It's gotta be Lou

When memories flow into Amber's mind, things go awry and she is forced to tell the truth about her true self to the boy she grew up loving... Louis Tomlinson, who is now famous and doesn't remember her until she reminded him of something. Amber went from the next door neighbor to his biggest crush to his secret admirer to his best friend's girlfriend. He shouldn't feel that way, and neither should she.... Or should they? (Contains cursing)


19. Leather and Smokes

Chapter nineteen. 

I flung my hand out to catch a taxi and hopped in. I told the man my address and he dropped me off. I walked inside and the house was a complete mess. The boys were gone and there were papers scattered everywhere and everything. I sobbed as one paper read, 


I dropped all my grocery bags and ran upstairs, tears streaming down my face. I went into each and every room looking for them and found them in my room. They were on the floor, heads cut on the scalp. Liam, Zayn, Louis, Niall, Harry, and Alex were laying on the floor dead. I stood up against the wall and cried. After about five minutes, I collapsed onto the ground, head between my hands, hiding my face, crying my eyes out. I looked up one last time before noticing a hand shaped bruise on Niall's face. I cradled his face in my hands, tears falling freely. 

"Niall, I can't believe I did this to you. This bruise. You did deserve it though," I said, chuckling darkly before hugging his limp body. I stood up and moved on to Alex. I cried the hardest on him. 

"Alex, you're my baby brother. How could you just die, you big idiot? You have a girlfriend and you have to finish school, you big dummy," I sobbed.

"Why did you have to die? All of you. I loved you all. I can't believe you'd just leave me like this!" I yelled, sitting up against the wall, sobbing my hardest.

"Guys, I think this was too realistic,"a voice said. I glanced up and saw Liam sitting up, talking to the rest of the boys. I glared at them.

"How dare you?! I believed that you were dead!" I said, angrily. I got up and stormed out. I grabbed a spoon from the kitchen and my bags, plus my laptop. I headed to the back yard and up the treehouse. I plugged the charger into the wall and put my laptop on it. I set an old toy chest full of dress up clothes on the door and locked it. I cuddled up under a blanket and put Dear John on. I shut the lights off and cried, while watching all my movies and eating ice cream. 

In the middle of Titanic, there was a pounding on the door. I paused my movie to see what they wanted.

"C'mon Amber. We were just messing around. We didn't know that you'd get all upset and cry," Louis said. I rolled my eyes and continued the movie. After it was finished, I turned the lights back on and a the plastic chest slid off and the door opened, and a sheet of paper slid in. I picked it up and closed the door back down.

"Amber, I'm truly sorry about what we did. I love you babe. Can you let me in? -Louis

Louis, I forgive you, but you'd better be ashamed of what you did. You're not coming in and I'm not coming out.  -Amber"

I slid it under and fell asleep under the blanket and woke up to the pounding again. 

"Amber, we ordered your favorite for dinner. There's a couple bags of McDonalds on the island. Niall's not even near it so its all yours," Louis said. I debated whether to go down. I realized how hungry I really am and how the ice cream didn't make me feel better. It never did. It was always McDonalds that made me feel better. 

"Go away!" I croaked and watched him make his way inside the house. I unlocked the inside and crawled down. I sped inside and grabbed the bags. The boys looked at me with relief, glad that I was okay. I shot them dirty looks and went back outside to the treehouse. I sat up there for about five minutes, already through a hamburger when I realized that I needed a drink. I got back down and grabbed two bottles of Dr Pepper and walked outside quickly. Once back up there, I sat down and finished my meals. I don't really remember what happened after that.  

I woke up in the middle of the night and was freezing. I had two blankets on but it wasn't warm enough. I climbed down the ladder and went in through the back door. I walked up the stairs and went to Louis' room because of the fake blood that stained the carpet in my room. I crawled under his covers and kept a distance away from him. I felt him toss and turn until he sat up, and yet still didn't see me. 

"What have I done? Why couldn't I have talked them out of it so she'd actually talk to me?" He groaned. I listened to his complaining for a moment until I sat up and kissed his jaw. 

"Shut up," I giggled. 

"You're talking to us again?" 

"Maybe just you. You're the only one thats actually apologized to me," I kissed his shoulder.

"Is Little Miss Amber coming out of her shell and being brave about her kisses?" He teased. I stood up.

"I'll be right back. I'm gonna change into some pjs. Come with?" I asked.

He nodded and followed me to my room, where I picked out a pair of Betty Boop shorts and a red tank top. I changed into it in the bathroom and took my hair down. I fluffed it with my fingers and walked out to see Louis looking through my photo album of us when we were kids. His back was to the bathroom door so I snuck up behind him and wrapped my arms around him. 

"Hey," he said, touching my hand. 

"Hi," I purred.

I let go of him and went back to his room, with him following. I hopped into the bed and cuddled underneath his blankets. I felt him move closer to me and wrap him arm around me. I rolled over and he tucked my body against his with my head resting on his chest.

The next morning, I awoke with a sudden urge to pee. I wiggled in Louis' arms, trying to get free, but only excited his member. I sighed in annoyance. I slapped the back of his head.

"What?" He groaned. 

"Let me up. I have to pee," I told him. He let go of me and I went to relieve myself. When I came back to the room, I saw some chick with very dark hair, kissing him. He opened his eyes and made eye contact with me. I felt tears rise within my eyes, and I quietly walked out. I went back up to the tree house, which has become my new hideout recently, and locked myself in. I thought about how I'd always loved him, how he needed to be forgiven. No, he doesn't need to be forgiven. He deserves to suffer the silent treatment from me. He's always gotten his way with me, by looking at me with those big blueish grey eyes and a pout set to his mouth. It always made me melt and give in to whatever he wanted. Not this time. I'll give him the cold shoulder for a week.

I climbed down, looking calmed down. I went upstairs to my room and changed (see pic). I left my jacket unzipped completely and did my eyeliner and mascara heavily. I headed down the stairs, slowly, making sure everyone saw me. The girl I saw snogging Louis, which I learned was Eleanor, dropped her jaw and stared. 

"I'm going out. See ya," I said. It feels good to be dressed up in leather again. I would dress up punk/emo/gothic whenever I was upset or something and right now was one of these times. I headed out to the convenience store and bought a couple packs of cigs. I lit one up and inhaled. I saw paparazzi snapping pictures. I rolled my eyes and walked away. I went to a Starbucks to order a mocha.  I felt a tap on my shoulder. 

"Oh hey," I smiled at Hopi. 

"Amber? What happened?" She exclaimed. 

"I'll tell you in a minute," I said, paying for my drink. I went out for a walk with her, and I puffed on my cig. 

"I broke up with Niall. Carson isn't my daughter either," I said. 


"Really. Niall hooked up with my half sister before he went to X-Factor. She got pregnant. When she found him, she gave him full custody and I was told to claim her," I blew the smoke out.

"Louis and I knew each other growing up. We went through everything together. I was upset at Niall because he yelled at me to change out of my pjs, I took off into the backyard and hid in the tree house. Louis came up and comforted me. Niall came up and he apologised to me. I went back up there to see Lou passed out. I covered him up with one of the blankets that I had up there. Then I went to the other side of the room and fell asleep. I never locked the door again. I woke up because someone opened the door and shined a light around. The light hit me and Niall said, at least she isn't whoring around behind my back. I sat up and slapped him told I was breaking up with him. Louis shut him out and held me while I cried. I've always had a crush on Louis. Yesterday, they all played a joke on me and I got upset at them. I went back to the treehouse and sat up there for a few hours, until I fell asleep. It was freezing so I went inside and crawls din the bed with Lou. We laid in bed, talking and stuff until we went to sleep. I woke up the next morning went to the bathroom and came back to see Lou snogging Eleanor. That really hurt me. I dress like this and smoke when I'm upset," I shrugged, taking short puffs until it was out. I snuffed it out on the ground and threw it away. 

"You guys can't tell anyone," I said and made her swear not to tell.  I got an idea. 

"Wanna go to my super secret spot?" 

"Um sure. It's not infested with smokers is it?" Hopi asked, eyeing the cig. 

"Nope," I said, grinning. We walked over to an opening in the woods and went in. We got to a clearing that was filled with flowers and had a view of the entire city. I sat down, dangling my legs off the cliff and took a deep breathe. 

"C-can I try one?" Hopi asked, glancing at where we came from. I got one out and lit it up for her. I took a puff from it, showing her how. Then I handed it to her and she copied what I did. 

"It's like, I'm finally living," she said, exhaling smoke.

"I know. That's why I smoke," I said, lighting my own. 

"How old are you, Hopi?" 

"Turning eighteen tomorrow, which reminds me, here's a invite to my party," she dug something out of her giant purse. I opened it and it had all the info about it and stuff. 

"I'll be there. So, do you like smoking?" I asked, her grinning. She nodded quickly. I know exactly what to get her then. 

"Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street
Faster than the wind, passionate as sin ending so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you're already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all
Losing him was blue like I'd never known
Missing him was dark grey all along
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Loving him was red, 

My phone rang out. I grabbed it and answered. 


"Where the bloody hell are you? Everyone's going crazy," Louis yelled through the phone.

"Lou., chill. I'm out with a friend. No need to worry. No one can get us where we are," I said.

"Super secret spot? We're on our way," he hung up. 

"My body guard is coming with the boys. What a drag," I checked my nails. 

"Yeah, just terrible," Hopi mocked my tone, getting me to laugh. I took a drag from my cig and heard people walking towards us. I turned and saw Carl with the rest of the boys and Paul. 

"AMBER LYNN MCHARDIN! SINCE WHEN DO YOU SMOKE?" Louis exclaimed. I glared at him, ignoring the question. 

"Amber, what are you doing here?" Carl asked, taking in my appearance. 

"Hanging with a fan," I shrugged.

"How old are you?" Harry flirted. 

"Seventeen," Hopi blushed. 

"You're letting a seventeen smoke?" Paul glared.

"I've started smoking when I was seventeen. Her birthday is tomorrow. I mean, come on. What's a good eighteen without a little trouble?" I asked, rolling my eyes. 

"I think she's high," I heard Zayn mumble to Liam.

"I'm not high, thank you. Just fucking stressed," I said.

"Come on. It's time for an interview," Carl said. 

"Let Hopi finish her drag. We can drop her off at her place," I said. Hopi finished her cig and everyone else went ahead of us first. I grabbed the second pack and a lighter and handed it to her. She took it and put it in her purse. We hooked arms and walked with dignity. We dropped her off and she made it inside and we went off to the interview. The backstage crew, redid everything. My clothes, hair and makeup. (See pic)

They gave us all microphone things that clipped onto our ears and shirts. They sent us to the stage. I started to sit in the singles chair, but a sound went off in my war.

"No way. You and Niall sit next to each other. You guys are dating," a voice said. I ignored whoever told me that and sat in the singles chair. I smiled as the lady shook my hand, along with everyone else's. 

"We're on in three....two...." A voice shouted.

"Hello, my name is Ashley Savage. Welcome to Facts or Falsies. Lets have a warm welcome for One Direction and Amber McHardin!" Everyone clapped politely. 

"This one is for Amber," Ashley said, looking at a tweet from her iPad. 

"Okay," I smiled. 

"Carson isn't your daughter," Ashley read out. I looked at Niall and he shrugged. 

"Tell them the truth," the guys voice in my ear said.

"Fact. My sister had Carson," I said, looking down.

"Ok then. Zayn, you got a new tattoo of your girlfriend, Perrie Edwards," she looked pouty.

"Fact," Zayn chuckled and showed it off.

"Harry, you want to get back together with Taylor Swift," 

"Falsies. She's an amazing girl, but I can't date her again," Harry smirked.

"Louis is in love with Amber," Ashley said. 

"Falsies. I grew up with Amber we were best friends, I love her to death but I could never love her more than just a sister." Louis answered without missing a beat. 

"Niall accused Amber of cheating," Ashley looked a bit surprised to read that off. How the hell have all these people found this out? I only told Hopi. 

"Fact. I was spending some time with an old friend, that was a guy and he got jealous," I answered for him. 

"Amber broke up with Niall," 

"Tell them the truth," the voice in my ear said again. 

"Fact," I said softly.

"This was Ashley Savage with One Direction and Amber McHardin. We'll be back after this short break," Ashley smiled into the camera. I took off to the mic people. 

"Are people supposed to be speaking into my ear like that?" I demanded. They pointed at Simon in the room, holding a mic. I rolled my eyes. I saw Louis heading over to talk to me but I walked off to the refreshments area. I asked for a water bottle and left. I opened it and took a bug gulp from it. Louis walked up to me.

"Hey Amb-," I didn't even bother trying to listen to what he said. I ignored him and walked away. 

"Amber!" I turned around to see Liam walking up to me.

"Hey Liam," I smiled.

"Spill. Why are you mad at Lou?" 

"That reason is for him to find out by himself," I said, taking another drink. 

"Get back on stage. Liam take the single seat, please," Simon commanded.

I put on a smile and made my way to the couch. I sat by the arm and curled up by it automatically. Louis rushed over to sit by me. I rolled my eyes and scooted away from him. 

"Welcome back to Facts or Falsies, I'm Ashley Savage with One Direction and Amber McHardin," she smiled.

"So, Amber, did you dye your hair for that look?" Ashley asked.

"No. I think they used hair chalk," I said, playing with a pink strand of hair. 

"What the boody hell is hair chalk?" Harry asked.

"It's basically chalk but you use it to color your hair in to look like you dyed it," I explained.

"Who puts chalk in their hair? You're going to damage it," Liam said, giving us funny looks. 

"No, it's completely natural.. I kinda read the package when they were doing my hair," I admitted, shyly. I don't like to admit that I like to read for fun. 

"I know your dirty little secret," Zayn teased. I stiffened and so did Louis next to me. 

"And what would that be?" I asked, trying not to panic.

"You read those sappy romance books," Zayn said, 

"I have a few romance books in my room. That's it," I blushed. Louis and I both slumped over in relief. 

"So Amber is a romantic? Keep that in mind, boys," Ashley winked at the guys in the middle. I saw them stare at me, so I sent them a flirtatious wink and flipped my hair. They all turned pink and did the bro-slap-hug thing. 

"So, who's single?" Ashley asked, noticing my wink.

Liam, Niall, Harry and I raised our hands.

"How are things with Eleanor, Louis?" Ashley asked, watching us closely. I kept my best poker face on and looked at the boys in the crowd, who were watching me again. 

"Things are going really great. We have our fights and all, but we are able to work it using communication," Louis said, smiling. I felt like dying, seeing as he had faked the feelings about me the entire time. 

"What was your last fight about, if I may ask," Ashley said, actually respecting the boundaries. 

"That was actually this morning and it was about if we were going to the beach or the pool," Louis said.

"Do you want to take fan questions?" 

"Totally. We owe it to them. We wouldn't be here if they hadn't been watching us on X-Factor," I piped up. 

Ashley picked one of the girls in the front row for the first question. 

"Amber, what's your relationship status with the boys?" 

"Very good friends, possibly tour mates," I said.

"How did you all meet Amber?" Another girl asked Harry.

"It was at the mall. She was crying because her boyfriend had just broken up with her," Harry smirked at me.

"What did you even see in that dusche?" He then asked me.

"I don't know. I guess I just wanted to be loved and he had been there since I starred primary school," I shrugged.

"Amber, will you sing Summer Love?" A hopeful Directioner asked.

"Totally," I grinned.


Can't believe you're packing your bags
Trying so hard not to cry
Had the best time and now it's the worst time
But we have to say goodbye

Don't promise that you're gonna write
Don't promise that you'll call
Just promise that you won't forget we had it all

'Cause you were mine for the summer
Now we know it's nearly over
Feels like snow in September
But I always will remember
You were my summer love
You always will be my summer love

Wish that we could be alone now
If we could find some place to hide
Make the last time just like the first time
Push a button and rewind

Don't say the word that's on your lips
Don't look at me that way
Just promise you'll remember
When the sky is grey

'Cause you were mine for the summer
Now we know it's nearly over
Feels like snow in September
But I always will remember
You were my summer love
You always will be my summer love

So please don't make this any harder
We can't take this any farther
And I know there's nothing that I wanna change, change

'Cause you were mine for the summer
Now we know it's nearly over
Feels like snow in September
But I always will remember
You were my summer love 
You always will be my summer love 
You always will be my summer love
You always will be my summer love"

I sang loudly. They stood and clapped for me, while I blushed.

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