New Life

Maddie's terrifying past is behind her, she's ready to start a new perfect life with her boyfriend Harry, and best friends Zayn and Louis. She's happy, free, relaxed, and in love. Will a simple mistake ruin everything for her future? Will a simple 5 minuets change her life forever?
*Sequel to 'Remembering Katy Perry'. You might have a hard time following along if you haven't read the first book, so check it out(:*


15. Mistakes

Zayn's Pov

I hear a door slam shut and groggily make my out of the guest bed witha groan. What's going on now? Probably more stuff with Harry and Maddie. Fun. 

I pad out in the hallway in my boxers and white tee half expecting to see Harry or Maddie. I get all the way to the kitchen and still no sign of either of them. Although I do see a pissed off looking Niall and confused Liam standing behind the counters. 

"Hey, guys. What's up? Where's Haz and Dee?" I ask casually while getting a glass of water. 

"Fuck knows where Harry is. Maddie ran off and hid in the bathroom like a minuet ago" Niall answers tensely. 

Why is Maddie in the bathroom? And why don't they know where Harry is? I slowly start putting two and two together and figure it out. 

"They got into another fight, didn't they?" 

Niall nods while Liam elaborates on the details. 

"Yeah, Harry was here when Maddie woke up and she broke up with him again. She feels like she isn't good enough for him. So they were both upset, but Maddie showed it more. Long story short, Harry got mad at Maddie for being upset about the break-up, said 'fuck you' to her, yelled at Niall and I for sticking up for her, Maddie ran off and Harry left, mumbling something about someone better." 

"Well, shit" I mutter, running my hand through my hair. I get Harry being upset but he doesn't have to be a dick about it. 

"Is she alright?" 

"Dunno, Zayn. We were going to let you or Lou talk to her." 

I nod my head and point down the hall. 

"She's in that bathroom?" 

Liam and Niall both nod their head. I walk down the hallway stopping at the door.

Its quiet, like almost eerily silent quiet. I would of though shed be crying. Huh. 

"Maddie? Are you okay? Liam told me what happened.." I ask gently. 

"Uhh.. yeah, Zayn. Fine." 

There's something wrong. I can't place it but her voice isn't normal. Its tense and scared and something else. Something I haven't heard before.

My heartbeat quickens as I grab the knob. 

"Can I come in?" 

"N-no! Give me a minuet."

Something's really wrong. I hear a loud thud, then the clatter of something on the floor come from the other side of the door. 

Shit! What's going on!? I try to turn the knob but it doesn't budge. She locked the door. What the fuck is she doing in there?  

"Maddie? Are you okay? What's going on?" 

I wait a second for her reply, but am returned with silence. 

"Maddie! Let me in!" I command. 

"I-I can't!" she stutters back, sounding  absolutely terrified. 

I have to get in and see what she's doing, help her if she needs it. 

With out thinking I raise my leg up and kick the door open with as much force as I can muster up. 

I'm completely horrified at what I see. 

Maddie is backed up against the wall, holding her left wrist, which is coated in blood. A small trail of scarlet drops on the white tile floor lead straight to her and the growing pool underneath her. 

My shaving razors are scattered across the floor, half of them broke. 

Maddie looks at me with panic and shakes her head. 

"I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry, Zayn.." she mumbles, tears spilling over her eyes. 

Hearing her voice snaps me back into reality and I rush toward her, gently grabbing her hands. 

"Maddie.. What the fuck did you do to yourself?" I ask breathless. 

"I-I didn't think you'd care.." she stutters, sounding genuinely surprised I'm concerned. 

Does she honestly think I don't care about her? 

I look her dead in her beautiful, swimming blue eyes and whisper my thoughts aloud. 

"Do you truly believe that?"

She pulls her wrists out of my grip and nods her head, warm blood still flowing out heavily. 

"You were only 'friends' with me cause I was dating Harry. Now that he ha-hates me, you can stop pre-pretending. Now, will y-you just leave, Z-Zayn?" 

Her whisper steadily turns into a sob as she lets the words slide out, breaking my heart. How can she think that? First of all: Louis and Niall and Liam and I weren't her friends just because she was dating Harry. We like her as a person and as a friend. 

Second: Harry doesn't hate her. He loves her with everything he has, that's why he's so incredibly hurt over this break-up, which won't last long. They'll get back together soon. 

"Maddie. Listen to me" I say firmly, as she looks away from her still gushing wrist.

"I care about you, we all care about you. We weren't just being nice to you cause of Harry. We truly love you. Your like part of the family now, another annoying sister to deal with, one we can't live without. That's why you can not do this to yourself!" 

I tenderly grab her arm and glance down. A decent sized pool of blood has formed on the ground beneath us, and is growing every second. I need to stop this bleeding.

"We need to get you fixed up" I mumble, helping her off the ground and toward the sink. 

I can't believe she'd do this to herself. I understand being upset, but intentionally cutting yourself? It kills me inside knowing that's what she did. 

I turn on warm water, not to hot, and put her left arm underneath it, moving my fingers in small, gentle circles trying to clear away the blood. 

"Y-you gu-guys shouldn't of saved me with R-Ryan. I sh-should've died." 

It hardly a whisper, but loud enough for me to hear.  

I whip around and lock eyes with her. 

"Stop. Don't you ever say that, Maddie. We need you alive. I don't what any of us, especially Harry, would've done if we'd had lost you that night." 

She looks away with out saying a word, and flexes her left hand, causing more blood to come out of the small incisions. Shit, these might be deeper than I thought.  

The maroon water endlessly runs down the drain, staining the perfectly white, porcelain sink. 

I run my finger over the cut and my heart shatters. This beautiful, lovely, funny, adorable girl did this because she feels she's not good enough for anybody. 

Her soft, wet skin leaves my dry, worn skin tingling with a feeling I've never known. What's going on? 


Her soft, smooth, delicate whisper makes my heart beat a little faster. No, this wrong. I shouldn't be feeling this. It's Harry's ex and your best friend! 


I don't dare look at her, and continue rubbing her arm.

"Zayn" she insists. 

I wearily turn my head and see her mesmerizing face looking cautiously at mine. God, she's beautiful. 

Her golden blonde hair is thrown up in a messy bun, still untouched from sleeping on it, with little bits of hair falling out at every angle. Her rosy pink lips now stand out against her pale, yet nearly flawless complexion. A few red spots here and there, but nothing to noticeable. 

But what catches my attention most is her brilliant blue eyes, somehow soft yet hard as rock at the same time. Loving, yet unforgiving, careless, yet so concerned. They're surround by dark, thick lashes which again, stand out against her light skin tone. 

"Yeah?" I ask, my voice cracking. 

I focus in on her lips as she speaks, mesmerized by their movement. 

"Thank you.. For caring. It means so much to know someone's concerned and loves me.." she trails off, leaving only the sound of running water to fill the room. 

We lock eyes and my heart loses control, nearly beating out of my chest. So damn beautiful. 

With out even thinking I lean in and press my lips to hers, feeling an electric shock travel up my spine. 

She doesn't attempt to stop me, but opens her mouth and kisses back. Her taste mixes with mine and it couldn't be sweeter. 

Her hand twitches in mine, and I'm brought back to reality. What the fuck am I doing!? I shouldn't be kissing her! She's your best friends ex girlfriend! And she's nearly bleeding out! 

I pull away, and look at the ground, ashamed of myself. 

"I.. Ehm.. I'm sorry. I should go. I'll have Liam come in and help you." 

With out another word or glance at her I stand up and walk out of the bathroom, leaving her behind. 

What have I done? 

Harry's Pov 

I roll off of her, out of breath, and stare at the ceiling. What did I just do? 

She slides her finger up and down my chest, resting her head on my shoulder. 

"See, wasn't so bad, was it Harry?" 

Her blonde hair covers half my left side, and I'm repulsed by it. What the fuck did I just do? 

"Just tell me when your ready for round two, love" she whispers in my ear, icy breath sending chills down my spine. 

She hops off the bed and pulls on her panties and bra, throwing on my shirt. I can't help but think how much better my clothes looked on Maddie. 

Maddie. Her beautiful face pops into my mind, teasing and taunting me. The scene in the kitchen starts to replay over again in my head. 

How hurt she looked when I talked to her, the way she popped up and sprinted away, the boys standing up for her. 

It finally clicks in my head, she didn't want to break up with me, she felt she had to! 

I glance around the empty bedroom and my heart stops. Oh no. Oh no no no. I've made a huge mistake. I shouldn't be here, shouldn't be with her. 

I should be at Zayn's apartment, curled up on the couch with all the boys, Maddie in my arms and watching The Lion King for the 50th time. Hearing her cuss out Scar while she tries to hold back tears while Simba tries to wake his dead father. 

"Harry! Do you want any eggs or something?" 

She appears in the doorway, making her way to the bed. She has a wicked smile on her pouty, red lips and straddles me. 

"Unless, you want to skip breakfast" she whispers breathlessly, placing her lips on my neck. 

God damn she's hot. 

No, no Harry! Think of Maddie.

Just the thought of her makes my sick with shame for myself. What am I doing here with Perrie? She shouldn't be on top of me, she shouldn't be wearing my t-shirt, and she should not be kissing me. 

I gently, but firmly push her off me, throwing off the blanket and getting up. 

"This has to stop, Perrie. We're done." 

She crawls across the bed and wraps her arms around my waist. 

"Oh come on, Harry" she teases, moving her lips down my stomach. 

A small groan escapes my lips and she moves down.

"Perrie, stop" I say breathlessly. 

She looks up and pushes me away, whipping off my t-shirt. 

"Fine. Leave. Get the FUCK out Harry." 

Well, shit. I didn't want to piss her off, but I can't do this anymore. I need to go and make things right with Maddie. 

I throw my pants on, my shirt, shoes and walk out of the room, hearing the door slam rudely behind me. Damn. 

I grab my coat and car keys, and rush out into the hallway. Let's fix this, Styles. 
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