"Forever and Always." he said while giving me my new promise ring. It has been the best 2 years of my life with him but now all down the drain. I didn't think a orange letter could pain me so much. That was three years ago and I am still a bit Broken but a little healed with the help of my new fiance, Max Walls. I am not ready to face him and probably never but I know I will be completly healed after the wedding, next month. I don't want to be Broken but I am still. Broken........

Hiiii!!!! So some of you are probably wondering who that HE is, well i can't tell you! It's a mystery!!! You must read and later on in the fanfiction you will find out. I did this so I could make cliffhangers because I love you guys!!!! haha!! Please leave some comments telling me what you think!!! Thank you!!!!
Jenn XXX :D


4. Breakfast and daydreams

Have you ever loved two boys but one of those boys just continues to hurt you? Well I do and that boy is hurting me where ever I go. He is on billboards, magazines, the telly, even books. Its even hard for Louis and the boys to come over because they spend a lot of time together and he is just a part of them. It hurts. You probably think 'Oh I can get over him' but its not that easy. I have been in pain for 3 years and I am still. It hurts me to do anything that involves him. Sometimes I just want to pack up all my things and run away with Max. Just the two of us alone. No worries, no nothing.

"Do you ever think we could just escape our lives?" I asked HIM.
"Its not that easy bells. You can't leave everyone behind."
"Yeah I know but I will be perfectly fine if i'm with you. I love you and that will never change. We would make it and have no worries. No managment or bullshit. We could just run away." I said to him while I looked back up to the sky. We were on the ground, on a blanket and watching the sky.
"I wish we could Bells but we can't. They would literally track me down." I nodded my head in understandment. I knew he was right but why not try?

I snapped back into reality and felt a smile grow on my face. That was Him and I one time talking about our future but its all in the past. I continued to chop the carrots up for our omlets and Max was doing some buisness on the computer. I was wearing my hair up in a pony tail so my long brown hair flowed down my back. I was wearing jeans and a casual t-shirt with a apron on top. At that moment, I was cooking omlets and some toast, Max's favorite breakfast. He is american and since we live in London, you don't find a lot of places that cook American breakfsts. I also got some milk and washed some dishes while I waited for the food to finish. Max was staring deeply into his computer and never took off his eyes till just now.
"Your so beautiful." He said which made me blush.
"And your handsome babe." I said with a wink. My face was dying down from the redness. He slowly got up and made his way behind me. I was at that point pouring the milk in glasses. He wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his head on my shoulder. He kissed my jaw which made me giggle a bit.
"Not now babe. I'm cooking."
"But your so beautiful to keep myself from holding you." That comment made the redness flush back onto my face. I finished the pouring and all the food was done.
"Done." I said. He slowly unwrapped off me, even though he didn't want to and made his way to the dining room table. I followed behind with the drinks. I sat it down on the table and we started to pile our plates up and eat. The whole time I couldn't stop thinking about my daydream. It was just my happy times. Its not like i'm not happy now, and I am its just I sometimes miss those times.


I wish I could go back in time and relive all of my moments with Him but if I did then I would have never met Max. Max is my everything now. He was the one who didn't break me! I mentally sighed and started with a conversation with Max. I knew that I just had to get out of this black hole. Out of the coma and just live life, not dread it. I have to live again. Be reborn and be alive. He didn't control my life. I do with the help of Max. He is just the past and LIKE a long time summer relationship. I was head over heels love back then and I am still now but with someone else who can heal and fix me. Not him! Not anyone except for Max. He was the one who broke me. Max is the one who is Healing me.


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