Same Mistakes

Adilene had a depressing life. Her boyfriend was abusive, her family unappreciated her,and she cut herself to let the pain away. Find out what happens when she meets Zayn, but little did she know that her life was about to change.


12. Goodbye

I woke up late today. I looked over to the clock and it was 1:00 p.m.! I quickly did my morning routine and I headed downstairs to eat lunch. As I was going down the stairs, I heard the boys arguing so I stopped half way. 

"But you have to tell her", I heard Niall say.

"I can't. She will be depressed and besides, can't we take her with us?", Zayn said. At this point I'm wondering a lot. Go where?

"We can't Zayn. Paul strictly said we can't take anyone. You can promise her you will chat every night.", I heard Liam say.

"It's not going to be easy guys. It won't be easy for any of us.", Zayn said it like he mean it. Mean what? I had to interrupt. "What's going on Zayn? Please don't lie to me. I overheard you saying that you are going to leave. Where?"

"Can you excuse me boys?", all four nodded and Zayn gripped my good/right wrist softly as he leaded me upstairs to our room. "What happened Zayn? Or more so, what is going to happen?", my voice was cracking. Every time I felt like something bad was going to happen or if I felt nausea, my voice would crack in between sentences.

"Adilene...", he took my hand and he sat me down next to the bed. This could only mean he had bad news. He was arguing with the boys downstairs, and he sounds more pressured than he was.

"Zayn?", I said calmly. Zayn held both of my hands firmly. His hazel color eyes were staring strait at me filled with a hint of horror. But most of all, he looked depressed and that changed the mood for both of us. Whatever it is, I don't like the feel of things.

"Adilene, it's not easy for me to say this. As much as I don't want to admit it, it will separate us. And well, all I want is for you to be happy. After this, promise me that you will not harm yourself. Promise me that you will still love me. And promise me that when I'm away, there won't be a moment you will stop thinking of me."

I gulped down my nerves, because without him, I won't have the strength to carry on. "Yes Zayn. I promise." I was on the verge of tears, but I wanted to let Zayn know that I will be fine.

"Adilene, me and the boys have to go on tour. I wish I could take you with us, but Paul doesn't let us. I don't want to be too long apart from you, but the tour is four months."

Breathless. All I felt was as if I was a fish without water. I cannot go four long hard months without Zayn and the boys. It feels awful to feel that someone you love, could be taken away with a blink of an eye. "Are you sure it's four months Zayn?". I just cant believe it. I'm sure it's some type of joke. I don't want to take a 'yes' for an answer. "Yes Adilene. I'm sorry", was all Zayn said before he gave me a long hug. Oh how am I going to survive without his warmth next to me? "Zayn, here", I stood up and I went to my drawer. I pulled out a black necklace. To me, the necklace was something more. This necklace signified when we first me . I wore that necklace and I just feel like it is lucky because it brought me Zayn. Meeting him was enough to change my life. To convert my life from a living hell, to what seemed like a dream, maybe a paradise.

"I want you to have this. Whenever you need me, just remember that I'm always there. Whatever you do, wear this. That way, when the paparazzi get a shot of you, I'll see that I was always in your heart." Zayn nodded as he looked down. I put on the necklace for him but I saw a moment later that he was crying, so the best I could do was comfort him. I will only have him for what might feel like 2 hours. I just want to spend whatever time I have with him.

"How much do you love me Zayn?", I'm not sure why I asked this question, but I had the urge to know. "Are you serious Adilene? You have no idea", Zayn snickered when he said that, but it didn't sound mean, it sounded cute. His voice had the perfect pitch that sounded to mean from innocent. "What if I was gone Zayn? What would you do?", I maybe wanted to see how Zayn's perspective is like by now. Does he feel as devastated as I do? I don't want him to. "Adilene, please don't ask me that. You know well enough that my life would be nothing without you. I don't want to think about it. You know that I'll be nothing without you, I want you alive. I want you here next to me. I can't explain it, but I'm sure you feel the same." "I do Zayn. I can't live without you either."

The next few hours felt like minutes. We were downstairs with the boys, along with El and Dani. I assume that they felt the same, they weren't as talkative as usual, which I already missed. We watched about three movies, or so I think. I couldn't concentrate in anything. I would miss a question the boys asked me, and I wouldn't feel any movement. It was just me, sitting alone in a black cave, waiting for my savior. Maybe this is what it would feel like when Zayn will be gone. If it does feel like this, I never want to leave his side. I just sat there, thinking what my life would be without him, and through the next few hours, I slept. The last thing I saw was Zayn, carrying me up to our bedroom before I feel into an uncomfortable sleep.   


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