Burning Sun ( twilight)

Burning sun is a story based off the twilight saga. Burning sun has several mini chapters following closely to the story line's however adding more detail than beloved stephenie mayers wrote, just enough to keep you hooked. There are new scenerio's added but in such a way you'd truly thought it was written into the actual book. Burning sun has some of Bella's point of view but mostly edward's. Like midnight sun ( steph's partial release of edward's point of view). Help satisfy your craving to get inside the handsome vampires mind and hear of the constant struggles with himself and the decisions he's made along with his deep feelings for human Bella.

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14. My forever, My always ( edward's p.o.v)

   I pushed myself up off my elbows sitting up after getting lost in a deep passionate kiss, and as usual, nearly giving into my desire to have Bella in all ways. Mind, body and soul. I drew in a deep breath, my nerves wound tightly. Rejection crossed my mind, and oddly enough every time it did, I felt consumed with this overwhelming darkness, my heart felt crushed, I felt like I was stuck in my darkest hours.. The sadness consuming me, the misery eating away at me and all I could do was sit there,, I wouldn’t fight it back.. Nor did I desire to. I had been a man of my pride for as long as I could remember, but without my Bella.. I’d have no pride at all. I would be no stranger to getting down on my very own two knee’s and begging Bella mercifully to marry me if that is what it would take. I’d hoped not though. I felt Bella’s hand on my shoulder, this brought my mind out of its state of panic, I patted her hand on my shoulder and then got up reaching into my closet grabbing the ring and knelt by the bed opening the box to reveal the ring. Bella’s eyes widened in shock, her mouth fell open as she sat staring at the ring without saying a word. The quiet nearly killing me if I’d been able to die. A smile stretched across my face as I took Bella’s hand in mine, holding the box in my other.

“ Isabella Marie Swann, you are my forever, you are my always. The reason for my very being. I feel I’d be but an empty shell without you at my side. Looking at a past like mine is filled with so much pain and hurt, I wondered around alone as I watched everybody around me content with their soul mate … often I wondered if maybe there has been something wrong with me, I‘ve spent most my life despising myself.. Seeing myself as some heartless monster, all the same… looking forward scares me because we can never be too certain of our future, and up until I’d met you Bella… I was certain I had no future.. I’d been nothing but a mere mistake that god overlooked… and yet … somehow…when I look beside me.. I know your right there…. Your always right there…And I realize, I say this with the chance of sounding absolutely and undeniably out of my head, and I guess in a sense.. You could say I am when it comes to you.. You’re my own perfect imperfection and a man such as myself doesn’t get the luxury of reality and you both in the same, so I prefer to be lost in my head running about.. I’d like it to be that way for an eternity. Would you marry me?” I asked, my heart nearly jumping out of my chest.

“I.. I… um…wow!” she scoffed. “ I really don’t think this is such a good idea. I mean, what are people going to think Edward? Its impractical, usually people assume a girl my age is pregnant and clearly that‘s the only reason they are getting married, next to pleading temporary insanity!” She let on. I hadn’t been particularly familiar with the ways of this century, as I am particularly old fashioned and in our time we didn’t make love till the eve of our honeymoon, after be-wedding the one we were to spend the rest of our life with. So in a sense, I couldn’t understand such speculation.

Her first response had hurt in an almost unexpected way. Her words stabbing me like a red hot fire poker slowly burning through each layer of my heart. Nearly seeming as though she‘d just rejected me and all the love I’d had for her. For a moment, I briefly thought about the possibility that perhaps she hadn’t been so certain of our future as I had, maybe I‘d been a fool to think she would sacrifice her family, every chance she had ever had to be an incredible mother.. Already so selfless and wise beyond her years, leaving behind her chance to live to feel, to breathe.. All for me. It hardly seemed easy for me to justify to myself why she’d want to knowingly sentence herself to this sort of life. But I pictured my forever with nobody but my Bella, Strangely a future didn’t exist past my Bella. Now that she was in my life.. It’s like I could not remember what it had been like without her, it all felt so natural…so surreal. “ Do you not feel the same?” I asked with concern. “ It’s.., it’s not that Edward, I mean.. I do see myself with you forever.. Well, I mean… hopefully not growing old, but still, actually with you forever!” She insisted as she tucked her hair behind her ear nervously and bit her lip. I lifted her chin, my eyes eagerly searching her “ Then marry me Bella, don’t give it another thought!” I insisted, a smile stretched across my face. “ I’ll turn you myself if you agree to marry me!” I offered her cleverly. “ Edward, you can’t be serious, I mean.. you,… you’ve got to be kidding me. Charlie would kill me, he‘d kill you!” She fumbled over her words. “ We will tell him when the time is appropriate. When you feel comfortable enough to let him know. You don’t have to wear the ring if you wish not to, I won’t push, just say you will, that is all I need.., all I ask of you!” I begged desperation thick in my words. “ ugh, wow, I …I can’t believe I’m actually agreeing to do this. I.. I mean..I can believe it, but… “ she looked up at me, her eye lashes fluttering nervously as she then swallowed and took a breath, a half smile tugging at the corner of her lips “wow.. Just…amazing, your amazing, you know that?” She said shaking her head, closing her eyes and biting her lip.   

 

  “ I may have been told that once or twice!” I said ,flashing my teeth grinning a ridiculously large smile and twisting my fingers into her hair. Closing my eyes I kissed her forehead tenderly.. I felt as if I’d concord the world in just a single brilliant moment, because my Bella had agreed to marry me in her own way. This had been all I needed, she didn’t even have to sound ridiculously happy about it, as long as I knew deep down this had been what she wanted, I’d never force her into something I knew she hadn‘t truly desired

 

 

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