Another love story..♥ (Trinity's life)

Trinity's love life isn't easy. She's into both boys and girls, and that can be a little hard sometimes. She really clumsy and unlucky. All in all - her life is really hard. Not even close to easy, never.
This is her story'diary thing. The story of her life, kinda..

- Most of it is made up but with inspiration from my life. U could say that she's kinda struggling with some of my problems but she's just more unlucky than i am :P


3. like a dream

She was so special. I've always had this 'good eye' 2 her and now it's just like my dream had come true.

Even though i haven't talked with her in like 4ever, my feelings hasn't changed. Back then I hadn't thought more about it, but now when i look back I realize how trapped i was. I was in love. Without knowing. <-- there's kinda nothing worse than that. K, there's but not in my case. I wish I had known and done something about it, but no. I had to waste my life for 4 years before realizing... 

Now she's going to school the same place as me and I have finally realized that I'm freaking fucking in love with her. 


I don't really think that she's interested in me, and why would she? I'm not the prettiest girl in the world and she can get so much better. I just have 2 let it go and for ones, give up. Can't believe I'm saying this but I'm breaking my codecs. 

CODECS; 'Never give up, u'll just look weak.'

I really don't wan't 2 give up on it, 'cause I love her so much. I've never had these feelings for some1 before- she's an exception.

"maybe i know somewhere
deep down in my soul
that love never lasts
and we've got to find other ways
to make it alone 
keep a straight face
and i've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance
and until now i had sworn to myself that i'm content with loneliness
because none of it was ever worth the risk 
well you are the only exception"

I kinda had these feelings for a boy ones, i think, but nothing really happened. He wanted my friend so..?
But she's the first girl I'm in love with, like really in love!
I've liked girls before but not like this, this time it's different. Okay once i was in love with this girl, but nothing could ever happen there - it would've been incest, so.. yeah..


I've known that I was into girls too, since I was 8 or 9-years-old. So I'm pretty sure. 
I don't hide it, I just haven't told anyone 'cause it's just not that kinda thing I just talk about but I wouldn't lie if someone asked. And i've never hid it, i actually is surprised that some people never would have guessed it.. I'm just like; look at the way i speak to my girls, isn't there something that just makes you want to go "GAAAAY!" ? - i sometimes think that myself ;o

But the thing i'm tired of, really tired, is that the question you always gets are; "Are you gay?", never "Do you like girls?" or "Are you into girls 2?", they just right away assume that you're gay, and not that you maybe are into both. You can be into girls and boys,silly..? It's called bisexual, idiot...
But on the other hand; 
Gay traditionally means "happy" but in Modern English it also means homosexual. This meaning is more common now. The word "gay" describes a person who is sexually attracted to people of the same sex instead of the opposite sex. They are also often romantically interested in people of the same sex. This means male who like other males or females who likes other females. The word "gay" can mean any homosexual person, but sometimes it specifically mean homosexual men. Homosexual women are sometimes called "lesbian" instead. 

That's what wikipedia says gay means, so i can see what it's all about. I am gay, yeah, but sometimes it actually can be a little offending to just be called gay, when you actually are into both... but fuck it - i don't care. If it makes people feel better to call me gay, they are more than free to do it. 


I AM A MEMBER OF THE LGBT BIATCH!!! Take it or leave it - i don't really care. 
(the LGBT = lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender. It's a community for.. yeah you can figure that out yourself, and if not; wow, you must be slow - and read the first sentence) 

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