I Want The Curls

Jissel is a not that famous dancer and an actress that lives in the UK. she's a big directioner and always had a huge crush on Harry Styles. She has been asked to be one of the dancers to dance in One Direction's performance at the Brits. that will be her first time meeting the boys and her long time crush,Harry. What will happen? read to find out :) xx

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18. My Back Is Turned On You

 

chapter 18

Jissel’s P.O.V

 

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

 

I left thinking I made the right decision, I packed my bags and left to the airport without explaining anything to anyone.

 

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream

 

Even though I said no I still love him and in the inside I only hope he comes and stops me from leaving.

I'm trying not to think about you

 

Weeks pasted but I wanted him next to me, telling me he loved me. That he loved us..

 

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

 

He always called and he knew I will be waiting for him. It killed me inside being so far away and lying to him. Everyone else knew except him but for now I thought it’s the best thing to do.

 

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind

 

My love for him was still the same maybe even stronger. Maybe after two months since I left I should tell him the truth.. just maybe.

 

And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

 

I did think about it but we stopped talking. I saw the pictures on the magazines; I asked everyone but at first they didn’t say anything because they didn’t want to hurt us. Eventually they gave in and told me the truth. I was already depressed from the fact that you weren’t around but you moved on and that killed me. That killed us….

 

I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you

 

Not again;  it’s like reliving my past all over again. I remember being a kid, happy kid knowing I will have a baby sister or brother soon but one day my dreams were crashed. My mom said she or he was in a better place. I felt her pain back then but now I can feel it more knowing the same happened to me. How happy I was yet my dreams were crashed once more.

 

They told him.. no, why did they have to tell him? He was mad at first, I could tell by the way he talked through the phone but he had no reason to be mad at me anymore; he was mad at himself. Before, after a fight I would go back to him knowing that things will be ok but not anymore, he came to my flat everyday in luck that I would open the door. I sat by the door just like he did on the other side and I could hear him cry over my crys. I love him, yes I do but for now my back is turned on him ..

 

A/N: hold up babies lemme go die in a corner ! OMFG I love this chapter so sad ): I dedicate it to my friend Nicole cus she gave me the song :D its called “almost lover” by a fine frenzy. You guys should go listen to it ! anyways comment your thoughts? :D 

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