Never Loved

Demi Lovato and Niall Horan had a baby, but Demi gave her for adoption without Niall knowing. Its years in the future and the baby is not a baby anymore. She auditions for the X-Factor, and gets in. When Demi turns out to be her mentor, but they don't get along, they hate each other. Will this orphan get her happy family?


24. Chapter 20.

I lied there sobbing into Niall's chest, his warmth comforting me. He was whispering things into my ears. Soothing things, getting me to calm down. And that's when it hit me. 


My Father.

Comforting me.

Something I dreamt of for so many years. I closed my eyes, once again, relaxing my body. But it soon tensed, remembering something. "Does she know?" I pushed myself up from him, to see his face.

"If she knows about you? No. Well, of coarse she knows about you, but not that its you." I was feeling mixed emotions here. It kind of made my heart ache that she didn't know, but a part of me wants her not to know. 

"I'm going to tell her as soon as I ca-" 

"No, you can't tell her! She can't find out." I almost screamed at his face. 

"Katelyn, she's your mother. She deserves to know." Sandy said from behind Niall. 

"No, she doesn't! She doesn't deserve anything! Don't you get it? She abandoned me!" I looked back at Niall, "And you can't tell her." 

He looked at me unsure of what to say next. "Please?" I pleaded. 

Sighing, he spoke again. "I'll think about it." I took a deep breathe, not wanting to collapse once again in tears. I didn't want her to not know about me, I don't want her to look at me like the child she has never loved, because I don't want her. I wish this would've all stayed as it was. 

I would've been better to be never known who had left me, than finding out she was right under your nose, working by your side.

I looked over at Sandy, who was intently watching me. Going up to her, I gave her a slight hug, whispering an apology to her. I didn't mean to scream like that. She doesn't deserve my outburst. She was more of a mother than she had ever been. 

I carried my wobbly legs towards the exit. Opening the door, I saw Niall's friends, Liz was sitting on the last step, head in her hands. When I closed the door, her head snapped to me. I gave her a slight smile. 

Running towards me, she embraced me in a hug, like the one I had received when I arrived, not even a 24 hours ago. "Are you okay?" The first thing that came to mind is to say I was fine, but I wasn't fine. I wasn't okay. But that's just my life.

I've recalled that one too many times, I've said  I'm fine. When I ran away to the park, hoping to escape, I ended up back here, saying I'm fine. When I first arrived here, I said I'm fine. When all my friends, except for Liz got adopted and left, I said I was fine
But no one ever is just fine

I was tired of keeping my emotions bottled up inside me. I thought I was going to explode if I didn't just let them out. I finally shook my head, telling her I wasn't fine, making her grip on me tighter.

-Niall's P.O.V.-

I watched as Katelyn got up and left, closing the door behind her. It made my heart break, watching her cry while in my arms. It was all the pain of not having a mom or dad be there in her weakest times. It was having me not there when she needed it.

Although, I was happy I had finally had my daughter back, I could jump up and down for joy, I couldn't. That would look weird and I can't celebrate quite yet. 

"Are you going to tell her?" I looked up at Sandy, she was sitting in her original spot, looking at me to answer. "Demi, I mean." I sighed, taking a seat on the couch. I was going to tell her as soon as I found out... "Niall, you have to tell her,  you know? Katelyn might now like it, but you can't keep someone's daughter from them."

I knew she was right, but I wasn't going to tell her quite yet. "I know, but not yet. Katelyn is very emotional right now and I don't want to put more on her plate, than she can handle." 

"Okay then." she nodded, "I'm happy for you Niall, I really am. You have no idea how Katelyn was when she had gotten here. Its a parent she needed, and now she has one."

"But you were always there for her, you were like a parent."

She shook her head, before speaking again, "No one could have ever given her as much love. She wouldn't accept it all, because the only people she wanted love from were never there to give it to her." 

I thought about that for a while, letting it sink in. I know Katelyn blames Demi for abandoning  her, but it isn't her fault. In a way it was mine too. I never really did anything all those months Demi had disappeared. I didn't make any kind of effort to go out and look for her, nor did I demand answers when she told me the baby had not survived.

I didn't do anything about it, and like Katelyn said Demi abandoned her, I was the one who abandoned her too.


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