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2. The Pain Grows

One week. Just one more week. That was all I needed to survive. In just seven days, Louis would come back from being on tour. All I was hoping for was my life to restart.

Once my mom died and Louis left two days after, everything stopped. I no longer smiled, and I no longer cried, I didn't do my school work, and I didn't hang out with friends. I did nothing with my life, because there was nothing to do with my life. Everyone in my life was gone in one way or another.

All I had to do was hang on for one more week. The six months were almost up, and then maybe life would restart.

The last week seemed longer than any week I ever lived through. I seemed lonelier than ever, and I was desperate for Louis to come home.

The day I left to meet Louis at the airport, I made sure that I covered the dark circles that now seemed to permanently reside under my eyes. I don't want Louis to see that his leaving took such a toll on me. I wanted him to think that I still managed to be happy, but I feared that my acting wouldn't be good enough. Even so, I knew that once I saw Louis, I would perk up a little.

As soon as I saw that Louis' flight had landed, I waited anxiously by the gate, needing to see his face again. Finally after what felt like an hour, I saw him walking towards me. He didn't see me yet, and I had to fight the urge to sprint across the floor up to him. Louis finally saw me and wrapped his arm around my waist and kissed my cheek. He seemed happy enough to see me, but I sensed a cold attitude from him. I couldn't help thinking that I got a warmer welcome from Liam, Harry, Niall, and Zayn. I wasn't sure if I was so bitter by life that I was just being silly, or if Louis was actually acting strange towards me. Maybe he was just seeing how I was feeling after all this time, but I wanted him to kiss me on the lips like he missed having me for six months. All I got from him was a little kiss on the cheek that he it wouldn't have mattered if he gave it to any girl. But for goodness sakes, I am his girlfriend. Where was the affection??

I tried to pretend that I didn't notice, but I was given sympathetic glances from the other boys. What was going on? Maybe Louis was just preoccupied, so I decided to let it go for now. Although I thought that Louis would be comforting me after all I had been through, I felt like I was comforting Louis over something that I didn't know about.

This was all wrong, and I was determined to find out what was going on sooner or later.

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