Chasing the Sun

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COMPLETED. Alira Somers. A 19 year old girl who isn't that much of a fan of One Direction. But her best friend, Jenna, won tickets to a little 'promo' about One Direction. Little did they know, One Direction was performing. That's where they lay eyes on both of them for the first time. That's when Alira changed her views on them. That's when 2/5 will fall for her. That's when all hell breaks loose in her life.

**Blurb is misleading, it isn't as good as I thought it would be. Personally, it's not my best but by all means, if you want to read it go ahead! Just let me warn you, it's not as good as the blurb says.

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28. Chapter 28: more heartbreaks

Chapter 28: more heartbreaks

 

Janelle’s POV

 

I couldn't concentrate on what they were talking about. All I can feel is guilt. I just clung on to Niall's arm, wishing I won't hurt him. 

Matt's right. I did practically make Ali get together with that psycho. At the time I was proud that she was with a psychopath. And it's true I broke Jenna's leg. I broke it when she came up to me to talk. Well, I was aggressive. What was going through my head? Why did I actually believe all those rumours? Did I really believe it? Or was I just jealous that they were popular for being so nice? Yes, I admit. I was a bitch in high school. I held a grudge against everyone. They all hated me yet no one was strong enough to stand up to me. I'm surprised I even had friends in high school. 

Now Niall. How can I do this to him? I'm such a terrible person. Every time I spent with him he's been nothin but kind. He's the most amazing person in the world. Yet, I'm using him. I'm using him for revenge in girls who don't deserve it. And whenever I look into his deep blue eyes I feel butterflies in my stomach. My heart flutters and my palms sweat. I smile non stop in my head. Does that mean I like him? No. It's more than that. I think I'm falling for him. 

The fact that Ali has actually been through so much. The fact that she put someone in jail and almost died. I just can't believe I actually hated her. I can't believe I wanted to hurt her more. I feel terrible for doing this to her. Why am I such a terrible person? How did I get like this? 

Seeing Matt again made everything click. I don't know why. He was the only one who stood up to me. He told me I was a bitch and I would always retaliate back. I would say something about him being gay. I made it sound like I was homophobic. But I'm not. I just didn't get on well with him. I zoned back in to their conversation. 

'Oh no... We didn't mean it like that. We're just... Um.' Liam said uncomfortably. Matt, Jenna and Ali started to laugh. Everyone looked confused. I was confused but it was for a different reason. I'm going to do it. I'm falling for him. I can't hurt him. Or his friends. 

'Relax, mate. I don't mind. I'm not ashamed of who I am.' Matt smiled proudly. I'm going to do this now. 

'Niall, can I talk to you in the kitchen?' I whispered. Niall looked confused. 

I tried so hard no breaking down crying right now. We both walked into the kitchen and I could feel everyone staring at us. Once we walked in I turned to face him. I can feel the tears brimming in my eyes. 

'Babe, what's wrong?' He asked me. He cocked his head and his eyes showed nothing but concern. 

'I..I-' I started to say but I couldn't finish. Instead I broke into tears. 

'Janelle. You're scaring me. What's wrong?' He wrapped his arm around my shoulders. I cried into him. This is the last i'll ever be this close to him. 

'Niall. I'm sorry.' I whispered into his shirt. 

'Sorry about what? Janelle.’ He murmured. His breath hitched, he sounded nervous.

‘I’m so sorry.’ I murmured again.

‘Janelle, babe. Look at me.’ He lifted my chin up and forced me to looking into his eyes. More tears came out.

‘I think I’m falling for you.’ I whispered.

‘And why are you saying sorry for that?’ He asked me.

‘Because... at first-’ i cut off and took a deep breath. I closed my eyes but the tears kept trickling down.

‘Because what?’ He sounded like he had a lump in his throat. I opened my eyes and i looked at him.

‘Because at first I was using you. I was using you to get my revenge on Jenna and Ali.’ I confessed. More tears gushed out.

‘Wh-what?’ His voice cracked and tears started to fall out of his eyes.

‘I’m so sorry, Niall.’ I whispered.

‘But it’s okay now, isn’t it? You don’t want revenge on them anymore, do you?’ He tried to be optimistic. But I can’t do this. Not to him.

‘Niall. You know I can’t be with you. I know I’m going to end up hurting you. And I know I’m hurting you right now. I’m so sorry. I’m sorry for hurting you right now. I’m sorry for using you. I’m so sorry.’ I whispered to him. 

I kissed him, for the last time. As our lips met I tasted the salty tears that came from both our eyes. He kissed me back. My stomach twisted with guilt but I also felt the butterflies. My heart fluttered with the touch of his skin but it also dropped. 

‘I will always remember you.’ I said, looking into his eyes. 

All I saw was hurt written all over them. His blue eyes looked into mine and it glistened with fresh tears. I walked out the kitchen and into the living room.

‘I’m such a terrible person. I know that. I’m so sorry for absolutely everything. I’m sorry for breaking your arm, Jenna. I’ll admit I took that too far. I’m so sorry for absolutely everything.’ I looked directly at the three of them sitting side by side on the couch.

When I finished talking I stormed out the door while the silence hung in the air. I jumped into my car and drove away. I couldn’t get the image of Niall’s eyes out of my head. I hurt him. I hurt him deep. I will always remember him. 

 

Niall’s POV

 

I watched as the three of them connected. They had such a strong bond it was unbelievable. And the first time i saw Matt, I felt Louis, Jake and even Zayn and Harry get jealous. Even I admit he was pretty hot. And he’s gay. But wow. You’d never expect him to be because he was such an attractive guy, in my opinion. No, I’m not gay for him but honestly, he is attractive. I can feel Janelle cling onto my arm when Matt yelled at her. He was frightening. I thought he was going to slap her or something. And it was a bit weird when Jenna and Ali automatically knew something was wrong. it was like they had telepathic minds.

‘Niall, can I talk to you in the kitchen?’ Janelle whispered to me. I felt the confusion on my face. I followed her into the kitchen with the stares from everyone digging into my back.

‘Babe, what’s wrong?’ I asked her, the concern obvious in my voice.

‘I..I-’ She started to say but she broke into tears. My brows furrowed. What’s wrong with her?

‘Janelle. You’re scaring me. What’s wrong?’ I wrapped my arms around her shoulders and her tears stained my shirt.

‘Niall. I’m sorry.’ I heard her whisper. Sorry? For what?

‘Sorry about what? Janelle.’ I murmured. I was breathing heavily now, I’m nervous.

‘I’m so sorry.’ She murmured. Why can’t she just tell me!?

‘Janelle, babe. Look at me..’ I lifted up her chin and i made her look at me. More tears gushed out as I stared into her hazel eyes. 

‘I think I’m falling for you.’ She whispered.

And that’s a bad thing? Why is she so upset to be falling for me? I’m falling for her too. She’s an amazing person. She hasn’t done anything wrong at all this entire weekend.

‘And why are you saying sorry for that?’ I asked her.

‘Because.. at first-’ She stopped talking and took a deep breath. I watched as she closed her eyes and the tears spill. The suspense is killing me.

‘Because what?’ A lump rose in my throat. Watching her cry, watching her get hurt over something, it’s making me cry.

‘Because at first I was using you. I was using you for my revenge on Jenna and Ali.’ She confessed. Another wave of tears came. 

What? Using me? For revenge? She hid it well. I thought she was over it. She acted as though she was starting to like the two. 

‘Wh-what?’ My voice cracked. I felt the tears run down my cheeks.

‘I’m so sorry, Niall.’ She whispered again.

‘But it’s okay now, isn’t it? You don’t want revenge on them anymore, do you?’ I know i was only trying to find a positive point in this. I know I was only finding away to keep her. Im hurt. I’m hurt deep. To find out the girl I really liked only used me? It hurt.

‘Niall. You know I can’t be with you. I know I’m going to end up hurting you. And I know I’m hurting you right now. I’m so sorry. I’m sorry for hurting you right now. I’m sorry for using you. I’m so sorry.’ She whispered to me.

She leaned in and touched her lips to me. The salty tears was prominent on my lips and taste buds. I kissed her back. My stomach churned at her touch. My heart fluttered as our mouths moved in sync. Does this kiss mean the end? 

‘I will always remember you.’ She said, looking right into my eyes.

I looked back into hers. Guilt was written all over her hazel eyes. I cried at the sight of it. She can stay, can’t she? I don’t know. I’m mad she used me. I’m hurt because she used me. I want her to stay though. But what she said was true. She can’t be with me now that I know she was using me. I watched as she whipped around with her blonde hair resting on the back of her curvy body. I can hear her saying something to the others. But I couldn’t move. I was frozen with the tears flowing down. I heard the front door slam. She’s gone? It’s over? That’s when my knees gave out. I was knelt down on the kitchen floor with my head in my hands. I can’t believe this is happening. When I actually thought something could happen between me and her. I was falling for her. Hard. 

The kitchen door opened and I looked up, hoping it was Janelle. Hoping she was back to say that she couldn’t stay away. But it was just Georgia. She knelt down beside me and wrapped her arm around my shoulders. I cried onto her shoulder. It was so clichéd but she was there and I needed someone.

‘Niall? Niall, what happened?’ She whispered. She had a soothing tone which for some reason made me cry more.

‘She ended it. She ended it because she only went out with me to use me for revenge. She ended it because she was falling for me.’ I told her through my racking sobs.

‘It’s okay, Niall. She’ll come back when she’s ready. She did the right thing, you know. She only did it so you didn’t have to hurt more if you ever found out. Niall, she must have really liked you to tell you the truth.’ She comforted me.

‘But I’m starting to fall for her too. Yes, it hurt me when she told me. But if hurt me more now that she’s gone.’ I hugged her tightly.

‘She’ll come back for you, Niall.’ Georgia whispered in my ear. 

I looked up and stared into her hazel-green eyes. Her eyes were comforting. i stared into them and her eyebrows furrowed. I found myself leaning in and our lips touched. I don’t know why I was doing this. Georgia pushed me off and I felt so rejected.

‘Niall, stop. Don’t do this to yourself.’ She whispered, looking down onto her lap.

‘I’m sorry, Georgia. I just-’ i started to apologise but she cut me off.

‘It’s okay, Niall. I understand. You just broke up with someone and you just needed someone. I understand. Just try and not do it again.’ She smiled warmly at me and picked me up off the floor.

‘I’m sorry and thank you.’ I said to her.

‘It’s okay, Niall.’ She smiled again and pulled me in for a hug. I hugged her tightly. 

 

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A/N

 

Fuck. I hate breakups and all. They make me so depressed. Do you reckon Georgia and Niall should get on? Leave any comments :3

 

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