Holding on to what I have

Layla looks like any other teenage girl, she's pretty with long brown hair and green eyes. She's smart and has plenty of friends. But that's just the outside, on the inside she's breaking. Her parents just got a divorce and she lives with her dad who abuses her. Her mom just moved to London, Layla has had enough and she runs away and goes to her mother's house. While she's there she runs into the one and only Zayn Malik. She becomes friends with hum, but it seems like there is a romance brewing between him and her. Will she be too scared to let him into her life? Or will she finally open up to someone and let them in, let them help her with everything that has happened.


13. The Movies and The Kiss

*One week later*

I've hung out with the guys 3 other times the past week. Two of them I was with Kelli, and the one time she didn't go it was just Zayn, Niall, and me. The guys are really crazy, I nearly killed Niall last time. He pushed me into the pool with my clothes on, my make-up was everywhere! I chased him around their flat for half an hour before I got so tired I fell down on the couch and took a nap. Zayn has been really nice to me, he hasn't asked me about my dad at all. We are actually going to the movies tonight, of course with all the guys and Abi and Kelli. Abi and I have become really close friends. I found out she is from America as well, she moved here when she was 8, has two brothers that I've meet once. I'm still confused about Liam and Kelli, sometimes it seems like Kelli's flirting but then it seems like she's avoiding him. She told him no when he asked her to go to the zoo with her because she had other plans that she wouldn't tell me about. 

My mum hasn't asked much about my school stuff. When she does I simply give her an answer that isn't a complete lie and change the subject. 

I stare at the mirror and look at me outfit, I had on a silver tank top with a pink shirt on top that say, 'I'm perfectly imperfect' and black skinny jeans. My phone rings and it's Harry telling me that him and the guys are outside. I turn to Kelli, "Ready?" I ask.

"Yup!" She says. We grab our bags and walk to the door. My mum is at work, we had a long talk two days ago, on Saturday, about why she left and all that. She even got to telling me that I am allowed to bring the boys over but I am not allowed to have them in my room when she's not home. I stopped her right there and told her I didn't like any of them like that and she didn't have to worry.  

Kelli and I walk out of the elevator and go outside and look for the boys. I see Zayn hiding behind a newspaper. I point over to them and we walk over. They have to be in disguise because of all the fans, there are already a lot of pictures of us together, and I have received a lot of hate because I'm hanging out with them. "Hey!" Kelli and I say as I walk up. They all look up and smile at us, Harry has in huge sunglasses, Niall a hat, Liam a scarf, and Louis being Louis, wearing one of those completely HUGE sunglasses that are bigger than his head, and a top hat.

I laugh at him, and we start walking over to the theater that is down the street. We get in line and buy or tickets. I still refuse when Zayn offers to pay. My money is now at $3500, my mum gives me $10 a week for chores. We walk inside and buy snack and drinks, we head over to the theater  and take our seats, I notice that Zayn is sitting next to me. We only bought 5 popcorn's for the 8 of us.  Enough for each of us to share with someone and of course for Niall to have his own. 

The movie starts and everyone goes silent. I grab my Pepsi ad take a sip, I settle down in my seat and watch.

The movie's about half way over when I reach over to the popcorn that Zayn and I are sharing and instead of taking some popcorn I grab someone's hand. I look over and see that I accidently  grabbed Zayn's hand. I look at him and he laughs, I blush and let go of his hand. I hear Harry whisper to Zayn, "Dude, really? Just hold her hand." Zayn pushes Harry and stares ahead. I freeze, I still don't want to have a boyfriend. Even if Zayn does know a little bit about my dad, which is barley anything, I don't think I could take that attention. And he could have any girl he want's why would he want me? I'm nothing special.

****************************************************************************** We walk out of the theater laughing, "I still can't believe that!" Niall say referring to the movie. It was about a girl who lives in New York and makes millions of dollars bossing people around.

"I would love to make that kind of money doing that!" Louis says. I laugh at him and so does everyone else.

"Yes Lou, you are very good at telling people what to do." I say.

Louis smiles, "You called me Lou!" He screams. I stare at him like a weirdo, it just came naturally. "See! I knew we would be friends Lay!" He says.

"Lay?" I ask.

"Yes, I have declared that your nickname, and if you don't like it that is your problem." He says and struts away. I laugh as he walks away and Abi running after him.

"He does realize that everyone calls me that, an that he didn't make it up?" I ask between giggles.

"I don't think so." Zayn says with a shake of his head. We walk out and head to my place. 

"So you guys want to come over?" I ask when we catch up to Louis and Abi. Everyone nods and I hear, "Sure"s and "Yeah"s. We get to my building and walk to the elevator. We cram inside and it starts to go up. I squished in between Harry and Niall. Niall jumps on my back and screams, "I'm king of the world!" and starts laughing so hard.

"The king of the world will be dead in two seconds if he doesn't get off my back!" I say. He laughs at me and hops off.

"You wouldn't hurt me would you Lay?" He asks with puppy eyes.

"Do you really wan to find out?" I ask. I try to say it with a straight face but I can't, I start laughing so hard. The doors open up and everyone runs down the hall to my flat. I unlock to door and everyone goes in.

We all go to the couch and turn on the telly. Louis has the remote and is flipping through channels. I go to my room and take off my shoes, I go to the bathroom and when I come out I see Zayn standing at my dresser, looking at the pictures I printed from my phone. They are of me and Jackie and Jordan. Jordan was another really good friend from Brighton. I've known her since I was like 6. She sometimes felt replaces by Jackie. 

"Whatcha doing?" I ask. Zayn jumps a little and looks at me like a little kid who was caught doing something bad.

"Oh, sorry I didn't mean to.. um" He says. I laugh, I sit down on my bed and put my hair up in a bun. 

"It's fine." I say. He sits down next to me.

"Layla, I really want to talk to you." He says. Oh no, please tell me he's not talking about what I think he is.

"Layla, I really like you. And, and I just want to be with you." He says. No!

"Zayn, I-I don't know what to say." I stutter.

"Then don't say anything." He leans in and kisses me. I pull back and get up and walk over to my dresser.

"Zayn, I- I'm sorry. But I'm, I'm not ready to be in a relationship right now." I say. His face falls, great. He bites his lip and gets up.

"I'm sorry Layla. I- I just thought." He starts.

"No, Zayn. It's not your fault or anything. I just don't really think I can let someone in right now." I say. I walk over to him and hold his arm.

"Why? I want to be there for you. To help you." He says.

"Zayn, I-I just don;t think I know how to open up and let someone help me. I've kept to myself for so long." I say.

"Oh, well. Um, I hope this doesn't affect our friendship." He says awkwardly. 

"No, we are still friends." I say. we walk out to the others. I sit down, far away from Zayn, next to Niall and Kelli. they were watching Spongebob. Wow, I'm guessing Louis picked it. Harry stares at me and Zayn. He raises his eyebrows at Zayn and he shakes his head. Harry looks at me and I make sure that am looking nowhere near him so he can't see my eyes. I blink a few times to make the tears stay in, I breathe in and out through my mouth to make sure the tears don't spill over and bite my lip until it bleeds. Now my emotions for Zayn are so mixed, and I almost regret telling him no.

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