Who to choose?

Two best friends, Rose and Jessica moved to London together to start fresh and go to UNI. Little did they know that they would meet their absolute idols... The one and only One Direction. They were massive fan girls! What girl wouldn't want to be in a love triangle with Niall Horan and Harry styles.

A/N: feel free to give constructive criticism! This is my first movella! And I would love help from you guys and anymore ideas will be appreciated as well


26. Delilah Hope Paul

Jessica P.O.V

It was 2 in the morning and Louis and I had been up all night talking about just about anything. We went from talking about his parents divorcing, his sisters, how much he misses being to see his family and the awkward topic of Eleanor. We were also talking about my family, I had 1 brother and 1 Sister and we discussed my mom and alittle bit of my dad and what I can remember of him. We talked about Australia and how much I missed it and how Rose and I have been best friends since Kindy and how protective we are over each other. We were having a great time until a nurse came in and ruined it. "Oh great, your still up. I just had some forms that your friend Rose said was better for you to fill in. There are just a couple of gaps." "Oh ok um yea like wat." I dont know why Rose wouldnt have filled some things in. "Are you currently pregnant?" "Do I look pregnant?" "Sorry mam but its protocol." "Oh well, no im not currently pregnant." " What is your marital status?" "Single and never married." "Thats seems to be everything if you would just sign here." She pointed her scrawny little finger at the dotted lines. I signed my signature quickly hoping to get her out of my face. She seemed satisfied and was just about to leave before she got a light bulb moment. "Oh im so sorry miss, but it appears that there is just one more question that was left unanswered." "And what is the question?" "Have you ever been pregnant? And if yes how many times?" I knew Louis was sitting right there next to me and I knew not answering the nurse would make it more suspicious but I couldnt admit it, not to him.  I could feel his eyes burn into the side of my head, staring for an answer just like the nurse. "Ms Paul, im going to need an answer." I sighed knowing there was no way out of this. "Yes, i have been pregnant before and only once." Louis eyes grew bigger and were still staring at me. I couldnt stand to look at him, and the nurse left with a satisfied smile. There was an awkward silence where I just looked down and Louis wouldnt stop staring at me. Eventually I faced up to him. "What?" "What do you think Jessica? You have been pregnant? And you didnt think to mention it?" "Well Louis, its not exactly the first thing I tell people. Its in my past, and I prefer not to recall that particular memory." "Being a mother and having a kid is a big deal Jess! We have been talking the past 3 and a half hours about families and parenting and you dont think to mention you have a child back in Australia?" I looked down, partly ashamed partly angry. "Im not a mother Louis, and I dont have a kid back home." The tears already started building up.  He seemed confused with this piece of information. "What? I dont understand." "Yea alot of people dont." "Jess, please you can tell me. I wont judge you." "Fine, if you really want to know." "I do" "Well I was 16 and had just gone out partying with some friends, the guy who was my lift home passed out at the party. I decided to call a cab but they said they dont pick up in that area and if I walk down to this little garage nearby they could pick me up there. Desperate to get home I started walking, I was halfway there when this group of guys stopped me and..and they.." I could barely get it out, tears were flooding my eyes by now. "Hey, shhh. If its to overwhelming I understand you dont have to talk about it." He had come over to me and hugged me. "No, you need to know, I want you to know. Well they... they raped me. Out there on a street. I was so traumatised I didnt know what to do, I just curled up into a little ball and cried my heart out. This car pulled up and the guy inside was actually really nice, offered to take me to a hospital and everything but I told him I wanted to go home. He did as I said and drove me home." "Are you sure you want to tell me Jess?" I guess me crying wasnt helping Louis cope with this story. "Louis, let me finish. Its already hard without you stopping me every 5 seconds. Anyway after about 2 months I realised I hadn't gotten my period and I went out to buy a home pregnancy test. I did several of them and they all turned up positive, I told my mum and she was supportive because she knew what had happened to me. She wanted me to get an abortion but I couldnt stand the thought of killing my own child." "So wheres the baby now?" "Its, its dead. Heaven I guess." "I dont understand." "You see Louis, when I went into labour, I was only 7 months and 2 weeks and there were some complications with the baby, besides being a premature baby meaning she was extremely small and underdeveloped she had the cord wrapped around her neck and she just wasnt getting enough oxygen, they rushed her away from me and she died the next day from being so tiny and fragile." "The baby was a she?" "Yes, her name was Delilah Hope Paul." "Its a beautiful name." "Thanks Louis. I chose the name Delilah because it means delicate and weak and when I held her for the first time she felt so delicate and I thought I was about to break her." "And Hope?" "Well, I guess as soon as she was born untill the moment she passed, I hoped that she wasnt going through pain and that she would be ok. Hope just seemed to fit her perfectly." I was still crying but less now. "Im really sorry Jess, I never knew." "Its ok Lou. How would you have known, I dont really go around telling the whole word. Its just something private and I dont want people to know, OK?" "OK." Louis then came and sat next to me on the bed and  wiped away my tears, he gave me a quick kiss on the tip of my nose and layed down with me in the stiff hospital bed. "You would have been a great mother." I squeezed Louis' hand to show him that I appreciate what he said. I fell asleep like this, with Louis holding me in his arms. It just felt right I guess.

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