She's not afraid


Ever since her mum died Abbi turned emo. When she finds out her mums 'will' says she has to go stay with her uncle Paul for a year, she doesn't expect one drection to come in as part of the trip.

But when she gets to know them and they get to know her, one direction find out never to judge a book by its cover, especially Abbi.
Because when Harry starts to fall for Abbi, will she realise she likes him to or just shut him out like she has done to everyone else in her life.

Will contain strong language;)

Read this movella to find out:)


9. 9.

Harry's P.O.V

I dragged her into Louis room It wasn't really the fact that I wanted her to show Lou her tattoos i ally just wanted her to become better friends with all of us because after she told me everything last night I felt that the boys needed to be closer with her too.

"Hey guys" Louis yelled from his bed were he was sat watching tv.

"uhh hey" Abbi replied

"Louis have you seen Abbi's tattoos?" I asked

"You have tattoos?" He asked surprised

"Uhh yeah" she replied kind of awkwardly

"Let me see them!!!" He yelled jumping up from the bed.

She laughed at his hyperness but continued to show him her tattoos, she showed him the one of her mums name first and of course this was the one he had to ask about.

"That's my mums name too" he shouted excitedly

"Cool" she replied straightening out her shirt

"What's your mum like?" He asked

"LOU her mum passed away! Shut up" I yelled, quickly realising I probably shouldn't of said that

"Oh my god I'm so sorry what happened?"

" well have to go" she whispered running out of the room.

"Im so sorry mate shall I go after her?" He asked but I was already running out of his hotel room when I yelled a No back to him. I wasn't really worried about where she had gone I was more worried about what she would do, last night she cut herself when someone tweeted her and I could tell that she got upset just talking about it and now that someone had actually asked her god knows what she might do.

Abbi's P.O.V

I ran as fast as I could from Louis room, it wasn't his fault I mean he didn't know did he? It's when people ask me about it it upsets me enough but when Harry shouted at him it just reminded me of everything. I'm not angry at them I just hate having to remember what happened, I mean they don't understand what it's like to loose your mum and best friend at the same time do they? Cause that's what my mum was she was not only my mother but she was also my best friend and I had to loose that all at once. I thought things couldn't get any worse but obviously I was wrong, my phone vibrated and i unlocked it pulling it out. I expected it to just be a message from one of the boys for me to ignore, but shock filled me when it was an unknown number and I read the message 'babe I'm sorry but we should talk I know we can get through this cause we love each other i got out of prison earlier this morning so I'll call you later Luke x' no no no no no why was he texting me? He ruined my life he knew about what i had been threw with my mother yet he still made my life hell. Last night I didn't tell Harry about 'him' I was just scared that he'd be ashamed of me I guess? I think Harry knew there was something else he just didn't want to upset me anymore which I was extremely thankful for. But now I've had enough, all people do is either come into my life and ruin it or leave.

I flung open the door to mine and Harry's hotel room and locked it behind me. I ran to my bag fell of clothes that I had yet to unpack and pulled out my bag full of medicine and bandages and other things like that.

I rummaged through the bag and finally found a bottle of pills i stumbled over to the bed and sat on the edge of its, did I really to do this? I twisted the cap but It wouldn't undo, I tried again making my hands go red from trying to twist it. Tears where now falling freely from my eyes but i didn't care i wiped them away quickly with the back of my hands and went to try and twist the cap off again but just as I was about to someone burst threw the hotel door, I quickly noticed that it was Harry but I didn't pay any attention to him and turned my focus back to the bottle of pills in my shaking hands. "ABBI WHAT ARE YOU DOING. GIVE THOSE TO ME NOW!" He yelled rushing over to me but I stood up and ran round to the other side of the bed, "no Harry I have to" I yelled back as I twisted the lid again, this time it came off but before I could pour any into my hands a harry dived across the bed knocking them out of my hands causing them to spill all over the floor.

He wrapped his arms around me keeping my arms by my sides, I pounded on his chest and kept screaming at him but he didn't even flinch he just help me tighter "LET ME GO" I yelled for the hundredth time but still he ignored me and held me in his arms. "I want to be with my mum" I yelled again but quieter this time. I stopped taking my anger out on him and instead just laid my head in his shirt and cried my eyes out. Why me? "Shh it's okay" he whispered into my hair kissing the top of my head every now and then. We must of stood like that in the corner of the room for ages before I let go of him and slid down the wall with sitting with my back against it, he sat next to me and i rested my head on his shoulder. "I want you to tell me everything right from after you mother passed away" he whispered quietly. "I..I..I can't, you'll be ashamed of me" I replied in a whisper. "Babe I promise I won't judge you I just want to help you" he replied and i could tell by the look in his eyes that it was the truth.

I slowly crawled to lean my back against the bed so we were opposite each other and our feet were touching.

"Okay...about 2 years after my mother died when I was 16 I ,et this boy, his name was Luke and instantly we clicked. He didn't care about how I dressed he always said that its whats inside that counts and he loved me for me I believed him because I loved him too. after a few months he asked me why i dressed the way i do and i told him he was amazing and he helped me through it all a lot. But one night I..uh...I went round to his house cause he invited me over. He said that he had a surprise for me, like any 16 year old I expected it to be a piece of jewellery or a really romantic date or something"

Harry nodded signalling that he was still listening so I continued...

" when I got there he asked me if I loved him and of course I said yes because I thought i did at that point in time, and he told me he loved me to and he wanted to prove it, I didn't know what he meant but basically...he uhh...he..raped me. I told him I didn't want to at first but then he said that i must not love him I told him that he was ridiculous and that of course I loved him but he wanted me to prove it and I didn't want he..raped me. But that wasn't the worst of it because a a few weeks later I forgave him for some fucking stupid reason and then when we were back together I found out that I was pregnant so I told him and I said that I wanted to keep it because I was extremely against abortion but he said no. So I uhh..I said that there was no way I was aborting it so he said that if I wouldn't kill it that way then he would so he punched me in the stomach till I agreed to and he told me that i was worthless and a slut and that mum..she probably just died so that...uh so that she could get away from a bitch like me and one day i was able to run away and I told he police so they arrested him and he texted me earlier saying he got out and I just don't know what to do..." I said having to pause every now and again from crying so much.

He stared at me taking it all in before he finally spoke "why would I be ashamed of you Abbi he should be ashamed of himself for doing that to anyone and especially such a beautiful and amazing girl like you. I promise you I will never let him near you ever again" he said softly.

Even though this really wasn't the time I felt a small blush creep onto my cheeks as I thanked him.
"Is this why you got so angry and upset when I kissed you?" He asked

"Yeah..even though it was fake it still upset me cause of him" I replied in complete honesty

"But babe what if it wasn't fake to know I really like you" He trailed of looking down at his lap and twiddling his fingers together.

"Harry I like you to it's just I can't after what Luke did to me" I replied as he looked back up his green eyes meeting my brown ones.

"I know love. But I'm not Luke.."

A/N ~ sorry it's kind if long but I figured I'd do it long since I haven't updated this fanfic in a while:)x
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