Tell me a lie

Kenzy Colon thought that her life was miserable
Abused by her step dad,
Mom alcoholic,
Brother died when she was 13,
All that didn't matter to her when she met Niall James Horan
She thought everything was perfect until one day his ex girlfriend
Megan Reed tries to pull them apart... Everything goes completely wrong.
Will Kenzy pull through an manage to still be with Niall ?


25. Scars..

Kenzy's P.O.V

 I wake up and rub my eyes. There was a massive pain in both my wrist going up my arms. I look at them and see the cuts. I stare at it completely confused, and then it hit me. Everything from last night came back to me watching the movies, Having the fight, what Niall said to me and then running in the bathroom and making those painful deep cuts and Lindsey going to the hospital. I feel the tears streaming down my face once again, I couldn't believe what Niall said to me, because he knew what it would make me do. It hurt so much, when he told me what she said was true and all I have is a pretty face it was just as bad as someone punching me across the face. He only knew the girl for a week but yet she is waaaay more important I guess. But it's true everything little thing she said was true.. everything those kids told me in high school and middle school, That I was a bag of bones, anorexic, a worthless human being. I didn't deserve my part in this world. I mean I knew I wasn't anorexic or THAT skinny but I still thought it was true. As i sat in the bathroom all the thoughts of school came back to me. Those nights that I tried killing myself, but couldn't do it. Those times that to make the pain go away I would drink and smoke weed till I couldn't even  stand or think straight. My so called 'medicine' was temporary but the pain was permanent. I didn't want to come out of the bathroom not at all. Because I shouldn't even be here anyways. I was really hungry so I dicided that I would eat then go back in the bathroom.  I open the door and a sleepy Zayn falls on the floor. He probley fell asleep while trying to get me out. He wakes up and rubs his head because it hurt from when he fell. "KENZY!" He yells and gets up and hugs me  tight. "Are you ok? What did you do in there? Why did you run straight in there? Let me see your wrist." He said with a serious look. "No Zayn." As i walk away his arms pull me right back to him. "Kenzy. let me see your wrist." I sigh, and try not to cry while i stick my arms out to him. "Oh my. Did Niall do this !?!?!?" I stay quiet and look away from his eyes. Biting my lip trying not to cry. "Kenzy WHO made you do this!?" "No one I did it to myself Its true everything they said about me it is ALL true! I'm a worthless human being, a waste of space, I shouldn't be on this earth. I AM NOTHING." He looks at me with tears almost falling out of his eyes. "I'm sorry that I can't be the girl that everyone wants." I let go of his grip and run straight to my room and slam the door. I can hear Zayn  diall a number on his phone walk away and start to yell. I'm guessing he's telling Niall. I lay on the bed and just cry. "Why me.. out of all the people in the world. Why me." I whisper to myself. My crying gets louder and louder. I then remember something. In my bag I had weed I had brought the other day from this guy. I was supposed to smoke it but didn't want to because I felt like there was no need to. But Obviously there is now. I run to my bag and Get the paper and the weed. I roll it up find one of Zayn's lighters and light it up. I place it in my mouth I inhale then keep it in my mouth for sometime and then blow it out. After about 5 hits I was OUT. Everything was just funny to me. I laughed at a blanket because it was a blanket. Don't ask. I hear pounding at the door. I trip over to it and open it. A probley pissed Zayn was at the door. "Heeey there Zanie wanie" He barged in the door and I almost trip because of the breeze. I trip but quickly get back up. I can tell he smelt the weed. He went over to me and grabbed the blunt outta my hand. "HEY!" When I reach for it I trip on my face but laugh so hard that Zayn looked at me with a 'WTF is wrong with you' face. I laug at his expression but stop when he there was a knock at the front door. "I'll get it!" I say with a slurred voice. I open the door and see Niall and Hannah at the door I snap out of my trance of being high and slam the door straight in his and its face. I laugh and go back to the room to light another one up. "Who was it?"  "Niall and his creature," He laughs at my comment. I go back to my bag and grab a couple ounces of the weed. "What are you doing?!" Zayn asked. "I'm getting my medicine." We hear another knock at the door and before I could say anything Zayn said he would get it. I light another blunt up and begin my pain relieving. I was really fucked up this time though. I heard a door open. I look over and see it's my door. I see Niall walk in. "Kenzy?" "Mhhhhhmmmmmm?" "What are you doing?" "Hmmm let's see i'm trying to relieve the pain you caused me." I say with a big smile on my face. "Me?" "No Niall not you. No shit you!" "About that I'm sorry." "Sorry? Sorry isn't going to cut it Niall look were you fucking put me and you say sorry. Hell no Niall I'm not dealing with your sorry shit." I walk out of the room. I couldn't believe what I saw and Niall couldn't either. Zayn KISSING Hannah. Now my heart is definetly broken in two. It was like he had ripped my heart out of my chest. And stopped on it. This is the second time someone had done this too me. I couldn't believe it. I think i'm done. Fuck Love and all the Pain it has brought to me. I'm done. I go back to the room get my shit and head to the door. "Kenzy wait!" I hear Zayn yell after me. "WHAT?!" "I swear that isn't what it looks like I knoe everyone ses but i'm serious she kissed me and wouldn't let me go!" "Right. Thats why YOUR TOUNGE WAS IN HER MOUTH?!?" "It just happened it doesn't mean anything I promise you it didn't." I looked at him and I saw that he was sorry, but no. I turn away and walk.

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