The Life and Lies of Me

My name is Esme. Ever since my parents died in a car crash, my sister is the closest person I've got...even though she hates me. Love is in the air for a while. A diary is the best part of my life right now. It's amazing what just letting go of your emotions really does to you.
I live with my Aunt Mira who has a grudge against me, godness knows why. After stealing her diary, I can find out my aunt's secrets too. I miss my old friend, but will a new boyfriend make things better... and will the love last? I just want to know the secrets of the past, and the secrets of my mum and my aunt - the twins that never got on.

With secrets, lies and the twists and turns of life, Esme will discover the mysteries that you don't even find in stories.


17. My lame attempt at Songwriting

Tuesday 26th November

I’ve given up on songwriting already. Yes, I know it’s lame , but after five lousy attempts, I know when it’s time to quit. My lyrics don’t work. I try to write with passion and empathy, but I feel stupid. Maybe it’s because I say them, not sing them. Oh, I’m not going there. Aunt Mira made me take singing lessons last year, but I failed miserably. Then again, that was classical, this is pop… no, I shouldn’t even be thinking this. I wish I could sing. I will write some lyrics here, but don’t judge too harshly, OK? This was the best I could do so please give me a chance!

Every now and then I tell you

Please be there for me

I’m falling for you

Falling for you

But will you be there to catch me?

Will you be my hero?

That was my chorus. Then I wrote a verse.

Here I am, sitting here,

Waiting for you.

Here I am, sitting here.

I'm sick of waiting for you.

Looking forward, don't want to look back,

The past is over, doesn't matter anymore.

Time is time, and love is love,

These complications weren't made for us,

If I can get over it,

Then why can't you?

And then my final chorus:

Every now and then I tell you

Please be there for me

I fell for you

Fell for you,

And this time you let me fall

Will you be my hero?

Lame, huh? I'm giving up now, I can't get any kind of tune or melody in my head, I own no sense of rhythm or intelligence. It's never going to be a song. It's going to always be a worthless piece of writing. Forever.

Anyway, I found out some details about Ashleigh-Rose. She loves ice skating! When I asked her to come with me, she jumped at the chance. We’re going tomorrow and I can’t wait! Maybe things will work out – us, as…friends. I hope that she gives me a fair chance. What if she freaks? What if she insults me? No, I shouldn’t worry about that. I’m sure that Ashleigh-Rose is a decent person inside. After all, what’s the worst she can do (or say), she’s only human, and so am I.

At school, Carly really dampened my spirits. Whenever I walk by, or come close to Aiden, her first reaction is to look into his –gorgeous- eyes, and kiss him. It’s like she’s not doing it for the love. She’s doing it to hurt me. I bet she doesn’t really love Aiden. She just wants attention, popularity and spite in my direction.

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