I Know You're There

At every single school, there's always an emo that gets bullied. The one at Tori's school is different. He still gets bullied, and he never speaks, and no one ever sees him outside of school. There are rumours. Many of them. The main one, his parents have abandoned him. Tori starts suspecting that he lives in the abandoned house next to hers. As she starts getting close to him, and unveiling the horrific truth, she realised his pure beauty. If only everyone else could too...


21. 'Impossible.'

*Short Chapter*

I didn't sleep at all that night. The thought of Christmas didn't even cross my mind, I didn't care about that. My Grandparents and the rest of my family were there, but I took no notice of them. My mind was constantly on Reuben. It didn't drift to anything else, just Reuben. I didn't have the will, or the power to think about anything else. I'd stopped crying, but I looked empty, like I wasn't really there.

They all tried to cheer me up, but I didn't take any notice of that either. It was like trying to revive someone who was already dead; impossible.

Nobody knew, especially since I'd only done it once, but I'd cut myself. I really couldn't help it. Before, I always used to think that I was too weak to self harm, and I would never have a reason to do it. Trust me, when it does come to a point where you're like this, it's surprising, what you'll do. I'd used a razor and thumb tacks. Neither of them particularly hurt, so I decided to make it worse. I sprayed aerosol on the open cuts. It stung worse than a bees sting - I was allergic to bees. I only did it on my wrists though, not wanting to stray too far. The thing was, I knew I would as soon as my wrists were covered.

The only reason I did it, was to redirect the pain. It genuinely gets rid of the one in your heart and soul, and makes you feel almost human again. The thing was, nothing was ever go back to normal. Normal was such an insane word that I'd stopped using the day I met Reuben. If only I could have him for one more day. If that. 

My heart didn't seem to beat as much any more. It was just a faint thumping that only worked so I could just about live. That was a shame really, I'd rather that it's stop, so I could be with Reuben, in heaven. Or would I go to hell? In different ways, I deserved both. Maybe I'd just stay on Earth, roaming around as a deadened soul. I never even used to believe in heaven and hell, but if Reuben was an Angel, they must exist. 





Thank you for the likes, favourites and comments :) And this is not the end! It's ending quite soon though :( ... Unless you guys want a sequel? I know you guys don't know what happens yet, and if Reuben and Tori find a way to be together, and blah blah, but I'd like to know :) Just comment if you think you'd like a sequel, and we'll see where it goes. -TRTrevains xxxxx 

P.S. Thanks again for likes/comments/favourites.

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