It's hard, dating the famous Niall Horan. But it gets only harder when your new bestfriend Zayn Malik loves you, more than just friends. After one crazy night you discover that deep inside, you want the same. Secret kissing, crying and lying becomes part of your life. How to deal with all this? But more importantly, how to choose?


10. Fears and First times


Since the interview, everything went great. Ofcourse, I was getting lots of hate, but I didn't care at all. Well, actually I did, but I didn't think about it, it was all worth it. Sometimes I got recognised by fans, and then they wanted a picture with me. To be honest, I loved it. Niall's fame didn't bother me that much. Until that one day, a couple of weeks after the interview.

We all had dinner in a lovely Italian restaurant. We had a great time, and then it was time to go outside. Paul was there too, and he warned us that there might be some fans outside. Nothing new. But we were shocked when we went outside. There were at least 300 people there, surrounding us, screaming really loud. To get to the car, we had to make our way through the crowd. Niall took my hand. I looked up at him. By the way he looked, I could tell that he was even more scared than I was. "Okay guys, move it! Walk straight to the car, no time for photographes, it's too crowded. And stay close to eachother! Harry you go first!" Paul yelled above the noise. So there Harry went, quickly followed by Louis. Then it was our turn. Niall slightly pulled my hand, as we made our way through the crowd. The others followed, the line closed by Paul. He was having the hardest time trying to keep everyone safe. Then it happened. Out of nowhere, the crowd started pushing. People were touching and pulling me, and the noise was so loud, I couldn't even think straight anymore. I started to feel like I was smothered. Niall still walked in front of me, squeezing my hand like madness. It felt like the walk to the car never ended. Suddenly I felt a hand in the space between my back and my neck. The first thing I wanted to do was scream, but when I looked behind me, I saw it was Zayn. He gently pushed me forward, rubbing his thumb on my neck. It helped me gain back my calmness. He whispered things in my ear like "It's going to be okay, It is over soon, I'm right here with you." And before I knew it, we reached the car. When Zayn's hand let go of my neck, I immediatly felt cold in the spot were he'd touched me. We got in the car, Niall on one side of me, and Liam on the other. "Is everybody okay?" Paul asked, while starting the car. Everyone nodded. I threw my head back, closing my eyes. The horror was over. Niall rested his hand on my knee. "Oh my god, Liz you are shaking! Are you okay?" "I'm fine, don't worry about me, just a little.. overwhelmed." They all started laughing. Zayn sat in the front of the car, next to Paul. After a while I noticed that he was looking at me through the little mirror on the ceiling. I mimed Thank you. He knew what I meant and started smiling. Throughout the ride home he glanced at me from time to time, probably checking if I was truly alright. The place in my neck were his hand has been, just a couple of minutes a go, burned in a good way.

POV Niall

That night everybody did their own things. Nobody really felt like hanging out. Ofcourse, me and the rest of the boys experienced this before, like a million times, but this was the first time Liz had to go through this. I was so worried about her. She told me she was fine and I shouldn't, but I couldn't help it, it was instinct. She went to bed half an hour ago, and I was really tired too, so I decided to join her. I walked into our bedroom, but she was nowhere to be found. I did hear some noise coming from the walk in closet. I walked over and  put my ear against the door. I heard a strange sound, like someone was sobbing. I opened the door and I was shocked with what I saw. There was Liz, sitting on the ground, her head down, hair's a mess, a laptop next to her. I coughed. She lifted her head, and when she saw me she quickly wiped away her tears, but it was too late, I already saw them. "Niall! I was just changing!" I kneeled in front of her, and rested my hand on her cheek. The minute she felt my touch, she started crying again. I pulled her in for a hug, burrying my face in her hair. We stayed there for a few minutes, and I just let her cry. When she calmed down a little, I asked; "Will you tell me what's wrong, love?" She pointed at her laptop, without saying a word. I grabbed it, and I saw that her Twitter was opened. I read some of the tweets on the screen. "You are so ugly, you don't deserve Niall!" "Stay away from my baby!" "You're a bitch!" "You're just a golddigger.." "If you don't leave Niall alone, I will cut your troat!" "You're stealing Zayn away from Perrie, go die in a hole! Zerrie forever!" I didn't get the last one, but that wasn't the biggest issue right now. "You told me all the hate didn't bother you.. Is it because what happened  tonight?" She nodded her head "I thought I was strong enough Niall, I really did! But I was so scared.. I wanted to distract myself I checked Twitter. When I saw all those tweets, I broke. I'm not sure if I can handle all of this.. I'm so sorry I disappointed you Niall.." Another tear rolled down her cheek. I grabbed both of her hands. "Don't you ever say that again! You did NOT disappoint me! It's normal you are sad, and a little scared, you get used to it. But you must not suffer like this all by yourself, that's what Dani did, then they broke up for a while, and I don't want the history to be repeated. You are way to important for me to lose you. Promise me, that the next time you feel sad, you come to me, okay?" "I promise.." She whispered, "Pinky promise?" I looked at her with puppy eyes. She started laughing, seeing her smile again reassured me that it would be okay. She wrapped her pink around mine. I leaned forward and kissed her softly. The kiss soon got a little rougher, and now she was lying underneath me on the cold floor, between all of my clothes. After a few minutes we pulled away, catching our breathes. "You know, we never made out in the closet before.." She said cheekily. "Well, there's gotta be a first time for everything!" I loved this girl with all my heart, and I had to tell her, so she knows she's not alone. And I knew the perfect way.


The next day, around 9 pm, I climbed the stairs to the appartment. I just did some groceries. The rest of the group went to the club, but I still had a headache from the day before, so I decided to skip this time. I almost forced Niall to go, because I knew that he needed it, he hadn't gone out in ages. And I didn't mind a quiet night in, before another schoolweek starts again on monday. I took my key out and opened the door. It wasn't until I hung up my coat that I noticed all the rose petals spread across the floor. Aaah, Niall was so cute that he gave me a little message. I walked into the living room, and then I saw that the petals formed a path. I followed the path, and it stopped in front of the bathroom door. I opened the door, and my eyes went wide. The bathtub was filled, there were even some rose petals in there, and candles were literally everywhere. Niall was just lighting up the last one, he was already sitting in the bathtub. A smile grew on his face when he saw me. "Hello princess!" "What is this?!" "Can't a man suprise his girlfriend once in a while? Come on and join me!" I was in doubt whether I should get my bathing suit or not, but I decided not to, Niall was my boyfriend, and he wasn't wearing any clothes either. I slowly stripped of, Niall looking up and down my body. I started to blush. "You are so beautiful Liz..." I got in to the bathtub, the water was nicely warm. I sat myself on the opposite of Niall, he handed me a glass of champagne. "Why thank you sir. So, what is this all about?" "You know how much you mean to me.. And we've been through some good and some bad times. And there is one thing I'm really sure about for a while now. I just never said it because I was scared but.. I love you Liz." Oh my god, that was the first time he ever said that! I started tearing up. "I love you too Niall." I made my way over to him, and while I wrapped my arms around his neck, I kissed him. "Turn around." I did what he asked, so he was looking at my back. He gave me a shoulder massage. After a while, he started kissing my neck. In between two kisses, he whispered; "Let's take this to the bedroom." "Wait what? You mean..? I thought you said you wanted to wait till you were married?" "I know, but I don't want to wait any longer. You are the girl I want to lose my viriginity too, and you drive me crazy when you are wearing revealing clothes, so why wait?" He lifted me up, and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He carried me to our bedroom, and layed me on the bed. "Are you sure about this Niall?" "Ofcourse, like I said, I don't want to wait anymore. Are you ready for this?" I nodded my head. "Alright, this will probably hurt a little.." He positioned himself on top of me, and slowly pushed himself into me, inch by inch. I had to bite my lip, trying not to scream. The pain was almost unbearable. But after a while it got better, and when it didn't hurt anymore, I bucked my hips, letting Niall know I was ready. He started slowly thrusting in me, going a little bit faster every time, making me moan louder. After a few minutes, I felt a knot in my stomach. I knew Niall was about to come too, because his thrusts were getting sloppier. After one more thrust, Niall send me over the edge. "OH MY GOD, NIALL!" This was the most incredible feeling in the world. Niall collapsed on top of me, and rolled to the side. I wrapped my arms around him. "I love you princess.." "I love you too." I whispered, before we both fell asleep.

*A/N Helloooo my cupcakes! I hope this chapter wasn't too shocking! For all the readers that love the little moments between Liz and Zayn, you are going to LOVE the next chapter! That's all I'm saying! Xxx

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