What would you do if you were simply in the wrong place at the wrong time? Run? That's what Lucy and Nina did. Running led them to One Direction. Now, becoming best friends with the boys is easy. Lovers, amazing. But when names get to the press on a trip to Italy,  everybody better run because stories will be told and horrors will be relived when someone shows their SCARS.


30. Chapter 29

In honor of Payzer!!

Enjoy!! Xx

(Lucy's POV)

He sat silently, tears streaming down his face.


"I'm so sorry I didn't tell you..." I said, breaking further into sobs.

"but why? Why wouldn't you tell me?

"have you ever been scared of what someone will think of you? Someone that can affect your whole future. Liam... You're ready to say you love me... But I couldn't let you. I'm scared. I won't let you love me without knowing everything... But even then. I'm not sure I can let myself love you. I think, no I know, I'm falling in love with you but I need to see it." 

He was silent. Not saying anything. 

"I knew I shouldn't have said anything." I mumble, "I'm sorry. I'll see you back at the hotel."

I get up and walk away. Leaving the possibility of an amazing future behind me in utter shock on the park bench. I'm not sure if I want him to follow me or not. He doesn't though. I neared the exit of the park and turned back to see he was still siting there, shock in his eyes and tears on his cheek, as he watches me go.

When I see him sitting there, my tears come harder as I turn around and make my way back to the restaurant we came from.

Once I am there I go in, asking for assistance on where to go. It takes 30 minutes walking but I finally make it back to the hotel, with tears still falling.

I see Louis, Harry, and Zayn as soon as I open the door. They're all huddled around something on the coffee table. I try slipping past them unnoticed.

"Lucy?" Harry says.

"yea?" I choke out, not facing them.

Suddenly I feel a body next to me and I look up, only to be greeted by Harry's chest. As soon as I feel his arms wrapping around me more tears form and fall from my eyes.


"Lucy,what's wrong?" Harry says, ignoring the door.

"I cant do it." I whisper.

"can't do what?"

"I can't love somebody..."


"Louis. Get the door." I hear Zayn say.

"c'mon," Harry says, "let's go talk."

He leads me into mine and Liam's room. We sit on the bed, and I cry. I don't know how long I cried or who could hear me, I just let it out.

"shhhhh Lucy. Shhh it'll be ok." I could hear Harry whispering.

"but what if it's not?" I eventually said.

"what do you mean? Of course it will be ok."

"I don't think it will be this time... I think, now that he knows the truth, Liam will want nothing to do with me." I say.

It was silent for a minute until Harry sighed. "Lucy, what is the truth?"

I dropped my head, embarrassment shame flooding my emotions. "you don't want to know..." I mumbled.

"but I do," Harry said, "and I will sit here all night until you tell me."

"ok." I took a deep breath. "I dated this guy, Nick. We were together for almost a year... And. God. I was so stupid..." I whispered, breaking into sobs.

I could feel Harry's hand rubbing soothing circles into my back, urging me to tell him. Slowly I just lowered my arms from my face, showing him the little white scars, still prominent on my skin. 

I heard him gasp and the hand on my back stopped. "Lucy. What the hell! Why would you do that?" he yelled.

Soon the room was filled with 3 other pairs of feet, although to whom they belong, I wasn't sure.

"Harry. This was after I was taken. Then brought back. I needed someone, and he was there. I should've listened to Nina but I didn't. I started cutting, a month into the relationship. 2 months in I became bulimic, wanting to prove to him I was the right size for him," I paused, wondering if Harry is disgusted now. Will he still talk to me? Allow me to confide in him? He is one of my best friends... Will that bond stay?

"I would wake up early every morning so I could let him be proud to have me be his girlfriend. But nothing was ever good enough. Eventually, the bumimia worsened, causing me to faint at dance. We were together for 7 months when this happened. When I was finally out of the hospital I went to his house. He had a naked girl in the bed..."

"Lucy, I'm so sor–"

"I'm not done. I shut the world out. Not speaking to a single soul. I threw stuff around, broke my mirrors, rip up pictures. My brother was home on leave but I wouldn't even come out for him... I never got to say goodbye before he died... So I was going to join him..."

"Lucy... Please. Tell me you didn't."

I nodded.

"but, but why?"

"because. I felt TERRIBLE for not saying goodbye. HEARTBROKEN! I'll never get to see him again, or hear his stupid chuckle, or put up with his mean pranks. He's gone. Forever. And I don't know how to cope.. I still don't."

It was silent, tears over coming my eyes again. This time, I fought them, but to no prevail.

"Lucy?" a voice said from above me. I suddenly remembered we weren't alone, and ever so slowly I lifted my head.

My world disappeared when our eyes finally came in contact with each others.

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