When It Rain's

"James stop please im begging you please " i cried as he slaped me again "what did i tell you bitch don't call me james i am your dad, well was your dad i can't wait till they come get you !" he screamed back in my face. My name is Raina ale Grands im 15 years old and sick and tired of the every day beatings i get from my 'dad ' , or thats what im soposed to call him. his name is James Roy he is my adoption father he adopted me when i was 10 , about 5 years ago and from that day on i have just been a burden . That was intel my life changed yes i did atempt to kill myself but some one saved me . His name is Louis Tomlinson and he is now my brother he adopted me saveing me from my ex-dad and he's helped me alot but what happens when my deepest secrets are relieased ." To reach a port we must sail, sometimes with the wind, and sometimes against it. But we not must drift or lie at anchor "
I am STRONG ! you CAN'T break me !

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11. Who's Aden ?

*december 1st first snow fall * * 3 months Rania is now 16 and has not been the same sense accedent *

Raina's  POV

"Come on rain you love the snow, please just for me ?" harry asked me for the tenth time "No im not going out side!" i yelled at him slaming my bedroom door in his face he just sighed and walked away . I loged onto my computer and pulled up my twitter there were so many pictures of aden on the web i know this sounds mean but i really wish he was never alive, he was a rape baby i don't even know who his father is and everytime i look into his beautiful aqua eyes it just brings back memorys of that horrible night i had to get away i mean i know he is my son and i love him to death but im old enough to be his sister it sickens me.  I walked ove to my underware drawer and pulled out my diary i wrote a new entry

Dear Diary ...

first snow fall in londen ...

I hate my life i miss my son but i dont want to see him i need to get my mind off of stuff , so i started writeing a song its called mamma's song

Mama, you taught me to do the right things

 

So now you have to let your baby fly

 

 

You've given me everything that I will need

 

 

To make it through this crazy thing called life

 


 

And I know you watched me grow up And only want what's best for me

And I think I found the answer to your prayers
And he is good, so good He treats your little girl like a real man should

He is good, so good
He makes promises he keeps No he's never gonna leave So don't you worry  bout me 

Don't you worry about me
Mama there's no way you'll ever lose me

Giving me away is not goodbye

As you watch me walk down to my futureI hope tears of joy are in your eyes
'Cause he is good, so good And he treats your little girl like a real man should

He is good, so good
He makes promises he keeps No he's never gonna leave So don't you worry about me

Don't you worry about me
And when I watch my baby grow up I'll only want what's best for her

And I hope she'll find the answer to my prayers And that she'll say
He is good, so goodAnd he treats your little girl like a real man should

He is good, so good
He makes promises he keepsNo he's never gonna leave

So don't you worry about me

Don't you worry about me


Mama don't you worry about me

Don't you worry about me
(mamma's song all credit goes to carrie underwood )

i stoped singing it and i felt tears roll down my face i threw my diary on my bed before grabing my new phone and sliping my shoes on i ran down stairs and yelled "Boy's im going to the park be back in a little bit "before slaming the door shut and running down the street. It was really cold out and i forgot my coat but i kept running before i reached the small park my mom used to bring me to. I walked over to the swings and sat down on them as i started pumping my legs trying to get off of the ground i was swinging when i started haveing a flash back

*flash back *

"Mommy push higher higher i want to reach the stars " i giggled at my mum as she pushed me on the swing

"trust me one day babe you will reach the stars " my mum yelled while pushing her higher

i giggled and jumped off of the swing

be care...... *loud scream *

"mummy ? MUMMY where are you !" i screamed as i started to cry

i sat there in the middle of the park in the rain just crying for my mum but she never came back

*end of flash back *

i got off of the swing and started to slowly walk back to the house while thinking i can't let this ruin my life i must move on ! not just for me but the boys to . They love me im there family there all i have left .

 

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