Staying in the Moment

Alice and her best friend Sarah decide that the perfect place to go to college would be Oxford University, in the beautiful city of London, England. But, they get an unexpected surprise when they meet Greg Horan, Niall Horan's brother from One Dircetion. As Alice and Sarah get thrown into the lives of the five famous boys, Alice's ex-boyfriend, Grant, comes back into her life. Bringing back new and old feelings. Alice has to pick how she loves and learns that life is not what she expected. On the other hand, Sarah's keeping secrets that will get her into nothing but trouble.


12. Endings

Alice's Point of View: 

Why do I always screw everything up! Why can't my life be like everyone else's? You know the kind where a girl meets ONE guy, they fall in love, maybe get married and have kids. But not for me! No, I fall for two guys, while dealing with my best friend being pregnant. 

"Alice?' I hear Liam say, as I walk past Funky Buddha, heading home. "Is everything alright? I just say Niall leaving in a hurry. I wouldn't have brought the lads here if I knew you where coming!' he jokes.

"Umm I texted you.. Didn't you get it?" I squeal trying to hold back my tears. I don't want to talk to him, I need Sarah. She is the only one that will tell me what to do and make everything better. 

"Um no I didn't. But have ya seen Niall? I really need to talk to him."

I cringe at his name, "I think he um...... went that way." I point my finger into the direction where he ran off into the street. 

"Thanks love!' Liam says, giving me a quick peak on the cheek before heading off into the direction I pointed.

As I walk up the stairs to my  apartment I let the tears stream down my face. "Sarah?" I whisper, closing the door quietly behind me, so that if she is asleep, I won't wake her. 

"Grant, we need to tell her" I hear Sarah say, while I'm standing outside her room, unseen.

"No, I can't do that to her" I hear Grant say back. 

"You can't? What about me!? This is the hardest thing, I feel, like I have ever had to decide. She's my best friend! What I did is like a one way ticket to hell in the best-friend handbook! She is already mad at you; what's the difference if she's just a little bit more? 

"No, I just can't" ,I hear Grant tell her in a stern voice,"Alice can't know I got you pregnant. I kissed her tonight, Sarah.  She felt something, I just know it. She will come back to me. " He states, more as like trying to convince himself than Sarah. "And what about you?" he continues after a while."You won't get money off of Harry, if you tell her. She will go off and tell the whole fucking world!"

Sarah's quite for a second before she responds,"You don't think I know that? I don't care that my family's in debt! I don't need Harry's fake pity money! I'll have you! Have you been blind this whole time! I have always been in love with you! You are the only thing I need!' 

"Sarah I-" Grant begins, before I finally enter the room, not willing to hear anymore.

"So Harry's not the father?" I ask Sarah, still in shock. "You have been lying to, not just me, but Liam, Louis and Zayn, three people that care deeply for you. And your in love with my ex-boyfriend? Plus, you where going to free-load off of Harry? What the actual fuck Sarah? Who are you? Because the person in front of me right know is not my best friend." My voice increased as I spoke, and by the time I was done with my rant, I was full on screaming.

"Alice claim down" Sarah speaks softly, wadding over to me. 

"Just tell me when it happened?" I say in a low whisper. 

"About a week ago, at that party a couple blocks away from my house" Grant says. I almost forgot he was there. The room fills with a silence that seems everlasting. 

"The week after I found you and that curly slut making out in the gym?" Grant just nods his head. "Wow, you get around don't you!" 

The room becomes silent again, and I can practically feel the awkwardness. "So what now?" Sarah asks, breaking the silence. 

"You both leave...' I mutter. 

"Alice I can't leave........This is my home too."

"No you will leave, Sarah, and take your lover boy with you. Go stay at Liam or something. I want you gone in an hour; got it?" I say more harshly that I expected. Sarah just nods, and starts grabbing things around the room she will need for tonight. 

"I won't tell them," I say to Sarah grabbing her wrist," I wont tell them that that," I state pointing to Sarah's belly," isn't Harry's. It's your choice to tell the the truth, or just keep lying." I don't get an answer, just her muffled sobs as I reach our front door. 

"Alice?" Grant says closing the door. "I'm sorry. It's not like I wanted to sleep with her to make you mad or anything like that. It just happened. Will you just look at me?"  I do as he says, looking up into his crystal blue eyes.

"I'm done with your lies" I state as he try's to bring me into a hug. "Stop acting like you care how I feel! Just don't come looking for me, okay?"

"Alice you know I can't do that. I will always come after you. I'm not giving up" he says giving up trying to comfort me.  

"Please," I say almost in a whine," Let me go. It's like what I said before, I didn't want you to come after me in the first place, so don't come after me again."  I push him aside, walked out the door, and taking the stairs wanting to get out of there the fastest way possible.


I chose to walk to the park, it's the only place I can think of that will claim me. I sit on our bench. "When did life get so complicated?" I ask myself, in the dark. I just want to feel happy again. Is that to much to ask? I can tell you that I haven't been happy in almost three years, but that's a lie. He made my life worth living. I never told anyone that I had depression, which came mostly from school and of my family neglecting me. When Grant cheated on me it got worse, the cutting deeper, but making the pain go away. Once I found out Sarah and I got into Oxford, I knew things where going to get better. But life doesn't work that way. I start crying in the middle of the park, and then cried harder,because I hate self-pity.

"You okay, miss?" I look up to find an old couple standing above me. Will I ever get that? No, with the way life is going I'm going to die alone.  

"It's okay. It's okay" the old man says taking a seat on the bench.

"Arnold, she's a crazy. Get up and let's go" his wife says. Arnold gives me one quick tap on the back before getting up and moving, quite quickly, along the path with his wife.

God, do I look that crazy?


I get back two hours after midnight, still crying. 

"GOD! STOP CRYING, ALICE" I scream, taking a pillow of the couch and throwing it against the wall. I walk over to the bathroom and into the cabinet to look for something to cut myself with. I stop myself when I see Sarah's bottle of sleeping pills. 

'Everything can just disappear, Alice. Dying is so simple. No one will miss you" a little voice in the back of my head says. 

I grab the bottle, with shaky hands, it is just that easy. It's time, I think to myself. I sit on my bed with a bottle of water, the pills and my cell phone out in front of me. There's just one thing I have to do before I go. I call him, but his phone goes straight to voice mail. 

"Hi..." I start out with," I know that my words must have hurt you earlier." I take a deep swallow, forcing myself to continue,"I love you. I need you to know that I love you. I'll wait for you, up there. I..... I just love you so much, which is why I have to go. They always say that you should let the things you love, leave, so I guess it's just my time. Just promise me," I sniffle whipping the tears of my face," that you'll find someone, who loves you half as much as I do. I will love you, forever and always" I add before a beep goes of signaling the message is over. 

I consider calling Sarah. Telling her that I still love her, even though she put me through the worse possible pain. Knowing Sarah, though, she would pick up the phone. I can't have that happen, I need to do this.

One by one, I start taking the pills. Each one goes down easier than the last. As I drift into darkness, I think of my perfect day. The day we did nothing but lay in bed, eating food, and making each other laugh.

The last thing I picture, before I am completely gone, is the way he throws his head back, when I made him laugh so hard. He has the most beautiful laugh. I believe that his smile can make Satan himself feel joy.  

I remember wanting to stay in that moment forever,and so I do. 

The End.


A/N: Okay, I hope you all enjoyed  Staying in the Moment. I know I kind of leave it off with a cliff hanger. You will never know if Alice ends up with Grant or Niall. You will never know if Sarah tells the truth about her baby really being Harry's. And you will never know if Alice really dies. I love everyone that has read this. I may write a sequel or may just leave it with you deciding what the ending is. Again, I love you all xxxx

Thank you for reading. 

With all my love, S







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