I'm Trying To Be OK

Amber has worked hard to provide a great life for her little sister, Lily. When their father experiences a painful -and unexpected- death, their mother decides to choose a different life. Therefore, Amber is given no other choice other than to begin raising 3 year old Lily by herself at the age of just 16. Now Lily is going to be 5 years old and has become a big fan of One Direction, When Amber finally sets aside enough money to score tickets to a concert, the boys become very interested to know more about them. Their lives instantly change into something better than anything they could have ever imagined. Find out what happens throughout their journey of love, trust, risks, and happiness.


29. Surprise

I trudged towards the local playground and sat quietly on one of the swings. I was by myself and oddly, there were no children at play. I looked at my bare feet and wiggled my toes in the sand. A figure passed me and sat on the swing beside me. I didn't look up, because I was afraid it'd be Zayn and that he'd disobeyed me by following me anyway. It was a guy, I could tell by the way he cleared his throat. Obviously to get my attention. I watched as a single tear made a tiny dent in the sand below me. The guy coughed and I rolled my eyes, because I was beginning to get annoyed with him. "Do you love him?" he whispered. My eyes darted up as I recognized the familiar voice. I turned my head slowly to his. Noah stared longingly into my eyes and looked down at his fingera awkwardly. His innocent light brown eyes shifted up to mine again as I managed a small smile. He still waited for an answer, but I didn't give him one. 

"How did you find me?" I said calmly. I pressed my small hand against my forehead and angled it to block the beaming sun. 

"I didn't. I was over there by the tree when I saw you come over here." I looked at the tree he'd pointed to. 

"Why were you at the tree?" I asked even though I knew the answer. Last year, when we were completely in love, we carved our names into the tree with the key to his motorcycle. I smirked at him as a bit of happiness flickered in his eyes. 

"Because I was missing you." He mumbled. I blushed, feeling that special feeling that he always gave me. I stared at the bruise on his jaw and frowned a bit. I stood up and went towards him, because I wanted to feel his warmth. His hands intertwined with mine as he fit his face the crook of my neck and sighed. 

"I missed you too." I replied, not knowing if I really meant it. I remembered when he loved me, and cared for me. When he wasn't being violent, he was the perfect boyfriend. He supported me and comforted me and held me at night. A wave of bad thoughts flowed in after that. He'd also hit me and choked me and forced me to do things I didn't want to do. Unsure emotions swam crazily around my brain as I closed my eyes. He pressed his soft lips to my collarbone and rubbed his thumbs across the top of my hands. "I..." 

"Mmm?" he hummed, distracted by my skin. 

"Noah. This can't happen." I assured him and he looked down. 

"Why don't you have shoes on?"

"Don't change the subject. Gosh, you always do that." I complained. 

"Do what?" he asked, releasing my hand and running his warm fingers up and down my arm. He kissed my neck and I pulled away. 


"Amber I'm changing. I swear. I miss you... and Lily. I never realized how strong my love for you was until I lost you."

"You hurt me." I reminded him.

"I know. And I'm sorry. Baby you have no idea how sorry I am. Please." he looked up at me and his eyes glistened. I pushed his dirty blonde locks off of his forehead and kissed it. He smiled. "Do you forgive me?" I nodded slightly, unsure of how I felt about my decision. "I won't ever hurt you again. I promise." I trusted his powerful words and Zayn fell from my mind as Noah picked me up and spun me around. When he set me down, he caressed my face and kissed me gently. I missed his kiss. We separated and I pulled him close to me and buried my face in his chest as he held me, just like he used to. "I love you." he whispered, and I answered him by giving him a long lingering kiss. 

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