My life has been filled with promises, promises that couldn't be kept.
Being abused caused me to stay mute..
But can he change that?


34. I'm sorry.

Niall's POV 

My head in my hands; my heart in my stomach. I was ready to yank all of my hair out of head. I didn't drink any alcohol but my head is spinning so fast I feel like passing out. This room smells nice and appears to be Grimme's. I look down at my hands, am I stupid? I look around the empty room. Just five seconds ago that girl, who I guess is named Liz because that's what her friends were calling her, was in here. "There you are!" I looked at the door and squinted at the sudden light. 'Yeah, here I am." I responded. "Come on. Let's go home." Harry said helping me up. "I'm not drunk." "I know just come on." 

I held my phone in my both hands. I sat on the edge of my bed, shaking my legs. She hasn't texted yet. She's not home yet. What if she got into an accident? I bit the inside of my cheek. I couldn't sleep knowing that Jailene could be anywhere. She could be at the hospital. I hope she isn't. "I can't stand this anymore." I muttered under my breath. I had Jailene's number on the screen and pressed call. It rang four times. "Hello?" She sounded tired, worn out. "Hi." I shut my eyes closed. Hi? That's all I could manage to say? What an idiot. "Where are you?" I added. "I'm at the hospital. Brent woke up but right now he's sleeping. I mean it is two twenty in the morning." I looked at the screen. Dammit, no wonder she didn't call. "Oh sorry. I didn't mind the time." My voice sounded cold. I knew she would be at the hospital and great; lover boy has woken up. She giggled and it was as if my anger had just been plucked from me. "What are you laughing at?" I asked. I felt my frown turn into a wicked grin. "You were worried about me. Thanks." I nodded like as if she could see me. "It's what I do." There was a little silence. "You'll be home tomorrow, right?" I asked. I prayed that she would say yes. "Of course." I smiled and yawned obnoxiously, "Well good. But now it's time to hit the pillow and sleep." "Don't you mean hit the hay?" I lay back and smiled up at the ceiling. "Good night Jailene." I heard her shifting too. I hope she isn't sleeping on the same bed as him. I'll kill him. "Good night Niall." He's hurt after all. She would freak out and sleep on the chair. She hung up and I let my phone fall with my hand. It's sometimes a good thing that she's so nice. She won't let herself sleep on the same bed because he's hurt. That, to me, is the best thing her niceness can ever do.

I woke up drenched in sweat. The words, "Let me show you how to have fun." Imprinted in my brain. My breaths came out in gasps. That girl has a face I want to forget. I looked up and almost jumped out of my skin. Liam was standing at the foot of my bed, arms crossed, looking down at me. "You scared me." I gasped out. "Are you okay?" He asked. I nodded and kept my eyes glued to my hands that were joined together. "Nothing happened." I said. I could see Liam shifting from left to right. "We didn't do anything," I finally looked up and Liam raised an eyebrow. "In case you were wondering." I finished. Liam nodded, taking this all in. "Was that nightmare just about this?" I nodded, "Yeah." He sighed and then laughed a bit. "Then what went down?" I smiled a lopsided smile and looked up into his face, "I pushed her off me." Liam snorted, "Pushed her?" I closed my eyes in embarrassment. "Yeah. She led me upstairs. She put my hand under her shirt. Pushed me down, got on top, then I pushed her. She called me an asshole. Then left." I laughed at the thought but I really did seem like an asshole. "But why are you having nightmares?" I hung my head, "I felt like grabbing her and actually letting myself do that to her. But then I realized when I looked at her face I imagined Jailene not her. I know she might have no dignity in those things, but I don't want her to have sex with a guy who won't even remember it was her he was doing it with." I didn't want to see Liam smile, "I knew it." He said nudging me. "You like Jailene." I nodded my head, "Yeah I think I do." "But I could've done without the whole sex detail thing." Liam sneered

Brent's POV 

I yawned as I opened my eyes. I looked over at Jailene and saw that she was slumped over. As I leaned over to stroke her hair I thought about how and when I should tell her. She's exhausted. Her breaths were slow and even. I deserve whatever might happen. I'm a horrible person for doing this to her. I thought back to when I woke up. Megan. She mentioned Megan. Why would she even say her name? Jailene isn't a person who can hate people, but with the exception of her father I think Megan can also be put in that list. She inhaled and made a little cute noise. You've got to be kidding me. How can she do such cute things and expect me to behave myself. I leaned down, ignoring the pain, to kiss her head. "I'm sorry I ever did this to you." I couldn't keep it in anymore. I needed to say it out loud, even if she is asleep when I say it. "Brent...?" I looked down and smiled as Jailene held her head up barely. "Go back to sleep, sweetheart." I adjusted myself; biting my lip from the numbness of the crook in my neck from sleeping on it the wrong way. "No, I should get..." she trailed off as her head nodded down, "Up. Just five more minutes." She is the cutest. I don't want to lose her. I don't want her to hate me. I don't want to tell her. Not now. I looked over at her and frowned. I'm hurting you, I thought, I'm sorry. Her back must hurt; being slumped like that can do that. "Hey, you're going to be all hurt," I shook her shoulders. Her face met mine, her eyes half open. "You should be worrying about yourself; not me." She smiled half a smile.

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