I'm on My Own

Krista lives a life only few people know about, living with her mom's abusive boyfriend after a bad fight she gets kicked out. Estranged from the only family she knows now Krista has no where to live. When she finds out the truth about her love Isaac she's all on her own. What do you go when the only person you have to rely on is yourself? "The only place where I feel safe now is in my dreams. Where only the people that can hurt me are only imaginary. And I can wake up at anytime and It'll all be over."

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1. He held me Back

         He held me back from the world I lived in. Convinced me I was living when really I was trapped. Always kept me leashed to his waist, like I was his personal pet. His lap dog. No matter how far I wanted to run I couldn't get away from him. He was a monster, one that wasn't harmful to the eyes, but to your soul and your heart. He brakes your spirits, pushes you into the ground, and then spites in your face.

The monsters name was Nick. He was straight out of jail when he started going to AA (alcoholics anonymous) where he met my mother who was at the time six months clean. She was diffrent then. She was independent, strong, and just a good mother. Not saying that she isn't a good mother now, but she's diffrent. More about pleasing Nick than herself. Caring more about Nick than her own child. Our world now revolved around Nick. If we do this Nick'll get mad.

Isaac looks at me with his bight sea blue eyes. He startles me from the daze I was stuck in. I smile at him. He kisses me on my fourhead. "You ok?"

"Yeah, I'm fine," I say diving into his lips forgetting about Nick for once. I thinks that part of the reason I love Isaac so much. He takes me away from it all. The pain, the agony, and the missing love from my mother. I taste him and inhale him. He smells like heartbreak and pain. But my body insists for more. Like my body depended on him. I need his kiss, I need his "love" or whatever you want to call it, but all I know is that it feels right. I am far to high right now to simply pull away from him. For if I did I'd  fall face first into an abiss. Just as his fingers find my belt buckle I hear Nick and my mom pull into the drive way. I push Isaac off of me and smooth my hair out and run over to turn the t.v on.

The front door opens and Nick is standing there holding groceries. "Need help?" Isaac asks.

Nick nods his head, "No it's ok, we only got a few things." He says walking into the kitchen. I look up at Isaac whoes looking down on me. He shrugs his shoulders and I roll my eyes. He then wraps his arms around me and lays his head on my shoulder. "I hate him too, I'm just afraid he might kill me."

I look up at him and laugh, "You're such a pussy," I kiss him on his neck.

"Oh thanks," He laughs.

Then finally my mom waddles into the living room. "Hey guys!" she says too happily.

"Hi," Isaac and I say in unison. She walks into the kitchen where Nick is and they start talking about nonsense. "At least we didn't caught," I say.

"Yeah, I know I would've been dead," Isaac says. He looks behind him checking for Nick or my mom. "So when do you want me to pick you up?" He whispers.

"I'm not sure, I'll text you when they finally go to bed," I tell him hugging him. "I love you," I tell him meaning it with every part of my well being. I'm not sure why but I do.

He nods and kisses me again, I knew he wished I had taken that I love you back but he couldn't because now the words were being swallowed by him. I know he doesn't love me back, I wish I could make him love but; but I learned long ago that you can't make anyone feel a certain way. 

I stop kissing him, I run my fingers through his hair, " I know you don't love me back, but I just wanted to let you know that I love you ok?"

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