Burning Sun ( twilight)

Burning sun is a story based off the twilight saga. Burning sun has several mini chapters following closely to the story line's however adding more detail than beloved stephenie mayers wrote, just enough to keep you hooked. There are new scenerio's added but in such a way you'd truly thought it was written into the actual book. Burning sun has some of Bella's point of view but mostly edward's. Like midnight sun ( steph's partial release of edward's point of view). Help satisfy your craving to get inside the handsome vampires mind and hear of the constant struggles with himself and the decisions he's made along with his deep feelings for human Bella.

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29. Bitter Sweet ( Edwards p.o.v)

 After all the commotion had taken place, I finally convinced myself that I could leave Bella’s side just for a moment as I waited to see if my attempt to revive Bella had successfully worked. I heard a tiny whimper and realized I had a daughter that I’d hardly spent more than 2 seconds with shamefully. I’d failed my duty as a father.. After all, she had been counting on me solely. Her Mother was absent in mind and body, lingering somewhere and how I hoped that it wasn’t the light.. It seemed almost selfish to hope for, but I needed my Bella.. I wasn’t ready to give up on her.. I wasn’t ready to let her go.. I’d hoped that she was lingering somewhere in between , in the darkness because then there would be more of a chance she would return to me. At this moment it was all that I prayed for. I heard a tiny cry and was ripped away from my thoughts and thrashed about back to reality, it was my first instinct to rush over to Rosalie.. To my daughter. Instinctively I reached out and took her into my own arms cradling her close to my chest. Her face was absolutely perfect, her cheeks were bright red, and her eyes were dark brown.. Such a familiar sight to me.. Such a calming feeling when I had stared into her eyes.. Of course, it felt just as if I’d been staring into Bella’s eyes, she had lots of curls in her thick brown hair. She was absolutely perfect, as if she had been sculpted straight from god’s hands. It was absolutely astonishing to me. The way she looked into my eyes, so content, as if I were the only thing that existed in this world, she gazed deep into my eyes without so much as blinking. And for some reason, I was pulled in, I couldn’t look away even if I’d wanted to, I was captivated by her.. In a deep trance. The overwhelming amount of love I’d felt for this baby girl had taken me by surprise, pulling the blanket around her tighter, already so obsessively protective of her. She had become the 2nd most important thing in my life, next to Bella. I bounced her lightly in my arms as a half smile greeted me. I felt warmth rush through my body for a moment. When I’d reached out for her tiny hands, her little fingers wrapped around my pointer finger, clutching tightly. I couldn’t help but smile. At this very moment, she’d been the only thing keeping me sane.

  “ Bella, please, I need you to come back to me. I need you to come back to us. I cannot do this without you. Can’t you see, I… I’m of no use without you. I am not meant to exist without you” I said pleading with her as I held our daughter in my arms “ You’ve got to see her Bella, you have got to open those beautiful eyes of yours and see our daughter. She is absolutely beautiful beyond belief. I know you’d just love her Bella!” I went on now smiling down at our daughter. The unmerciful tears burning my eyes. I looked over at Bella, her body still cold and completely still. My heart sank as I waited patiently and desperately for any kind of response from her and yet I’d failed miserably. I laid my head down on her chest as I struggled with the pain and I fought to stay strong for our daughter’s sake. I just wanted to collapse to the ground and scream at the top of my lungs, but I couldn’t possibly do such a thing. I was a father now, I had to protect my daughter, I had to stay strong for her. “ Bella.. Please.. Please don’t leave us. I’m not ready for that. You asked me what was more important, you? Or my life?.. And I’d answered my life.. ,but Bella.. Don’t you see…you ARE my life now! You can’t die on me never knowing that.. Thinking that there was ever a possibility that anything held more significance to me then you. I cannot bare the very thought!” I said, my desperation and immense pain now painfully obvious. My heart felt as if it had been filled with concrete and was sinking to the bottom of the ocean, I felt as if I was slowly suffocating, even breathing had become a task at this point, my chest felt tight. “ Rosalie, could you take her please? I’d like to have a moment in private with Bella if I may?” I asked. “ Of course!” She nodded as she took Renesmee into her arms happily. I waited until I heard her footsteps on the floorboard disappear into a distance. I had a problem with anybody seeing me in such a vulnerable state of mind. I took Bella’s cold hand and held it between my hand and rubbed it quickly in between mine trying to create some friction and warmth through out her body, I even closed her hand in between mine leaving a small opening where I blew my warm breath onto her hand, but no change took place, there was no improvement. Of course, I was foolish to have expected any differently. “ Bella, you really must keep your promise. We’ve got an example to make now. We’re parents. I made good on my end of the promise, now you really mustn’t keep us waiting. I know you're in there Bella, you are my fighter, you are so strong, so stubborn. It will have all been but a waste if you do not wake up, you got your wish.. You’re a vampire now Bella, I couldn’t give you up, I couldn’t watch you wilt away and die, even if it did mean giving up your soul. I was ready to make a deal with even the devil himself if that was what it took to bring you back to me. I love you with every ounce of my being. So please, if your in there Bella.. Please, just move one of those beautiful little fingers of yours!” I pleaded with her in desperation, there was nothing, absolutely no movement. I felt all hope slip away and out of my reach, I hurt beyond belief at this point in time, grief has consumed me. I felt an overwhelming sensation take me over, I felt the tears stinging my eyes once again, only, this time they hadn’t been so unmerciful.

  Some how the tears rolled down my cheek and lept from my chin to their fateful death. I put my finger to my soiled trail of tears and looked down at it, such a strange emotion, a tiny droplet of water, somehow by some default I’d been allowed to cry just this once, by some strange miracle I’d been allowed to cry.. My numbness wore off, the ice that had consumed my heart had melted away and I could feel everything all too well, it was bitter sweet, it had been more painful than I’d remembered it to be. I’d always thought myself to be incapable of such emotions, I thought I lacked that kind of bodily function, that kind of compassion. It almost came as no surprise to me that my endless love for Bella had been powerful enough to allow me to properly grieve her death, my love for her knew no bounds, it allowed me the first of many emotions. No, I shook my head, no, she can’t be dead. I just wanted to rip my heart from my chest, to totally detach myself from this world, this cruel and unjust place.

 

 

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