I Want The Curls

Jissel is a not that famous dancer and an actress that lives in the UK. she's a big directioner and always had a huge crush on Harry Styles. She has been asked to be one of the dancers to dance in One Direction's performance at the Brits. that will be her first time meeting the boys and her long time crush,Harry. What will happen? read to find out :) xx

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19. It's Over

 

Chapter 19

 

It all happened too fast, since I came from America to loosing the baby two months after. Now that I think about it I should have told Harry he was going to be a father but I didn’t and I realized he forgot about me, the promise I made him. I wanted him to come home to me after the tour but he chose to go around kissing some model knowing that I would find out. But I didn’t want to tie him down.

 

It can happen, loosing a baby from depression. People say babies feel the same emotions you do and I truly believe it. Ever since I was young it was a struggle to keep myself happy because of the things that went on in my life. I tried for the sake of my baby, I really wanted to have a daughter or son but just like it happened to my mom it happened to me; I couldn’t stop being depressed. After I lost the baby I wasn’t the same anymore everyone knew but no one said anything and I told them not to make anything public.

 

I fell, I fell hard for him, he was my prince charming. I was in fantasy world, completely surreal. And everytime we fought I would go back to him like a lost puppy because I wanted to feel loved, feel loved by him. But now I just cant let the story keep repeating and this time I wont let myself fall in temptation like always.

 

To Harry: ‘ we need to talk’

From Harry: ‘ finally babe ! ill be at your flat soon xx’

                He did as he said, in no time he was at my door knocking. “I’ve missed you” that’s all that came out of his mouth as I struggled to get out of his arms since he was hugging me tightly. “yeah, sit down” he did as I said and I grabbed the cup of coffee I had left in the kitchen and went to sit down next to him. “ what do we need to talk about?” he did know, he was just as scared to know as I was scared to say it. I can still remember the days before when I wouldn’t let him in the apartment. He felt guilty for what happened and still does. “really? You have no idea, have you forgotten?” I couldn’t put it in any other way and I had to get it over with. “I know what this is all about love, I feel the same way you do I really do. I felt like everything in my life had fallen apart when I found out.” “don’t say you do because last time I remember you forgot about me didn’t you? I promised you I would be waiting but you didn’t care and look what led us to” “I know, I was really stupid. I don’t think there’s any way you can forgive but if I had known you were pregnant things would be different now, wouldn’t they?” “it’s not all my fault Harry, and I was going to tell you until I saw those pictures all over magazines and the internet” “there’s nothing we can do now Jissel, what do you want me to do?” I stood up “I want you out of my life Harry, everytime we fought I would go back to you and I’d fall even harder for you but im not stupid anymore. I don’t want anything to do with you anymore, we’re done” “we’ve always worked things out, and I still love you and I know you love me back and you cant deny it” “leave Harry, just let me be” “I wont give up, i know that one way or another we will be back together, I love you” those were the last words I heard from him.

                Those last words he said haunted me, always on my mind and I got me crazy. I knew I still loved him but I cant deal with a relationship anymore. I’ve taken time only concentrating on dancing and nothing else. I wouldn’t leave my apartment only for important things but the rest of the time I would practice and practice non stop. Everyone came to visit once in a while but I never saw Harry again.

A/N: how you like that now? Haha ! comment below what you thought :D

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