"Forever and Always." he said while giving me my new promise ring. It has been the best 2 years of my life with him but now all down the drain. I didn't think a orange letter could pain me so much. That was three years ago and I am still a bit Broken but a little healed with the help of my new fiance, Max Walls. I am not ready to face him and probably never but I know I will be completly healed after the wedding, next month. I don't want to be Broken but I am still. Broken........

Hiiii!!!! So some of you are probably wondering who that HE is, well i can't tell you! It's a mystery!!! You must read and later on in the fanfiction you will find out. I did this so I could make cliffhangers because I love you guys!!!! haha!! Please leave some comments telling me what you think!!! Thank you!!!!
Jenn XXX :D


2. The pain you left

I will never let go. I will never let go Jack. Was what my TV said causing the little tears to fall down. We were watching the Titanic for the 5th time this year and it's only May. Watched it once each month and I still cry over the part Jack dies. Max and I cuddled together under a duvet. Max wasn't crying but he was sad. I on the other hand am a softy and cry over every sad part. I have grown to favorite this movie since I have watched it so many times. The movie finished and the credits came on. I started laughing and Max gave me a 'What the hell' look which made me laugh harder. He joined my laughter and we looked like crazy drunks laughing over practically nothing. We finally caught our breaths and finished our histerical laughter.
"That was weird." He said.
I nodded my head in agreement.
"Now we can mark out watching the Titanic 5 times in a year off our bucket list and also mark laughing over nothing for a long period of time." I said with a giggle at the end.
"Check!" He said with a grin.
"Whats next on the list?" I asked with a big smile.
"Um I think its go on a vacation for a long time with no worries and work or its go swimming with the fish."
"Which one do you perfer?"
"I like both. We could go to California and do both. Rent a beach house."
"That sounds very relaxing. Thats what we need." I said getting excited about this trip.
He nodded his head in agreement.

"I think the UK X Factor is on tonight. I think it's the first one for the season. Want to watch on the telly?"
I nodded my head. We were big fans of the X factor even though it sometimes pains me to watch.
Max turned the telly on and flipped through the channels till he found it. The theme song came on and switched to the host. He started talking and it switched to a man talking about different singers and bands that were on the X Factor. I heard Cher Lloyd, Little Mix, and more. What caught my attention was the two words, One Direction. It had his face on the screen and our four bestfriends. He was everywhere. He smiled and talked and it pained me by the sight of him. I felt a tear roll down and I quickly wiped it away. He was my past but he is still breaking me. He probably forgotten me. He is still a part of me. My broken part that still loves him.

I looked down at my hands and saw the promise ring he gave me. It was a promise that I will never stop loving him and I never did stop. The words 'Forever and Always' were imprinted on the other side of the ring. I told Max what it was for but he doesn't know who he is. I kept everything a secret. Only 4 boys know and they are our bestfriends.

The show finally started with the singing and Max and I watched it with laughs and judging.

The show finally finished about two hours later and I was barely awake.
"Do you want to go to bed babe?" He said in a little whisper meaning he was tired as me. I slowly nodded my head. He got up and I was about to do the same actions but he picked me up in a bridal style. I giggled a little and he took us up to our room. He gently laid me down and got in the duvet with me. He wrapped his strong arms around me making me feel safe and warm. I knew the nightmares would come again like every night but I would know that Max will be my knight in shining armour. My protector and my rescuer. He would be there for me even though the nightmares haven't left. I started these nightmares when he left and broke me. The only way to stop them was to be in his arms but I rather have Max. He isn't mine. He is long gone! He has other worries other than me. I woke up back to reality and slowly fell asleep to Max's breathing in my ear. I love Max so much but I knew I still love him also. He was my first and my first love but I know I have to move on. When I get married I will know that I am fully over him. That will be the day I fully heal and will be fixed. Max will fix me into a perfectly new person. I won't be broken anymore. Max is the only one to fix me not him. I don't want to be Broken.

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