Burning Sun ( twilight)

Burning sun is a story based off the twilight saga. Burning sun has several mini chapters following closely to the story line's however adding more detail than beloved stephenie mayers wrote, just enough to keep you hooked. There are new scenerio's added but in such a way you'd truly thought it was written into the actual book. Burning sun has some of Bella's point of view but mostly edward's. Like midnight sun ( steph's partial release of edward's point of view). Help satisfy your craving to get inside the handsome vampires mind and hear of the constant struggles with himself and the decisions he's made along with his deep feelings for human Bella.


15. Fragilty ( Edwards p.o.v)

  I stood with my back against a tall and wide tree peaking around out of the corner of my eye to watch as Bella and Jacob had a moment alone. It had been against my better judgment, but Jacob had been so upset and in turn Bella had been in hysterics over causing him so much grief. She had been terrified he would have done something stupid and sacrificed himself willingly in battle. She’d fully believed that nothing ever came out of anyone loving her at that moment. And hearing her think so little of herself ate away at me. I had to do whatever it took for her to make peace with herself, I had to allow her to do whatever it took to make it right in her mind with Jacob. I despised Jacob Black for making my beloved Bella belittle herself and think that all she ever brought to the table was pain for us men that she’d captured our hearts. How wrong she was, she’d brought me back to life in a metaphoric sense, she’d given my life meaning and I’d never known what it had been like to be so selfless in my life until she’d come along, Jacob had not realized just how lucky he was to even own a small portion of her heart.. Even if only as a friend. So how in his right mind could he allow her all this guilt and never take any blame for himself? But I had to do this, I had to let the cards fall as they may on the table. I listened carefully. Bella had been crying to Jacob and excessively pleading with him to reconsider, she apologized profusely, but of course her groveling at his feet wasn’t enough to feed his ego. He wanted more from her. He wanted her to return the affection that he’d given her. It had angered me to no end that he could be so selfish, and make a woman do something she didn’t want, in order to spare his life. I honestly wouldn’t have missed having him around if he did die in battle today. But it wasn’t what I wanted, for my Bella’s sake. She would forever walk with guilt following her around as if it had been her own shadow. She’d never be complete again. He was her sun, and I was her moon. I was her twilight and he was her dawn. Her life would be unbalanced without both.

“ There must be something Jacob, please, I’ll do anything just please don’t do this!” Bella pleaded with him.

A mischievous grin crept across his smug little face as he offered the ultimatum “ you could always kiss me?” He said. Those words had enraged me, I wanted to snap his neck at that very moment feeling it crush underneath of my teeth. But I fought the urge, much like my thirst for Bella’s blood and listened on.

“ Alright, then… just…kiss me. Kiss me Jacob!” She demanded, tears pouring from her eyes. Naturally, I wanted to run to her side, to sweep her off her feet, to kiss away her tears. But I couldn’t do nothing. This was their moment.

“ No, I want YOU to kiss me Bella. You know this is what you’ve wanted. I can give you so much more than that filthy blood sucker could give you Bella. You wouldn’t have to be something you are not!” He said trying to persuade her. He’d been right that he could give her things that I could not, and he’d been right that she could be herself with him but only someone who’d truly listened to Bella’s feelings could know that this is what she wanted, for some unknown reason to be, she didn’t want to be herself.. She was so eager to change everything that she was. And for some unknown reason, it was me her heart desired.

“ Alright…okay…your right..I.. I want to kiss you!” She stuttered running up to him wrapping her arm around his neck pressing her lips hard against his. He kissed her back passionately, Her right fist that hung at her left side unclenched and wrapped around his neck along with the other one, she twisted her fingers through his hair just as she always did when she and I had been lost in a kiss. I closed my eyes tight, the vile burning my throat, my stomach churning. She said this for Jacob’s sake, she had to have. It was the only way, right? Bella was so selfless, she would do whatever it took to save somebody’s life, even if it meant a few sacrifices of her own. He had made her do this.

I knew it, I knew she loved me, she can’t get enough of me, she can’t take her hands off of me and the way she is so eagerly kissing me, it seems like she has been just as anxious for this kiss as I have. I heard him thinking as he pulled her in closer, tighter against him. He was pathetic, absolutely pathetic and I’d never met somebody so egotistic and self absorbed. He’d stuck me as the type that longed for what they couldn’t have. The little kid that only wanted the toy because the other kid had been playing with it. Only, Bella was better than any toy… she was nothing to play with, she’d been so delicate. I handled her just as if to handle the most delicate porcelain . I did everything I could to keep from reading his thoughts. They had utterly repulsive. Though, I had to deal with the fact that a small part of her must have felt something to be kissing him so passionately in return. Bella felt a kiss to be sacred, to be special and didn’t go around just kissing anyone. Apart from me, Jacob had been the only other guy she had kissed. Bella had been a bad liar, I knew she couldn’t pull off such a passionate kiss without having some real feelings there. I’d come to accept it. Though I wanted her heart for myself, I’d come to accept the fact that it would always be shared. I was the bigger portion of hear heart…the more dominant part..and for me, that had been good enough. It had to be. I couldn’t stand for myself if I tore Bella in half making her choose. That’s why I couldn’t understand that he would.

She finally pulled away, holding the back of her hand to her mouth looking down at her shuffling feet in disappointment, she’d been surprised at her own emotions. I could tell.

“ See, I told you. You love me, admit it!” Jacob pressured.

“ I…I do love you Jacob…but…” she went on “ but it’s always Edward that I’ve loved more. It’s Edward I see myself with. It’s Edward that I absolutely cannot imagine living without..whenever I think about it… I cannot breathe, my chest feels tight!” She said..blinking away a few stray tears. I cringed. Id wished that her love for me had left her with no pain at all, even if in the sense of longing.

Great, hearing his voice is like hearing nails screeching on a chalk board, makes me want to hurl myself in front of a Mac truck. I might as well kill myself now, at least I got a kiss from her.. I can die happy. I think I will.. Then at least she’d remember me forever.. Even if in vain. I heard Jacob’s thoughts as he played around with the idea in his head. I couldn’t stand by to listen to it anymore and not do anything, I couldn’t stand by and let him destroy Bella in just a single move of his pawn. I had to do something. Even if it had revealed id been standing there all along.

“ Enough!” I hissed “ You promised!” I growled through my teeth crouching to the ground in front of him.

“relax blood sucker, no promises broke today!” He said, his face smug, his hands in the air. As he smiled and winked at Bella and walked away.

“ Edward, you…oh my gosh.. You.. You were there, you.. You know?” Bella asked stammering, her eyelashes fluttering as she swallowed the lump in her throat.

I nodded. A smile rising across my face reassuringly to show her do harm had been done to our relationship and I knew the kiss had been necessary.

“Are you at least upset? Please, tell me you hate me.. Or you're at least mad at me.. Anything, it would make me feel better for what I’ve done Edward. You’ve been nothing but amazing to me and I did this!” She said her head drooped down. I chuckled to myself at how cute she had been when she was flustered. And how ridicules and impossible her request had been for me. I shook my head and lifted her chin with my finger, a tear glided down her cheek.

“ I could never do anything but love you!” I whispered into her ear then smiled and kissed her cheek, wiping away the stray tear and kissing her lips passionately,

"but I don't deserve you" she whispered against my lips. "Shhhh" I whispered placing my fingers to her lips. "nonsense" I said " It is I that don't deserve you, I must have really done something amazing in my past life to have deserved you!" I said smiling..my eyes searching hers.





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