I won't let you go

When Lily found out, that she had cancer, her world broke down. The doctors gave her at least one year, but she was too afraid to tell her boyfriend, Harry Styles. But when she started chemotherapy, she couldn't hide her sickness anymore. She decided to ask her twin sister, Emily, to live her life with Harry. Emily agreed and started to date Harry for her sister. But what will happen when Emily falls for Harry too? Will he find out? And will Lily make it?


2. Please, do it for me?

Either of us talked, while we drove home. But I never let Harry's hand go. I knew, that I was going to die and the time I had left, I wanted to spend with him. But unfortunately he was still famous and had a signing with the rest of the boys in one of these big malls here in London. So some hours later he kissed my cheek and left.

I grabbed my phone from the little table in our living room and searched for her contact. I pressed 'call' and waited..

Ring. Ring. Ring.

Come on Emily. Pick up!

"Hello?" The calm voice of my sister rang trough the speaker. I couldn't help it, but relax a bit as I heard her.

"Hey Ems.. It's me, Lily." I said, still weak from the diagnosis.

"What's wrong babe?" She asked, sounding very worried. We were twins and she exactly knew, when I felt bad.

"Can you come over? We have to talk.. I need you." I whispered and tried not to break down in tears.

As I finished, I already heard her car starting and rolling down the street. "I'm there in a few." She said and hung up. Leaving me alone on my sofa, fighting with those stupid tears.

Emily was there ten minutes later and she didn't even bother about knocking, she just stormed in and wrapped her arms around my skinny body. We sat there for what seeme like forever, until she finally spoke, "Tell me what's wrong.. Is it about Harry?" She whispered, looking me in the eyes.

I shook my head. "Everything's fine with Harry.."

"What is it then? Talk to me Lily!" She said, using my real name.. She usually never did this, she always called me Lils. She must been really worried.

I locked my fingers with themselves and looked down at them, "I have cancer, Emily." I whispered and new tears started to fall. As she didn't answer, I looked at her. Her face was full of a such a horrible pain, I've never saw before at her. Tears streamed down her face and she looked like she would break down every moment.

I took her soft hand in mine and we cried, until we had nothing left to cry. "What did Harry say as you told him?" She asked, while her voice cracked at the end. I looked into her big brown eyes, which looked exactly like mine and just didn't answer.. "You didn't tell him?" She whispered. It wasn't really a question, as she already knew the answer.

"That's why you're here.. I don't want to tell him. It would break his heart." I said, trying to put myself together. I didn't want to cry again at the thought of Harry..

"I know.. But how can I help you?" She asked, stretching the 'I'.

"Look.. In three weeks I'll start chemotherapy and Harry would notice. I really really don't want him to. So I thought, when I go to the hospital, you pretend to be me.."

".. And be Harry's girlfriend?" She continued and I nodded. "Lil I can't do this!" She said.

"Oh please, Emily. Please, do it for me!" I begged, while I lost the fight and the tears streamed down my face again.

For a long time she didn't say anything.. Too long, "What is if he notices?" She finally asked and I knew she would say 'yes' at the end. She can't say 'no' when it's about me. And if it's my last wish.. Gosh, I thought a way to much about my own death.

"He won't.. You look exactly like me, you act like me, you speak like me, you even smell at me!" I said and smiled a bit. "It's just until.. until-"

She interrupted me by shaking her head and saying, "Don't ever fucking say that! You will make it trough this.. And if it helps you, I'll do it." She said.

"Thank you so much Emily, I love you."

"I love you too."

We both knew, that I wouldn't make it trough this. But we were fine, acting like we didn't. The next days Harry were in Sweden with the boys and Emily and me spent the day to get her 'ready'. I told her everything she had to know. I was sure Harry wouldn't notice anything.. I hoped.

Emily interrupted my thoughts with her soft voice. "What if he kisses me?" She asked. Hmm, I didn't think abou that! I didn't know what to answer..

"Kiss him back." My heart broke as I sad this. I just allowed my sister to kiss my boyfriend, the thing I loved the most in this world, my everything, my Harry.

She just nodded with a emotionless face. I coudln't say what she was thinking.. "Harry comes back tomorrow. I will have my last two weeks with him and then go into hospital.. And then you will live my life.. Please, be good to him.. He's my-my e-everything." I said, while sobbing. "I will write him a letter and explaine everything to him, when I'm.. gone, you have to give it to him. Promise me you'll do that!" I looked at her and cried even more.

"I will. I promise." She sad and hugged me.

After that Emily left and I lay down on mine and Harry's bed, crying my eyes out. The next two weeks will be the last I will have with Harry.. I will miss him so much. "I love you Harry and I'm sorry." I whispered even if he can't hear me. With that I closed my eyes and drove off into a dreamless sleep.
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