"Forever and Always." he said while giving me my new promise ring. It has been the best 2 years of my life with him but now all down the drain. I didn't think a orange letter could pain me so much. That was three years ago and I am still a bit Broken but a little healed with the help of my new fiance, Max Walls. I am not ready to face him and probably never but I know I will be completly healed after the wedding, next month. I don't want to be Broken but I am still. Broken........

Hiiii!!!! So some of you are probably wondering who that HE is, well i can't tell you! It's a mystery!!! You must read and later on in the fanfiction you will find out. I did this so I could make cliffhangers because I love you guys!!!! haha!! Please leave some comments telling me what you think!!! Thank you!!!!
Jenn XXX :D


11. Memories of Max


It has been 1 year of my pain and I was finally ready to leave my house and go to the bar. My face was still tear stained but a little bit of Make up would fix that up. I also had visably cuts on my arms but I wasn't really worried about them. I just needed to look sexy and get over Harry. Liam was right, I needed to go out and have fun and not stay at home and be in my bed. Liam was the one who knew everything and I felt comfterable talking to him more than the rest. Louis was my bestfriend but doesn't know everything. Zayn was there for me like Niall but Niall wasn't that close with me but there for me. Zayn held my hand and stayed through the whole rollarcoaster. I didn't want to go to the bar but I needed to.

I slowly got out my bed and made my way to the washroom. Liam was downstairs making me some type of dinner. I dressed into my jeans and a t-shirt that was to big. I had lost a lot of weight since I didn't eat. I was too skinny. Even my jeans were falling. I ran down stairs and sat at the bar and waited for whatever Liam was cooking. The rest of the boys were at a concert with Harry and Liam stayed behind. Liam handed me a plate of Lasagna and bread and we sat down on the couch and ate with complete silence.

"Are you ready for tonight?" He asked, breaking the silence.

"Not really but I need to do this. I have to leave the house. It has been a year of crying and it has been just to long."

"It has and you are right. You need to also continue your dreams of acting and fall in love again."

I nodded my head and continued to eat. It hurt me still but I just needed to leave this house. It is Liam's flat and I love living here but I need to leave sometime. I am still going to continue living in it but I need to move on.

I finished my plate and started to get ready.

The water ran down my body, leaving chills run down my body. I got a sponge and started to wash my body.

I stepped out into the cold air and felt another chill.


NO one's POV:

The girl wrapped herself in a towel and started drying her hair. She had cried in the shower since it still hurt her. Her hair flowed with the fast blowing wind. It also made her warm and the tears were still flowing down her face. She looked at herself and couldn't believe how different she looked. She was perfectly skinny before but now she was way to skinny. Her hair was really long and her eyes had a hint of pure hurt. Her breasts also had been devolped more and her cuts were very visable. The diffrent girl looked herself up and down several times and still couldn't believe that it was her. Harry really did change her but she was still that little girl in the inside. She had slipped on a tight dress that was a little to big but she tried not to think about that also. She just needed to have a good time to get herself to smile. She hasn't smiled or laughed since he left and she missed doing that but what was there to smile or laugh about? She put on a very heavy coat of make up to try to cover up the stains of tears. She had succeeded and finally started on her hair. She let it down so it flowed down her back. It was also wavy which shocked her. Her hair was never wavy, only straight.

The british hottie was also getting ready. He wasn't going to drink or dance but going to watch her. She had tried to kill herself lots of times and he couldn't let that happen. He even ignored the curly haired one.  He loved her so much. She was a sister to him. She had always been there for him and he wanted to do the same. She was like Ruth and Nicola but a younger sister. He watched over her and cared for her. He never left her side. He hasn't even that house. Zayn does all their grocery shopping and stuff. He didn't want to leave her. He knew about her cuts and so he never left that room. He even slept in the same bed. She always fell asleep crying into his arms. He never loved her more than a sister. He just didn't see her like that. Bella used to feel different feelings but they quickly left. She only loved him as a brother. She doesn't have a brother so Liam is hers. Sometimes they just watch random movies in that small room while she is in his arms. She felt safer that way and it made her stop crying. Liam wouldn't let her watch romantic movies because the girl always got the boy and he just wouldn't let her watch them. He cared about her more than anything even his girlfriend. He loves his girlfriend but in a totally different way. He slipped into his jeans and a light blue t-shirt. He fixed his hair and waited for the girlto come down.

Bella kept getting in front of the mirror and scared her each time. She was becoming paranoid. She felt like a ghost was in her. She just couldn't believe that it was her. She was way to skinny and just well...... different. She hated herself. She didn't trust herself so she actually got excited about tonight but still scared. She smiled and it looked fake. She hated it. She knew this was all fake so she took off all the make up and put on a light coat on to cover up her sadness a little. She changed into skinny jeans and a hot high top shirt that showed her stomach. It had a heart on it.

'Fake, all fake' She thought to herself. She hated love now. Even hearts. She got disgusted by the thought of love. She shook her head to get rid of the thoughts and slipped on her high heels. They were black and she was now satisfied but still knew it was all fake. She studied her cuts and there were tons. She was on the verge of dieing and knew she needed to do this. She ran out of the room and met up with the british boy.

"Beautiful like always." He said which made a tiny smile appear on her lips. He felt happy at himself for making her smile. That never happened now. They made their way to his car and drove to the club. The car was unfamiliar to the girl even though she has been insed millions of times. Everything scared her now. They got out of the car and walked to the local club. She held a tight grip onto Liam and he gave her a reasurring smile. They went inside and the pounding music filled her ears. She felt like a child on their first day of school. Scared and nervous. He ordered her a drink and she took tiny sips. The achohol burned her throat and she liked the feeling. She then gulped it all down letting her blood pump. She then took a shot and made her way to the dance floor. The British boy laughed and sat at the bar. He sipped a water and watched everything going on. Tons of woman came up to him and flirted but he turned them all down. 1 because he has a girlfriend and 2 because he is here for Bella, not himself. He looked at the brunette girl and she was dancing.


About 2 hours of bordom for him, she also got bored. She made her way back to the boy who was now on his phone, texting Danielle. She complained to him about being bored and wanted to go home. He got disapionted at himself but before he could say anything, a familiar face popped up.

"Bella! Is that really you?" A boy with brown hair said.

"Uhhh yeah it's me. And you are?" She said not remebering him.

"It's me Max. Max Walls." He said which refreshed her mind.

"Oh yeah! I forgot you. Been so long."

"Yes it has. You just kind of disapeared." He said to the sober girl. She laughed and explained to him.

"Wow you look so different."

"Yeah I know. I even scared myself." He laughed even though it was the truth.

"Hmm wow. How about a date and we can catch up"
"I would love to."

"Okay. Number?" They switched numbers and Liam sitting being happy for Bella. She did look happy and managed to smile a real one but still had hurt written across her face.

"Okay awesome."

About a hour later of talking, he had left because he had college tomorrow and tired. They also left shortly after because they were also tired. Bella was happy but still broke. Max had always wanted to ask her out in school but always got to scared, then she left and he always thought he would never see her again. Never say anything right? Max knew Harry but they were never friends. Even Harry forgot about him but Max never did since he was pretty big at fame. He knew that Bella dated him but never knew more than that and he now knows. Now everything is ruined from one kiss that hurt her and made Bella go to Niall's house. She wanted to go to Liam's but knew it was to obvious. She wanted to go to Niall's. Bella cried in the taxi from the thought of all this. She wanted to call Liam but knew she couldn't just yet. She also wanted to do the same with Zayn and Louis but not yet. 'Max Walls' was going through her mind. She wanted him back and wanted things back to normal. Only one more month and now the curly haired boy showed when she least wanted him.

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