Burning Sun ( twilight)

Burning sun is a story based off the twilight saga. Burning sun has several mini chapters following closely to the story line's however adding more detail than beloved stephenie mayers wrote, just enough to keep you hooked. There are new scenerio's added but in such a way you'd truly thought it was written into the actual book. Burning sun has some of Bella's point of view but mostly edward's. Like midnight sun ( steph's partial release of edward's point of view). Help satisfy your craving to get inside the handsome vampires mind and hear of the constant struggles with himself and the decisions he's made along with his deep feelings for human Bella.

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8. Sometimes goodbye is a second chance ( edward's p.o.v)

Bella grabbed my hand as I walked numbly through the woods, her fingers laced through mine as she walked swiftly in an attempt to keep up with me. My head hung in a deep sorrow. My heart had been breaking beneath my chest, heavy with remorse. No matter how thick my skin had been, as if to be my very own shield, it did not protect me from the greatest wound I bared, a broken heart. The very thought of being without my Bella nearly killed me. But all I could think about, all I was allowed to think about at this very moment, in order to go forth with my original plan.. Was that my dearest Bella could no longer be in harms way.. I would no longer walk her down that path. The incident that had happened with Jasper would not be allowed to happen again, the nights event could have ended much more tragically had I not had the ability to hear Jasper’s thoughts, had my reflexes not been so quick, had my love for Bella not been so much stronger than my thirst for Bella’s blood that sang out to me luring our kind in. Guilt consumed what was left of my soul, should I really have a soul like my sweet little naïve Bella had invested all her faith into. Bless her heart for not seeing the cold and bitter truth of it all, for turning her back blindly to the monster that I was, turning her back to what I was … choosing not to see it, not letting “what” I was define “who” I am. I almost curse her for being so amazing to me, for being so damn accepting, perhaps this had been easier to me had she not been so intriguing, had she despised me with such passion just the same as if to love me. Perhaps ease was the last thing I deserved. Perhaps I deserved to burn in the pits of hell continuously for eternity? The thought of leaving her left a bad taste in my mouth. I had quite possibly been the worst and most dangerous thing to happen to my clumsy Bella. Had she not ever crossed my luring path, she’d never been filled with such a heavy hunger full of infatuation for me, she’d never fallen so hard nor so quick, she never got the chance to catch herself, to get back up. Poor girl, she’d never stood a chance. It hardly seemed fair. I’d failed my dear sweet Bella, I was now going to leave her… broken, defenseless, wounded in flight. I truly hated myself for this. But mercy could not be had for me. Life had promised me no hope like it had promised Bella, she could be spared if I set her free, no longer keeping her under glass. Only I could give her a second chance at life.

“ Could we just… could we just stop, please? Talk to me, let me know what’s bothering you so much Edward!” Bella said interrupting the thoughts sifting through my mind. I came to an abrupt stop. Still looking at the ground careful to avoid eye contact. my hands shoved deep in my pockets.

“ It’s not about Jasper, is it?.. Because.. If.., if it is, …it’s not a big deal at all Edward. It’s okay, I’m fine.. It will be okay!” She said anxiously.

“ No… it is not fine. Bella, it is inexcusable” my face twisted in agony “ These sorts of things, things such as a vampire falling in love with a human, they hold a consequence, holding an extreme danger. This sort of thing is un-permit able ,I was a fool to test my boundaries. Now I know why they say it is the forbidden fruit that should taste the sweetest!” I said, guilt eating away at me like the plague.

“ what? … I don’t .., I don’t understand.. What are you.. What are you talking about Edward? Your not making any sense!” She let out a nervous breathless laugh.

“ What happened, I could never allow to happen again. The outcome could have been so much more grim should I have not been able to stop Jasper. Bella, it won’t happen again, I promise you this!” I said, my cold hard eyes full of remorse looking at hers.

“ I know it won’t, and I know it could have.. But it.., it didn’t Edward!” She said so innocently.

“ Bella, I, I have to go now, I know this will be hard for you to understand, but please, don’t try. Just let it be, just let me go. Don’t make this any harder on yourself then it has to be!” I said, my face stern.

“ Edward, stop,.. Your not making any sense at all! …your.. Your scaring me!” She said , her voice pitchy and cracking.

“ Bella… I am leaving.. We are leaving. We can’t be here any longer!” I said.

“ Well then, let me just.. Let me get ready Edward. I’ll go with. Just let me get ready!” She pleaded, her voice hopeful. My heart ached, she had been so clueless to what I’d truly meant, she had no idea that what I was really saying is I was leaving her. I could not exist in her reality, it had been too much of a threat.

“ No… Bella.., I am leaving. I’m no good for you here Bella. I have to move on, .. Its better if we both just move on!” I said shaking my head.

“ But I want to Edward. You have to take me with.. Please… please Edward? Don’t you want me with you?” She said, reaching out in attempt to grab my shoulder.. I shrugged her hand away.. Turning my back, swallowing my heart and went on.

“No!” I said, my voice cold and hard, like ice. It had to be believable, she had to believe me in order to go on with her life, in order to leave her with no open wounds.

She stopped, her voice now trembling, tears glazed her eyes over as she searched my eyes for any sign of uncertainty “ You.. You don’t want me?” She asked. Those words stung me like a hot fire poker. But I had to remain unbreakable.

I looked away“ No! Bella,… I’m sorry… understand, I’m grateful for the time I had with you. It was a lovely phase in our life while it lasted. But it’s time I move on. You will too, I promise, it will be as if I never existed!” I said, choking on the words that held so much irony. “ goodbye Bella!” I said kissing her forehead tenderly, a tear rolled down her cheek silently. I then collected myself enough to turn away… to free her… I am saving her, I told myself as I shot off into the woods careful not to look back.

 

 

 

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