown, I have a secret. It is only shown behind hidden and locked doors. Can you find it?


12. Cutting herself out of the picture

*Emilie's POV*

I had done it. I had gotten Louis in bed.

*Louis' POV*

I woke up with a pounding headache. I got really drunk last night. I rolled over and saw a smiling Emilie in my bed. I was naked.

"OH SHIT!!!" I hopped up and grabbed my boxers.

I quickly started to get dressed.

"What the hell happened last night?" I asked getting ready even faster.

"Oh, I think you know what happened last night."

"Don't do that shit. I am not in the mood, I don't like you, stay the fuck away from me." I was yelling grabbing my shirt and walking out the door.

"Don't do what shit, I am not doing anything," I heard her say in a voice that made me sick.

I went and told a hung over Harry everything. He drove me over to Sophie's house.


When we pulled up to the gate, I just sat there.

"Come on dude, you have to tell her." He said ushering me to get out of the car.

"I can't."

"You owe her that much."

"Your right."

I got out and ran to the small silver box and pressed the button.

"Hey, Louis." She had the voice of an angel and that broke me, she had no idea and she was happy. I broke down.

"H-h-hey." I said through tears.

"Oh my gosh Louis, your crying what's wrong?"

"I will tell you everything inside."

"Ok. Come on in."

I heard the buzzing and got back into Harry's car. He drove me up the rest of the driveway.

"Thank you." I said hopping out of the car.

I turned to see a worried looking Sophie looking back at me.

"What’s wrong Lou?"

We went up to her room and I sat on the bed.

*Sophie's POV*

He sounded so...sad. I got very worried.

'What Louis, tell me what’s wrong." I said.

He had his head in his hands and his arms were propped up on his knees.

He started crying some more, what was he not telling me?

"Louis, why are you crying?"

"You're going to hate me forever."

"Why Louis, why will I hate you forever, tell me." What was he not telling me? Seriously?

"I don't know how to tell you, I can't you won't want to listen to my explanation."

"You don't know that yet, what is it Lou?"

He stayed quiet.

"LOUIS!!! WHAT IS WRONG?" I said slowly in a serious tone. "Did you drunk drive, did you get into a fight with someone, what?"

All that came from him was weeping.

"Did you sleep with someone?" I laughed trying to lighten the mood, because he could never do that to me. Right? He wasn't laughing at that. Why wasn't he laughing too?

"You didn't, did you Lou?"


"Yes what? What happened?"

"I slept with Emilie."

My mouth made an O shape and I felt the tears start to form. I wouldn't have been mad about the other things, but this I was furious about. I stood up and pointed to the door.

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE!!!" I was yelling in his face. I backed up when he stood up.

"LET ME EXPLAIN, please, please?" His voice got softer as he asked for me to listen.



Then my door opened and my mom walked in.

"What is going on in here?"

"I WANT HIM OUT; I NEVER WANT TO SEE HIM AGAIN." I yelled as I laid my head on her chest and she hugged me.

"Look Louis, I don't know what happened in here, but I think you should go, and I think it's best if you stay away for a while.

*Louis' POV*

Now her mother wants me to leave too, and stay away. I wouldn't let that happen.

"BUT I LOVE HER." I said, I had to get it out before I left.

They both got silent and just stared at me.

Sophie made her mom let go of her and walked towards me. I honestly didn't know what she was going to do.

"But I hate you." She said, spacing out the words coldly right in my face.

I ran out, how could she hate me? Never mind, it was perfectly right for her to hate me. I messed up everything. My life sucks.

*Sophie's POV*

Every time Jesse would use that line on me when he cheated or his friends made him do some stupid shit, I would fall back into his arms again. I don't know what it was that Jesse did but I always went back to him. Well I am not going to do that again in another relationship.

When he left I faced my mom and started crying into her shoulder.

"It's alright honey, whatever he did to you, he doesn't deserve you." For the first time in a LONG time, I felt like she actually saw me. Like I was actually there for once.

"Thank you mom, but I would like to be alone for a while."

"Oh, Ok honey; you take all the time you need to get happy again. I love you."

"I love you too." She said leaving and going back to work.

Once the door was shut I went into the bathroom in search of a razor. When I found one I slammed the drawer shut and went into my secret room. Once the doors opened I ran into the back corner and sat with my back up against the wall. I started the cutting. Once it started to sting I waited a bit, and it started to seep through my shirt.

Spring break was coming up next week, and I was hoping to go visit my grandparents and Lucy. I was going to get up and call her but I just sat there, blankly. Then I heard a buzzing noise, I didn't know what it was until my phone caught my sight, it was inching away with every vibration. I stood up and rapped the razor in a paper towel, got some more tissues and put them on my cuts. I walked back to my closet and grabbed a new shirt. I changed and went back to my other room. I walked over and sat on the red couch. I opened up my texts and was very surprised to see who texted me. It was a text from Jesse.

"Soph, I miss you so much, please, I already told the boys I wanted nothing to do with them anymore, and I will not help them. Please. I know your spring break is coming up and I was wondering if you were willing to meet with me. Please??? I LOVE YOU!!!"

See what I told ya, he uses that line every time he screws up, but guess what he got me at the right time, because I am really vulnerable.

My finger hovered over the send button; finally BOOM my finger went down. Sent.

"Yeah, sure. Meet me at my grandmothers on Monday." I had fallen back into his trap.

Hey Louis, guess what, I officially "Cut myself" Out of the picture.

Author's Note: Hey everyone, what a long chapter. I have the next couple of chapters and I want to type them so bad, but you will have to wait, maybe I will update tomorrow if I have time. By the way comment, I lover reading them. PLEASE. Bye bye. ;D

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