Losing Myself For You

Grace is a 19 year old girl just trying to pay the bills of her new apartment in Doncaster, England. She decides to go into the tutoring program for younger kids at the local high school, but when she meets Lottie's older brother one day will it strike up some romance? Or maybe conflict? And will she still be able to focus on her job and career with the new distractions?


85. Blackmail and a Surprise Visitor

Lottie's P.O.V.

The day I got home from the hospital was two weeks after I woke up. I was still really weak, but my odds were good at surviving. David never left my side, but his mother came down often and chatted with the two of us. I felt a little tension between the two of them, but no matter what I said he would not go home.

" So I've noticed that ring on your finger Charlotte every time I've been over here. What is it for if you don't mind me asking?" she always called me Charlotte. She did not care for nicknames.

" Actually David picked it out for me. It was a gift..."

" OH?" she raised her eyebrows at him, and I could see him hide his reddening cheeks.

" Yeah, it was very nice of him. I never want to take it off, but obviously for my treatment..."

" Of course! But what does it symbolize?"

" Ummm..." I looked over at David. I was trying to read whether of not he wanted me to tell his mom about the promise in the promise ring.

" Mom, you know how strong my feelings are for Lottie. I plan on marrying her someday. That is a promise ring that one day I will since an engagement ring is a little too fast."

Her eyes widened in shock, but then her hands went to cover her heart, and I could see tears threatening to spill over," Johanna!!" she yelled for my mom.

" Yes? Is everything alright?"

" After all this time it finally happened. Go on tell her," David repeated the story for my mom, who did cry, and they both decided to finally explain their craziness," For the longest time we knew you two were perfect for each other. From day one there was something about you two that just clicked. We started to worry when you got older and nothing happened but now... It's all worth it."

They cried for another ten minutes until the doorbell rang and my mom got up to get it. David was holding onto my hand, rubbing his thumb back and forth of it.

His mother excused herself from the bathroom and so I took the opportunity  to talk to him," You have to go home with her tonight. I can tell that she misses you."

" But I can't just leave you here by yourself! What if-"

" No what if's David. I'm begging you to. For me if not for her. Ill be alright I promise and if I'm not ill text you."

" Fine, I'll go get her. I'm coming straight back in the morning though..."

My mom came back in as David left," Lottie you have a visitor. Brian I believe his name was. Should I send him in or no?" 

I want my second chance Lot. That was the last thing he said to me. I felt the whole rush of emotions come back from before; confusion, anger, frustration, annoyed, everything. He helped bully me for years and all of the sudden he was interested in me? I don't think so...

I nodded my head and sure enough a couple seconds later Brian walked in. He had flowers with him and something else, but I could not tell what," I'll leave you two alone then," my mom exited the room.

I starred up at him from the couch," Can I help you?"

" I umm.. I wanted to drop these off for you. I could not come see you in the hospital, so when I heard you were home I wanted to check up on you."

" Oh..."

He shifted awkwardly and shoved his hands in his pockets," I also came to see if you had given any thought to... Me.. And you..."

I knew that was coming," Brian, you can't go back and change the past. You helped to bully me on a daily basis, and that is something I will never be able to forget. I would never be able to fully trust you because I would be afraid of those same thoughts running through your mind."

" But Lot I'm I different person. I think by watching you be with David I realized that there was so much more I could get out of my life. I could be truly happy with a real girl like you. Then I realized that maybe I did not just want any real girl, maybe I just wanted you.."

" You see this ring on my finger?" I asked.

" You're not-"

" Engaged? No. This is a promise David made me that someday we will be married, but just when we are ready."

He rolled his eyes," Sounds like an engagement to me."

" See that's what I'm talking about. You obviously have not changed. I'd like for you to leave now Brian."

" Lottie I-"

" I really would like some quiet, my mom can show you to the front door if you cannot find it yourself."

" Lot-"


I was cut of by contact on my cheek. I quick;y flinched away from it, and wiped my cheek of with my hand. Not even meaning to be mean just by habit.

" Lottie I love you."

I looked up into his eyes, and I could see a bundle of hurt. I wanted to feel sorry for him, but I just couldn't. Not after everything he put me through," Get. Out. Now."

He walked toward the door, set down the flowers and whatever else he had on the floor there, and left just like I asked him to.

There was never a chance we would be together.


Harry's P.O.V.

I should've known the second she texted me and told me to meet up with her there was something up. I was trying to get her to agree to a DNA test, because I wasn't sure this baby could be mine, but she was being stubborn. I had the tiniest hope as I pulled into the hotel parking lot that she was going to finally agree.

I walked up to her room, and she invited me in like nothing was up. I found it peculiar that she locked the door behind her, but I did not say anything out loud. I looked down at my phone. It was almost time for C and J to wake up meaning Maddison would be up too. I never told her I was leaving, and even though I knew I was leaving her by herself I just needed to put an end to this whole dilemma. 

Lou was so busy with Lottie waking up and being newly engaged that he never found out, and I intended to keep it that was as long as the baby wasn't mine.

I sat down on the desk chair, and she sat down on the corner of her bed," Harry, you're probably wondering why I have called you here. Before you ask no I will not agree to a DNA test yet, but I can put your mind to some comfort and tell you it isn't yours."

" Then why am I-"

" Here? Yes I'm getting to that. See the man that is the father is... Not known to the public. He is a regular person, and my management doesn't think it looks good on my record for going back into the modeling business. I happen to know that your girlfriend, Maddison, is a model as well, and she has something I want. She has one of the top modeling companies ever to sponsor her, and because they have her they won't take someone like me."

Maybe because your pregnant, I said to myself.

" Your job is to destroy her career. I don't care how you do it, you just have to."

" And if I don't?"

She smirked," There is an awful lot of information about Maddison that hasn't reached the public. Embarrassing information, and I have the proof of it all."

I played with my hands, but kept eye contact with her. I couldn't let her know  that inside I was panicking. I could never bring myself to destroy her career. Ever. 

She's worked for it her whole life, and even though I know I could provide for her she loves her job just as much as I love mine," Do I have a second option?" 

" Yes, but I don't believe you will like it."

" Tell me what it is. I won't ruin her career I'd take fathering your child over that."

She laughed," It's so funny to me how short of a time you have known this girl and how much you think you love her. You don't even know her," I took her pause to death glare her, but it didn't have much affect since she was the one blackmailing me," You will never see her again. You will tell the press that we are dating, and that you love me with all of your heart. This is YOUR child, and we plan on raising it together."

I nodded. Inside I was dying, but what choice did I have? Ruin my own life or ruin Maddison's. I had to tell someone. Surely someone could find a way out of this, but was I really willing to accept the fact that maybe they wouldn't, and I would be stuck raising a child that was not mine.

" I take it it'll be the second option Harry?"

I nodded," Leave me to text her that I won't be seeing her again."

" OK. I have an interview later today, I will be sure to tell them everything," Eleanor had the biggest smile on her face there, and I could only think of how fake it was. It wasn't fake happiness just a fake smile, because you can never smile deep down inside when you know you have ruined someone else's hopes and dreams.

My hopes and dreams of being with Maddison forever were shattered and I found myself holding back a few tears. If I couldn't love Maddison then I would do this out of love for her no matter how much it hurt.

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